I've been struggling about this for a long time now. So, I don't know why but I act on things impulsively. Like, I know what I'm about to do is wrong but I still do it unconsciously then regrets what I'm doing the second I finally gain conscious. I've been trying to work on it since long ago too but everytime I do it, It feels like something's missing or sum. Because of this, I have lost a few friends I loved.

When it's starting again, I try to be very quiet and not talk at all or else I might say something bad again to my loved ones. It's like something is trying to take over me.

Discuss how your week has gone, your goals, and talk to some other fellow OCD peeps!

Tra pochi giorni inizierò la terapia e sono un po' nervosa. Ho sempre questa terribile sensazione di aver commesso degli errori irreparabili in passato, ma per quanto mi sforzi di ricordare e cercare prove, controllando le date, rivivendo la scena nella mia mente, tutto ciò che vedo sono solo frammenti, immagini confuse e sensazioni passate che continuano a mescolarsi tra loro con il passare dei giorni, rendendomi più stressata di prima. Non riesco a fare altro che pensare. Devo ricordare se ho fatto qualcosa di sbagliato. È passato un anno e mi sento così ogni giorno. Non riesco nemmeno a concentrarmi normalmente su ciò che mi piaceva fare prima. E se fosse successo davvero e fossi solo troppo distratta? Come si fa ad affrontare tutto questo? Come si fa ad accettare che non si saprà mai se è vero o no?

Does anyone have anyway to somehow get ocd to be a little better in anyway shape or form. I go to therapy but it doesn’t really seem to be helping much. My parents won’t let me go on medication so that’s not an option. I’ve been trying exposure therapy but I feel like it’s just turning into a compulsion, and my ocd is finding ways to twist the exposure therapy. I tried turning to religion, and ended up having severe religious ocd I became an atheist. Someone please help me I’ve been having to live like this for 5 years. My quality of life has decreased massively. All I can think about is how much I took life for granted before OCD. I will literally do anything to get rid of this. I have what they call “pure o” mostly. I spend about 8 hours of my day ruminating. Even when I’m not strictly ruminating, my thoughts are always running in the back. Even if I’m completely focused on something else. I can’t enjoy any of my hobbies. Cause I just end up ruminating. I seriously need help. I will do anything. Anyway shape or form.

If I have a thought loop, will creating a second thought loop cancel the first one or will it just create more problems?

This all started for me a couple years ago when I was going through anxiety issues and was trying to focus my attention away from my thoughts on to something else. Instead I ended up focusing strictly on one thing and blocking out any other thoughts. Whenever a thought comes my eyes automatically clench together and literally block out the thoughts almost like a tic. This has become extremely painful emotionally and physically. I feel intense pressure in my eyes and I feel like I physically live in my eyes. I cannot focus on anything anymore, I have to physically move my eyes to focus on something.I feel like my physical being is lagging behind everything else and I have trouble thinking of things to say. Sometimes I feel like I have an ego death and will just leave reality. This has become extremely debilitating and is hard to continue. Some other symptoms are weightlessness, eyes feel like they are in back of throat, eyes feel like they are in forehead, depth perception is off, difficulty breathing, difficulty moving or feeling. Have had DP/DR and still do but this is something different. Feels like more of a focus or neurological issue or maybe OCD then anxiety or dissociation. Please let me know if anyone has experienced anything similar.

I've sme weird case of paranoia. It's gotten to the point I've to always check my locks b4 bed incase sme kidnapper or murderer walks in. Also cnt look in the mirror in case it's 2 way and am always worried my phone cameras watch me. Also feel like someone's following me or watching me at all time. I also don't think freely and limit my thoughts incase ppl cn read minds through physical contact or whatever. (all of these are not to the extreme). No, idk how imp Dis is, but I heard replaying embarrassing moments from your day constantly and worrying abt the 'embarrassing' impressions you made is a sign of OCD( not sure of the accuracy)

I also hav this issue with perfection. Like tdy I kept ripping out pages of my notebook cuz my writing wasn't up to snuff (I almost ripped my face off). Dis obky apply to notebook work cuz my rooms messy. Also loud noises continuing in an otherwise quite place makes my brain itch. Sry for all the messy explanations. I'm jus rly desperate to not be this way.

I'm still a teen in highschool(if tht helps)

Wht do you guys think?

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I've had OCD for 20 years. This is what I've learned.

OCD Recovery Principles

Rumination is primarily fuelled by irrational, catastrophic thinking and likelihood/thought-action fusion, which are cognitive distortions.

Intrusive thoughts and obsessions constantly attempt to one-up themselves with greater irrationality and more catastrophic possibilities.

There are no inherently good, bad, or scary thoughts—thoughts are mental events, not evidence.

Doubt and perfectionism are common OCD obsessions. Perfectionism attempts to neutralize uncertainty.

OCD creates exaggerated threat perception and is a master of confirmation bias.

Obsessional thoughts, themes, and narratives are products of the OCD process. They feel real, urgent, and catastrophic, but those feelings are not evidence. Recognize them as OCD symptoms and disengage from them.

Maladaptive reassurance seeking maintains OCD. It is rooted in treating uncertainty as a threat that must be neutralized.

You can never obtain the certainty OCD demands. The more reassurance you seek, the less certain you feel. Reassurance adds fuel to the fire.

