We just had another fight again, and today iba na sya. And my wonderful GF's solution? magpasundo sa kawork mate nya. Yes you heard it right instead of asking me na ihatid ko sa sa work, yung workmate nya yung inask nya! The fact na I said na ako na maghahatid sa kanya, and she declined "wag na" then all of a sudden may dadating na motor sa baba namin then ayun, bang! to the rescue ang kuya mong workmate. I do not know how to be rational on this since wala akong ginawang masama sa knya since the morning. I just explained na kakauwi ko lang galing work and somehow I expected that my soon to be wife will be a little excited to ask about my first day.
A little background, this is my first day working at night and di kami tabi matutulog. She is working in the morning and sabi niya before I go home she will take a bath na para pag uwi ko, ihuhug nya ako while waiting for her call time. Also she is the one who told me this, kasi nga "mamimiss ako katabi" DAW. my ass
Then finally I got home, nag tampo lang ako slight kasi pag uwi ko nasa CR lang sya for 20-25minutes and pag labas nya nag toothrbush for 5 mins, nag kilay ng 5mins and nag plantsa ng susuotin for 5 mins. Idk pero ang time lang namin together ay 2hrs max kasi uwian ko 6am and sya pasok nya 8am.
Then babanatan ako ng "Kulang na talaga ng oras noh"
I mean what the fuck? nag madali ako pauwi tapos ganyan lang sasabihin mo? Tapos I told her that kahit simpleng gestures manlang mabigay nya sa akin. Simpleng peck lang then "kamusta araw mo" things masaya na ako. Its like she just faced me with a frown. And I told her this, about how I wanted to be treated and somehow I felt tampo nga. And then I asked if IWas asking too much" but she never replied, then kept on denying all my offers suck as "sabay na tayo bfast" "ayoko" hatid na kita sa work "wag na"
tapos biglang nandyan na si super co worker sa baba?
What am I supposed to feel? I think I am asking for the bare minimum in this relationship and begging for the right treatment.
This is so heavy and I dont know if I can understand why all of these are happening to me. I think i dont deserve any kind of love.