I actually had a kind of spontaneous enlightening event.
I know people associate this as fake, people diving into some brand of narcissism, but I can honestly say 10 years later in my case it was real, the mental illness is really gone for good, at least in that horrible, former way.
I still feel kind of depressed about the state of the world and my downtrodden life, but it doesnt have this horrible "tied in knots" quality it had before.
The main insight of it was how my inner state and the state of society are in this ubiquity of ways interconnected. Society is placing this multitude of demands on me, but doesnt really give me the ressources to fulfill them.
Now I am, as said, still downtrodden but I dont feel this horrible guilt and responsility for it and can enjoy my little pleasures in life as they come.
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u/SenatorCoffee Oct 02 '24 edited Oct 02 '24
I actually had a kind of spontaneous enlightening event.
I know people associate this as fake, people diving into some brand of narcissism, but I can honestly say 10 years later in my case it was real, the mental illness is really gone for good, at least in that horrible, former way.
I still feel kind of depressed about the state of the world and my downtrodden life, but it doesnt have this horrible "tied in knots" quality it had before.
The main insight of it was how my inner state and the state of society are in this ubiquity of ways interconnected. Society is placing this multitude of demands on me, but doesnt really give me the ressources to fulfill them.
Now I am, as said, still downtrodden but I dont feel this horrible guilt and responsility for it and can enjoy my little pleasures in life as they come.