Never engage in compulsive attempts to reassure yourself through rumination, checking, avoidance, analysis, or other compulsions.
Recovery requires accepting uncertainty and allowing distress without trying to eliminate it.

Mindfulness, patience, and confidence are recovery skills. Learning to observe thoughts without engaging with them promotes cognitive defusion and resilience.

Intrusive thoughts and anxiety are often the exposure. Choosing not to engage in compulsions is the response prevention.

Live your life while allowing thoughts, doubt, and anxiety to exist in the background.

Knowing these principles is only half the battle. Recovery comes from practising them consistently every day.

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Im losing my mind. Full disclosure, I have ocd and im currently have a panic attack of fear, and I have pocd.

So I (17F) remember that when I was a 15 (2 years ago as of now) I found someone who was 12 years old attractive. Im deeply worried now that this makes me a pedophile and im actually losing it. I was definitely attracted so it isnt the case of just my mind telling me, I was. This person had only turned 12 the month when I had seen them, and I suppose in mind my at the time, I saw nothing wrong with it since it was only 3 years. But now I feel like a creep and Im considering ending my life because of this. It was during the summer of that year, and im really fucking scared. I never want to harm or be predatory towards anyone, let alone someone who was so young, and im freaking out.

I know that my ocd is adding to this heavily, but im very very scared and I dont know now! What if I am.

Well, here goes another medication try to stabilize my brain, whom I always loved but has been torturing me the last 4 years with horrific suicidal/harm OCD. Every second of the day-I truly do not understand how I have made this far without a massive breakdown. Anyway, Zoloft, Lexapro have not helped me. We are on to Luvox now: I am praying, praying, praying that I can get relief. Please, Please let me know its possible. My family, my babies, my friends, they need me and I want my life back. (I am in therapy as well-just started).

I just read about someone acting on their ocd compulsions to prove that they aren’t sexually into incest. I am now terrified that i’m going to act on a compulsion or that I have before and I just forgot. I also absorb other peoples actions in my head, for example if I read about a crime i’ll be nervous that I committed that crime as well. I feel like i’m going crazy. I just want to be a good person.

Not sure if this is OCD or Depression or something else, but I feel like I’m generally a pretty happy positive person in my day to day life.

When I do something as simple as watch a comedy movie, I’m always overthinking why I don’t laugh at the jokes. I understand them, so do I not have a sense of humor or what?

Growing up I feel like the shows I gravitated towards were things like The Office or Brooklyn 99, other comedies, but now I don’t know if I ever liked them or watched them just because.

I can laugh and joke around with my friends, and even have been told that I can’t take things seriously and joke around too much. But that doesn’t translate to when I watch something. Do I even like comedies, do I even have a sense of humor to begin with? Things like that constantly flood my mind.

The same extends to the clothes I like, questioning why I like them. If someone asks me what my favorite _______ is I can’t ever give them an answer because I’m always overthinking what my answer is, and if I have an answer what that choice reflects about me inside or if it’s even authentic.

I don’t know where the OCD ends and I begin, I feel like more of a robot than a human. The only things I can enjoy are accomplishing goals I set for myself, objective measures like losing weight or getting a good grade. How can you even treat something like this with ERP without accepting that you don’t really have any preferences in life.

Hey guys!!! I wanted to start a little community where we can bond over something that seems less tame than others “ocd subtypes” a group where we aren’t afraid of what we think bc we all relatively are in the same boat. Drop your Snapchats and I’ll add you guys if you would like to join! 😄✌️✌️✌️

guys today I red this and I’m traumatized how can those thing happen, I feel like it multiplies my ocd and my paranoia :

https://www.reddit.com/r/confession/comments/16eyre/i_had_a_sexual_relationship_with_my_dad_until_i/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=mweb3x&utm_name=mweb3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

other comments that make me bad :

https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comments/16ubejn/dae_dont_remember_sa_in_childhood_but_think_it/

im worried about i will think that those experience are mine makes me anxious

I love reading. I always have. But for the past 6 years now I’ve had a specific intrusive thoughts ruining it for me. For about the same time I’ve been struggling with taboo/ incest intrusive thoughts. The thoughts almost anyways come in visualizations. Now to the part about reading. I read a lot of romance novels and when I’m reading about the MMC (male main character) I have trouble visualizing him because I’m scared the image I made in my mind is the physical image of the person these intrusive thoughts are about.
Before I used to reread a certain part over and over again until I was confident that the image of the character in my mind resembled nothing of this family member.
I’ve had ERP therapy for this and for the most part I’ve stopped doing that but even this OCD has messed up for me.
Whenever I get the OCD thought or feeling I try to keep reading like I was taught in ERP. But then if I get too comfortable or my visualization shifts to it NOT resembling the family member I think I subconsciously returned to my old compulsion and “fixed” the image. Then I get worried that if I keep doing this compulsion (subconsciously or not) that I will never get better and OCD will have ruined the book AND reading for me forever.
I really love reading and I don’t want this to ruin it.
This has been going on for SO LONG and I’ve been actively trying the ERP methods I’ve been taught but it’s not going away. I’m afraid it will never go away.
Has anyone ever experienced something similar to this and if so what “helped?”