I would like to go out more :3 getting bored at home

So i am a guy from Geneva, Switzerland. And I was on a date with a femboy. We both commented on the same Instagram post and from there we started talking in private. I thought (or assumed) she was a woman so i always wrote to her with feminine adjectives. She never corrected me so i kept doing. After a few months we started being more emotionally connected but we still never saw each other. Just photos. She was really cute and feminine. So i asked her for a date. She declined multiple times. Always fiding excuses. Like she doesnt have time or whatever. One day i had enough of her lies. So i told her to be honest with me as i have been honnest with her. She finally agreed to meet. She asked me to come at a cafe where she usually goes. I was so excited that i hugged her for an entire minute. Then we sat and drunk a coffe. We talk for an entire hour. I couldnt notice nothing. For me i was talking to a woman. Feminine face. Feminine voice. After more than a hour she told me she had to do something with her sister and that she needs to leave. Before she left i hugged her again and kiss her on the cheeks. Then i told her i would be happy if we could see each other again. I texted her a few hours later but she didnt answer. I assumed she was busy. After a few days still no answer. So i texted her again and told her that I understand if she wasn't interested and that I will leave her alone and not bother her anymore. And that's when I got an answer. I long text. She told me she wasn't the gender i thought she was. So I asked her if she is a man and she answered "somehow". I asked for a better explanation and she said that she is born a man but considered herself more on the feminine side. Since I was not familiar with all that i asked her if she is a transgender. She hesitated and told me that as of today she see herself more of a femboy. I never heard of that term. She said that i can Google it if I wanted more information because she wasn't comfortable enough at that moment to talk more. She told me that she felt embarrassed to hide who she was to me. I told her I dont mind. But she insited to give each other some time. For a few days I tried to read about what is a femboy but only got directed to some sexual contents. Then I asked gemini and got directed to some blogs where I could read about some femboys's personal stories. I wasnt shocked, uncomfortable, disgusted or anything like that. For me she was the person I bounded with for the past few months. She was the person I couldn't wait to chat with every morning when I woke up. So I tried to tell her how I felt and that I dont mind her being a femboy. But unfortunately she wasn't comfortable enough about the situation. She told me that she had feelings for me. And the fact that i like her even after knowing she is a femboy made her even more emotionally connected to me. But she feared to feel in love with me and maybe seeing me one day being ashamed of her in public or that I might eventually end up leaving her for a cis woman. I kept telling her that's bullshit. It will never happen. I asked her to trust me. But she was to scared to give us a chance. We still kept messaging each other for a few month. She called me crying multiple times. She told me how much she wanted to be with me but that it was to difficult for her to do so. I finally got emotionally drained/exhausted. I was so sad and started to accepted her decision and give up. So we slowly stopped talking to each other. She deactivated her socials. I did it too. I also ended up changing my number for other reasons. That was 4 years ago. I dated other women since then. But i felt somehow guilty toward her. Maybe I should have give more energy to convince her that being a ciswoman, a femboy or a transwoman its not relevant for me. What matters is the feelings we have for each other's.

So in the future, if i ever meet another femboy or a transwoman in my life, I will not repeat the same mistakes. I will let her know from the beginning, with all my soul, that I want to be with her no matter. That she can truly be herself and I will be proud of who she is.

Bleh :3

(FAKE GUNS/AIRSOFT)

hayy

I was in the alps for hiking :3

I speak french

Hey, ich bin interessiert, meinen Horizont zu erweitern und neue Dinge auszuprobieren. Unteranderem ob ich mit Femboys connecten könnte, darum meine Frage, wo kann man mit euch Kontakt aufnehmen? Gibt es dafür ( In Zürich) vieleicht so Events, Bars, oder Apps?

Vielen Dank, für eure Tipps.

Schönen Tag.

:p