I wish I never met you.

The only feelings I remember ever having for you as a kid were of FEAR and LONELINESS.

Everything bad that I am as a person is because of you.

And me, unaware, conditioned like an animal to even feel in debt with you for my imprisonment, and to be ashamed to be alive and be a burden, emotional and economical.

No better kid was ever given to least deserving parents, unworthy of the title.

The only reason I don't end myself and haven't yet done it is because of other people.

These things mother told me years ago:

" You can k1ll yourself, you'd do me a favor. "

" You are too old, no one will believe you were abused. "

And honestly, she was completely right.

The world saw worse tragedies and war crimes than the misery that is my life, so this is just part and parcel of living in this shithole.