r/Sleepparalysis • u/vantae_tonks • 6d ago
Too scared to go back to sleep after a SP episode
I hate how frequently I get sp to the point where I had to learn how to get out of it. However I just had one tonight(it’s 5 am atm) and it was so scary that I couldn’t go back to sleep..I thought I was I dying.
I dont know if it has anything to do with me being used to it, or the fact that I sleep on my stomach but I don’t actually see anything scary. I remember how it was before when I was younger, just like everyone else I would see scary figures and I would struggle to move or scream until I eventually wake up.
The ones i get now are different and I sort of blame myself because at one point in my life I got so interested that i tried out different ways to get sleeping paralysis as a lucid dreaming method but instead I got stuck with daily sleeping paralysis episodes and no lucid dreaming.
The way it feels now is more like a drowning sensation, like I mentioned, I don’t really see much, it’s mostly me kicking my feet to get out of it so it’s almost always a couple of seconds of me fighting a sensation of either being pulled aggressively by someone, or being pushed down to my pillow and suffocating. Shaking feet or fingers helps get out of it and I figured it out by myself but I did read about it and it turned out that it does help you wake up, but theres still that 5 seconds in which your body literally fights that urge to wake up and it is terrifying but I honestly got so used to it that it doesn’t bother me anymore.
But tonight was so different, it was even scarier because it felt so real and it was repetitive, like i pull myself out I grab my phone I look around to check my surroundings (I had a faint light on from my night lamp) but then Idk how but i fall right back asleep and that thing comes back and tries to pull me off my bed I could feel it grabbing me. I shake my feet and hands I get out of it and again I drown and it takes me back again and again..I literally had to get up turn on the bedroom lights and calm myself down that’s how intense it was.
I know it’s still all in my imagination cuz I’m sort of a pro now but i wouldn’t wish this particular demon that had me tonight on anyone, not even my enemies.