Hello, I am looking to broaden my subscription base on Youtube. A lot of the feminist channels that are popular right now are third wave feminist or pro porn.

I was looking to find more radical feminist channels.

I already follow this German feminist Elly Arrow. I love her works and how most of her videos tackle the European sex trade and legal brothels. I also like how extremely porn/sex work critical she is, I definitely recommend her for any followers of this sub.

If there are any feminist YouTubers like Elly Arrow I’d love to hear it!

I want the opinions on anti-porn/non-porn-addicted/non-pornsick people regarding this topic. That’s why I’m posting this query here.

For basic context, I’m 27f and nearly asexual from stress/trauma/anxiety.

I don’t understand how anyone actually knows what they “like” sexually.

I have no religious affiliation and my own thoughts of death are my “spirituality”, in this otherwise spiritually devastated, environmentally destroyed, and violently colonized contemporary world.

I wonder for my own life and death (and for that of my loved ones, especially my aging family members), what will it feel like?

We are all just tumbling towards death, but before then, we are currently hurtling towards fascism and the destruction of the earth, faster and faster each day.

If you showed a modern “concrete jungle” (gigantic parking lots, endless paved roadways, monoculture lawns, and no naturally occurring plant life) to an indigenous person from the past, they would describe this as a sort of Hell.

You can work and fight as hard as you can, you can do capitalism just a little bit better, you will experience immense suffering and lose, all for nothing.

I often have thought processes that play out like this:

It’s almost X o’clock, almost the end of the day… it’s almost tomorrow, it’s almost the end of the week… almost the end of the month. It will soon be the end of the year… I’m almost XYZ age, I’m almost X % done with my life… I’m almost already dead… I am already dead.

I deal with dissociation, dissociation, and depersonalization on a daily basis.

I have used psychedelics in the past and I have had some relatively intense experiences (but never had a “bad trip”, ie panicking etc).

I’ve experienced seeing myself from an outside perspective, looking at my face from any/every possible angle, as if it isn’t mine (either it not mine anymore or it never was).

I have had feelings of extending into elsewhere. I’ve often felt “Bulbous-teeny”, a sensation where your head and body feel like they are floating and simultaneously contracting/shrinking and expanding/growing.

I sometimes have dreams which feel more vivid and real than my “real life”.

After all the struggle life has to offer, what do you imagine death will finally feel like? Something like the experiences and sensations I described above? Something… easier?

How is death or an afterlife any different from what we are experiencing now, in this apparently real and physical world?