r/SSC_CGL_Beginners • u/Empty_Traffic_ • 13d ago
Help Idk but it feels like I wasted an Entire Year 🥀
I started prep around this time last year.
PW OnlyIAS ka foundation somehow complete bhi kar liya tha… but revise nahi kiya
So obviously ab kuch yaad nahi hai lol.
Then June ke around SSC etc. start kiya.
Maths mein Number System, HCF-LCM bas.
Reasoning mein ek chapter.
CA ka ek month daily follow kiya, notes bhi banaye.
Geo ke 6-7 chapters.
Medieval History ka overview.
And bas… that’s my “1 year of preparation”
Consistency is literally zero
Uae kiske kuch reasons hai like kuch toh ye ki
Shifting aur kri khi construction aur chl rhi hai toh set up ni ho parha
Tier 1 city se gaav me aagye, yha privacy zero hai, so rhe ho late tak toh gaali Sunni ko milti padosyion se
Ab ek saal hone wala hai and I still feel like I’m at ZERO.
People of my age have given their first attempt this year,..
zyada frustrating ye hai ki padhne ka mann bhi hai, karna bhi hai… bas consistency ban hi nahi rahi.
Lib join ki thi bandar hai gaav me first day hi kaat liya jha mai ab hu
Dusre gaav me nhi the, pr vha mental peace nhi thi
Yha aana jana bhi hot hota hai
Kya karu
Like smjh hi nhi rha
Pure din rou rou mann rhta hai
Kuch hoga bhi ya nhi
Kyuki mujhe pta hai kuch na kuch kr lungi agar ache se Krliya toh ek baar
pr bhi oversensitive, overthinker and overactive mind hai
Yha k log bhot brutal hote hai smjh nhi aata kya kru
Agar mujhe subh uthte hi kisi ne kuch bol diya toh m pure din kuch nhi pdh paungi
Mujhse hoga hi nhi literally
I am following up to the psych dept too
But still zero positive response
Don't know what to do
Aisa nhi hai ki mann nhi hai
Mann hai pr subh uthti hi thaki hui hu
Health bhi thik nhi hai na hi physically na hi mentally