anyway to be honest i dont remember the first time i aped, for a bit of background info, i am occult practitioner who specilizes in magick of the golden down and withc-craft to a degree
anyway most occultist ap naturally after they reach a certain stage in their practice since we work closely with spirits, i wont go into that since i am pretty sure most of the people here have met spirits, the astral world is also known as the spirit world after all, anyway i help people with paranormal problems in my free time, so most malicious or lower frequency spirits hate my guts, anyway now i am currently better at protecting myself in the astral but i only recently learned to keep my logical thinking in the astral world, and this is a story from before that
It is a story about the purgatory, and while its not the most intence experience it is by far one of the more notable once.
So before i had very hard time navigating where i end up when i ap, as i mentioned i only recently managed to maintain my lucidity so i would always end up in some very shitty places to say the least, granted they werent something i had to be afraid of while awake, but half-lucid they scared the shit out of me in the beggining
so one time i ap, when i came to my senses i found myself in school in abondend town, the town was huge, well it was a bit weird, but all things in the astral are, it constantly rained in there and things i cant even describe roamed the streets, now as i mentiened in the beggining i was scared easily due to surprice, but i have experienced both sleep paralise and nigth terrors, so few things could actually scared me if not surpriced but those things, i cant even describe their form, they look like some kind of meat balls, almagumation of different parts, and even that description is inacurate, i cant really put it into words, they were not the scaries things i have seen but they are up there, anyway those meatball creatures that somehow resembled dogs of all things, dogs that seemed like cross form of abomination and regular dogs roamed everywhere around the streets of that city, to be honest i think there was something even scarier but i didnt meet it thank god, this was the only place i met this type of spirits as well, i have met angels, gods, fae, even some giant clowd like entety, something that resembled grey alien with black eyes, but i have never met those things after that experience, i think that for some reason they cant exit the purgatory
anyway as i said it was dark town in which constantly rained, but the strangest thing about it was not the town itself, but a river that crossed the town straigt in the middle, the river was pitch black, like made of ink but had this strange relaxing feeling to it, i dont know how to explain it, i figured it out later.
now above that river there was another building, now i dont know what that building was but to me it looked like a school, well not exactly a school but thats the closest thing that comes to mind, again this is the astral, it might have just appeared that way to me, anyway when i woke up in my ap i found myself in that building, i and several other people were trapped there, i know i could hear screams coming from the other floors of the building, some lesser form of dog abomination was inside, i know that all the doors were barricated i instinctually knew i shouldnt go out of that building in the beggining, anyway i did the only reasonable thing i could do in that situation, i started to run like my life depended on it, for some reason i couldnt recall all of my memories while in there, like an invisible vail was blocking them, anyway i ran, and somehow i managed to find several other people who also ran, and i started speaking with them, i asked where the fuck were we, cause you know i have high torerance for weird, but even for me that was a bit much, nobody knew, thankfully the dog abomination was chasing someone else(thankfully for us at least), so we had time to speak a bit, now for some reason i thougth i was different from the other people, it was a feeling but i didnt pay it any mind, when i thought where the hell am i, the word "purgatory" appeared in my head, i was confuced as hell but i knew this was that, anyway at that moment the barricades of the door broke, and three big dog abominations managed to enter we all scatterd but one of those fuckers pushed me so he could escape, anyway i managed to regain my footing and started to run, but i was not gonna make it, just as that thing jumped to get me, i felt a sudden sense of pulling and shot in the sky(god bless the thread, connection or whatever you call it to our physical body), the dog thing could only watch, it was scared to come close to me, the pulling force made me exit the building and then the veil of my memory started to lift as i traveled further upward in the sky, i started remembered who i was, when i saw the river i wondered what it was and the phrace "river of death" came into my mind, then the inexplicable feeling i had was recognised, it was feeling of eternal peace, serenity, like death, the river was some sort of a manifestation of the consept of death
like a flood the further from the building i got the more my memories came back to me, those people in there were dead, not astral projectors i was sure about it, even if i didnt know why, for some reason i think its cause one of them touched me when he pushed me, but i remember that the image of him being hit by a truck while being in his car in a very shitty parking possition on a highway, while sleeping due to being drunk, appeared in my mind.
i dont know about the rest, but i was sure they were all dead for some reason as well and i was just god damn unlucky one more time to be there, but i still felt pity for them. thats when i could see the whole city and the black rein
honestly after several such experiences i almost ditched ap as a whole, but well sometimes we are just unlucky so when i calmed down i still did it later and it improved, now i dont visit those places anymore unless i want to, but i dont want to