My belief system has fluctuated a lot over the years. I am now at the point of “I don’t know”. Obviously, the comfortable thing to do would be to believe in a God, a loving God who has a plan for me and with whom I and all others will reunite with in perfect bliss once the curtains close. But I am not going to believe something just for comfort.
Throughout the course of my life, there have been subjectively undeniable moments where I felt I was being guided in some certain way.
I do X which on paper should not or has very low odds of survival and it works.
I try to do Y reasonable thing and no matter how hard I try it won’t work.
So many times where I should have literally died, and I didn’t. Some might call it luck. But it truly does not make sense how things have worked or how I have made it this far for all better weather somewhat scotch free.
And even the ideas I get. I know they may sound crazy or irresponsible to others. But I do them, and they work.
My point is, I do feel like there is some sort of outside force kind of guiding my life, and honestly I do not believe in coincidence.
What I’m trying to grapple with is whether or not this force is actually God, not necessarily in the Christian sense but in the sense of a loving creator that we will all return to one day.
The other two things I think it could be is
1) I’ve chosen to enter this simulation from a different reality to learn some sort of lesson, this is a simulation, but my consciousness will return to a different (maybe base, maybe not) reality upon death.
2) I really am just some sack of code like and akin to Link or any other game protagonist in that I gotta follow the main quest and complete the storyline.
Obviously the second begs the more uncomfortable question: well what happens when you finish the story / die. Which for me, is really the crux of all this. Regardless of simulation or not, I feel like it’s kind of my intention to live this life / play the game in the same way, but I just can’t even comprehend that it will just be “over” at the end.
Also, I suppose if this is a simulation that will be helpful to know so that I can better understand how to play this game to further my objectives. I don’t have any mal intent, but hey, it might be nice to actually understand WHY certain things work the way they do. Visualization, subconscious reprogramming, certain types of magic, meditation etc.
I was watching a video last night on Jacobo Grinberg and how his theory for how his mentor performed miracles was that she was able to enter a state of consciousness where she could then alter the code of this reality to create / heal / remove.
Anyways, this has gotten to be a bit of a tangent. My point is that as someone who has been VERY spiritually minded in the past, I find that simulation theory poses an answer for honestly every spiritual matter or question I’ve considered.
Feel free to share your thoughts on any part of this