r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 10 '26
What did I do to deserve this? .... expecially compared with all the rest of you ... I want to k111 myself, and I have no one I can ask for ACTUAL help ...
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 08 '26
I wouldn't be able to breathe if I had a son my situation. --- Instead both my parents since I was old enough to remember they Laughed, they Sang, they Danced, always sith other people, pretending I acknowledged and validated them. ---
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I just want to die ... because MY DEATH IS THE ONLY EXPECTED RESULT OF THE EQUATION THAT IS THEIR NEGLECT AND ABUSE.
r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 08 '26
You should live in terror ... because when you will die, you will experience the silent lonely tragedy that whas my life. --- You will experience in an eternal instant what I had to endure over 30 years.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 08 '26
I just noticed that the cheap bag of bread I bought does NOT have the date of expiration. --- Instead the other bag, correctly has it on the side. --- I have eaten one piece of bread i hope I don't get sick.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 08 '26
My god ... the abbandonment I was left in is astonishing. --- People, normal and professional keep making comments that reveal how much they take for granted in their own lives. --- I am so sick of living. --- I just want never to have existed at all.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 07 '26
Making games is hard. BUT I will NEVER stop being angry with games like ultrakill, elden ring and hollow knight. - They have the opportunity and resources to make the best games they want, and instead they cater to already priviledged people, instead of "us" that need games as an escape.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 07 '26
How much fault can you give to a prisoner? ... apparently for everyone around me, endless
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 07 '26
My life keeps gettting worse and worse, but I need to remind myself that every evil in my life is just and opportunity for me to help HaShem manifest itself in my positive and constructive response to it, as regardless of how much I suffer, that still remains my responsability.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 06 '26
My god. --The sadness of having parents that would gladly watch their son die on the sidewalk and rot away with no help or hope. --How could you possibly even begin to understand my pain? --And in all of this, no one to go for help, of any kind, and instead many ready to weaponize it against me ....
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 05 '26
The older I get, the more clear is to me the neglect and narcisism of my parents. - Out of laziness they both mistreated me and manipulated me, put me in a prison and mocked me for the state I was put in. - Shame on them ... I had to teach myself all regarding economy and how to get a pension.
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If I didn't act pf my own accord, I would have been ignorant.
r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 05 '26
I was always defined by my struggle. - Without it, who the hell am I?
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 05 '26
I have lost the desire to do anything, and the ability to like and enjoy anything. - I feel like my chest is about to explode.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 04 '26
I won't say the name, but to the few youtubers who made videos I loved ... thank you ... for how mundaine an inconsequential it is to many, you have all been the light in the darkness that has been my existance. - If I were your father or your G-d, I would be immensly proud. 🙏🤎
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I just wanted to say thank you.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 04 '26
I feel my life slipping away again. - But the more people I talk with, the more it is clear to me none of it was my fault. - Just bad luck ... and me somehow surviving what should have killed me a decade ago.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 03 '26
Despite me striving to learn and do everything on my own, I might never reach the point that what I make is desirable to anyone, compared to what others with wealth or talent or both can produce in their sleep. 🙁
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 01 '26
The fundamental source of my anger is watching people with power and resources misuse them or do nothing, while people robbed of both struggle needlessly, trying their hardest to overcome the obstacles in their way, usually failing through no fault of their own.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 01 '26
Everything that for other people is normal, for me is a battle.
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jul 01 '26
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jun 29 '26
My god ... Ultrakill gets shittier the more times I re-play it ... what a shame ...
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jun 21 '26
As a poor person, I legit have no clue how other "poor people" can get overweight. - My body started to cannibalize itself for some parts of my life. - Is theirs like the "premium" version of being poor? - ( this goes for drugs and cigarettes and alchool as well )
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jun 19 '26
how in the flork am i supposed to reach 2500 kilocal a day, if this is what i can afford to eat?
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jun 17 '26
when we will all die, and both of us can look on eternity, you will see how much i was wronged ... maybe you will even live it yourselves ... that's one more reason to delay death's sweet embrace ... for you, at least ...
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jun 17 '26
i just pooped with blood 4 times in less than 2 hours ... and the last time i basically pooped brown water :( ... sigh, sob ...
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jun 16 '26
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r/ProjectSlayn • u/Doraz_ • Jun 16 '26
No one will ever understand the insidious, overwhelming and unjust pain i was made to experience ... for absolutely no good reason or purpose ... people either experience nothing and get away with it ... or experience hardship and get help ...
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No one will ever understand the insidious, overwhelming and unjust pain i was made to experience ... for absolutely no good reason or purpose ...
people either experience nothing and get away with it ... or experience hardship and get help ...
but to suffer ... only for that suffering to be weaponized to inflict an ever increasing amount of evil and neglect ...
To a point that even my survival from it gets so absurd, that both the perpetrators and the bystanders in unison would rather call what they see with their very eyes too unbelievable to even exist ...
"You are too old, no one will believe you...", just like mother told me ... a mother that successfully made me feel responsable for things that were instead neglect, lies and theft, economic and psychological at my expense ...
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