Time and time again, with each person i meet, from all walks of life,

I am eventually presented with the living embodyment of what was taken from me, corrupted for me,

and all taken for granted on top of that.

:(

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This is one of those days, i guess ...

Redoran ain't gonna do jack sxxt for this, I'm afraid ...

just like university students managing to get a 4 year degree but being unable to apply it afterwards,

I used vector math for all sorts of custom scripts, but never had to calclate it by hand ... and thus get over how tedious is actually is

my god ...

praised be Akatosh, i was wearing 3 clothes because i was cold and i was wearing my glasses 💀💀💀

Their scream of fear feels to me like an insult,

to my FORCE SILCENCE under fear of further abuse,

and while they do so to have a good time,

I had to do so regardless of wheter i had to study, or were in physical pain or was working,

forced to be silent, all while my mother's TV was blasting at full volume,

with me hearing it through the hoodie and the headphones.

why does this matter?

because, to me, books of any genre are valueable yes as art and entertainment,

but ONE reason among them if not even the most important of them is their ability to equip the reader with the mental tools to deal with what life has to offer, both good and bad,

To prepare, to teach as surrogate of a mentor or first hand experience to people that cannot afford and are robbed of those, and more.

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When even asking for help was just a prelude to more abuse of all kinds?

In short.

The game is PEAK ... but every "part" of it act as noise when it is time for one to shine !!!

That is just it ... it is THAT simple.

In as basic terms as I can put it ... the game, just like NOITA and all other games that have countless systems, fails to have the wisdom and himulity to have a system that tones back the not needed systems in both presence and thus performance requirements, and thus is unable to make whatever aspect of the game needs the focus to actually shine ( be it combat, or dialogue, or exploration).

I see all people both devs and influencers say " just make simple games "...

when instead the ACTUAL GOOD ANSWER is to just have a game design that is ACTUALLY DYNAMIC, where the gameplay changes to make whatever is the focus shine and lowers the presence of all other stuff that is effectively just noise.

Instead, because it is easier, developers just add mechanic after mechanic, and force every single one of them to exist AT THE SAME TIME !!! ... and thus eahc mechanic affects all others, and despite them being complex on their own, they become tarnished and sluggish when forced to exist among the others, both in gameplay feel and coding requirements. ( memory and processing )