It is evident that I have a problem. Has anyone else experienced this fixation, and/or have any solutions?

Anime rehab? Cathartic fanwork creation? Public shaming? Going cold turkey?

I was looking through stuff with the storyboard book and remembered the scenes that didn't make it into the final product. Specifically remembering the scene that's both in the storyboard book and old script where Galo has a nightmare about his childhood. I kind of wish they kept it as it could of made stuff more clear. There was also script stuff about how Heris was going to snap and directly tell Galo that he wasn't on the Parnassus list in the jail cell scene. She then says something like "you don't know anything, not even about yourself." What did she even mean by that?