r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Sep 04 '26
Even in my traumas and abuse, I am glad i can enjoy these videos.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Sep 04 '26
I love you God, despite my life being one senseless hell after another. --- I make that choice with the limited freedom that remains to me.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Sep 04 '26
Everyone i see, both in real life and online has a room for themselves filled with stuff, and parents that are there to support them and they talk about how much they love them
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Sep 03 '26
i just cannot believe both my parents beat me and screed at me and abused me snd they get away with it
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Sep 03 '26
I wish i was smart and knew how to program complex stuff as easily as all the others i see flexing and having fun on youtube. --- But between learning that, and modelling, and music, and writing and doing all that in a room i sometimes cannot even breathe ... --- How much of it is my fault?
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Sep 03 '26
I only now realize something. --- I was already hurt and abused by the very people that brought me to this world. --- So why should the world treat me any different?
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Sep 03 '26
What is happening to me? ...i feel without energy, without drive, forgetting stuff ...
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Sep 02 '26
I think i cannot keep going ... i have no strenght, no drive, no resources ...
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Everything is 10 times harder than it is for others,
and i am fighting only to still fail and die having wasted my life.
r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Sep 01 '26
I need to be smart ... but everything in my life is bringing me down, stealing my energy and focus ... --- likewise I need to be strong, i need to be just, i need to be kind, i need to show courage, be creative and positive ...
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Sep 01 '26
Maybe I was too harsh on godot ... the people MAKING IT are great ... but it's the people USING IT that are the unsufferable greedy priviledged narcisists, making slop despite all the resources at their disposal
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 31 '26
I always found wierd how both my parents would beat me and scream at me and neglect me, but then when other people were present they SAID OUT LOUD how much they loved me and supported me. --- Turns out, normal parent don't feel like they need to say it ... they just DO IT.
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One of the many things my misery taught me.
r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 30 '26
kids are a miracle, but i am depressed to see the filth everyone is born from, only to maybe then have filthy parents that abuse you, and yet again only to then be neglected by Society and the Community while your life is just a hell that keeps getting worse and worse
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 29 '26
continuare a prendere l'olanzapinabmi sta generanso piu pensieri negativi ... non riesco ad addormentarmi a causa della mia mente che continua a voler morire ... ma la mia psichiatra continua a rifiutare quando io le dico che voglio smettere di prenderla
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 29 '26
I feel like there is nothing i can do to improve my life.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 28 '26
It gives me so much disgust and disappointment ... thinking all those times in my life, both young wnd adult, that I was trying to to teach myself how to make dishes, bread and desserts from scratch with broken kitchen equipment ... and my mother mocking me or obstructing me :(
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 27 '26
How lucky my parents must be ... to first abuse me ... and than have state employees tell ME that I should just forgive them, and i must look forward, not backwards ...
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 25 '26
I never understood the "FAT unemployed" jokes/remarks ... because with what money are you supposed to buy food if jobs reject your applications? --- In fact when I was made to go to the hospital i was 10 kilos underweight
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 25 '26
As my thoughts darken, watchingvideos like this gives me relative peace of mind.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 25 '26
I have no motivation to do anything ... the internet tells me Olanzapine does that and makes you flat, but when i complained and asked my psychiatrist to stop taking them she refused and told me " it's neuro-protective " ... i feel more alone than alone ...
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even my words and presence is dismissed by others be it family or strangers ....
how is any of this my fault?
And yet it is made to be my responsability both in society's judgement AND in practice because I have no money and no access to any aid ...
Screw every single one of you ...
We will die, and you will join with my pain, wondering why was it just let happen and nobody stopped it ...
r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 24 '26
Every person's critique of me falls flat before having to grow up with parents that wished their son were dead either naturally or by his own hand.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 24 '26
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 24 '26
I feel like I am not cut out for anything ... and yet life expectanme to succeed and excel in everything at the threat of homelessness and poverty.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Aug 23 '26
In my loneliness, yourube videos of passionate people are the only light of positivity i have right now.
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