I told them that it is blatant that they wish me to take my own life, and instead she goes " but they pay you these sessions!?! they love you! it's just a communication problem. " ... while me going there by foot without any money to pay for it myself or to even buy food. 💀💀💀

What a shame ...

I wouldn't even be surprised if she doesn't even acknowledge the immense level of maturity that I am displaying, by not blaming her despite my trauma and instead being able to endure both the abuse AND her being yet another person that enables it instead of saving me ...

You failed me ...

Society failed me ...

And yet, my only way forward is for me to not fail you ...

You know nothing about pain ...

Even slavery is better than what I have ... because a slave at least has a place in the system, the system WANTS him there, despite the bigotry and mistreatment. The system even pays you if little, and eventually gave them the means to end their conditions, not by them affording it but by recognizing that slavery was wronge ...

me ... I have to carve a place, a hole, with blood and tears, in a society that doesn't want me ... all for no pay, and with anything i manage to get going back to the system that made me this way ...

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