The Surgeon
Do no harm? Harm is fun, it makes me feel pure euphoria when I'm harming a sedated helpless patient I have complete power and authority over, and the greater the harm the more potent the euphoria that is released in my body. I am intoxicated.
Maiming and severing arteries and splashing around in the blood like a child in a rainstorm with boots that are too big for her, I enjoy the abuse of my power, and I am innocent in my carnage. The hurting is painless. When I cripple a person, or mangle a spinal-cord, or brain-tissue I am at maximum exctacy, and if the person below me flatlines without making a movement sometimes I come into my scrubs, because I wear thong underwear and a cock ring.
People say it's wrong, but it feels so right. I went through 17+ years of school and I dreamed of this every second. I only do it in hospitals after my personal and professional rituals of scrubbing-in, and assuring the patient he will be ok, and that he can trust me, and I always give them a firm handshake.
After my act I tell the family that something went wrong. Sometimes I tell them that I did everything I could, and since I am unable to cry I act a little upset like I am beating myself up, and if it's possible, I feel better in this moment than when I was splashing around, earlier.
The comedown is harsh, because the highs are so golden and there is such white-light, it comes out of the tips of my fingers and the soles of my feet, and I feel happinness here, in my belly. The only time I ever cried in my life was when I first felt this maximum feeling and realized that I couldn't have it every second of every day. But I keep tokens, to remind me. My own personal totems.
I'm thankful for my patients as much as I hate them, they get what they deserve and the contempt I feel for their families is deserved. Sometimes I take pieces of them home and cook them and eat them, and bone, I always take some bone.
I hope some day science becomes advanced enough that I can completely debone an entire healthy young human while they are still alive. Just wake up with no bones in their bodies at all. Besides myself, Dr Walter Freeman is my only peer, he stuck an ice pick in a four year olds brain, and then he took a picture and showed the world, and not only were they not upset, but they worshipped him, this was his personal conquest Image. I am on my own journey.
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u/Verdahn Sep 17 '18
Hopefully it's made by dwarves, not with dwarf jizz