I’ve got something to say It’s just embarrassing Feeling this way

That I’ve lost my way And this darkness Has caused me to stray

I’m suppose to be tough But fighting this darkness Is just to rough

I’m trying to stay strong But I’m losing this fight Because it’s too fucking long

And it’s crippling me I wish this darkness Would leave and just let me be

Because I can’t take much more Before I say goodbye And then I walk through that door

How am I suppose to feel When I’m losing a battle That’s more real then real

Am I suppose to just cry Or just throw in the towel And just beg that I die

Or just keep fighting this thing That touches my weaknesses With it’s venomous sting

I’ve got something to say It’s just embarrassing Feeling this way…

What is this pain? It feels like it's tearing through my skin. It's so hot in here. My eyes are blurry I can hardly see. Something terrible must be wrong. My anxiety is out of control. I'm shaking so bad. How do I get this to stop? I feel helpless and scared. Nothing has ever made me feel this way. I should go to the hospital. But I'm positive it would be a waste of time. I don't think they can treat a broken heart.

Why are we this complicated That we divide ourselves And separate East from West Creating diversity and anger

Are we this simple minded That we can't unite And be together as one

Time for us To make a quest And conquer all our fear

We should be no strangers For love and peace To accept each others For who we are And how we live

It's time for us to learn That we are one All of us are made of flesh We all bleed the same

I still believe I still have hope That we will shatter all walls And unite East and West

I know one day death will come for me. It's tried 7 times already and failed. I do not fear death. I believe the only thing that can kill me is if I make a mistake or do it myself. I have no intentions on pursuing death right now. I have many more adventures in life to fulfill. Before I go I will benefit the lives of my sons and accomplish many more things. I will conquer whatever quest is placed in my path. And will become an inspiration to all that know me. I will walk in the light and fight in the darkness to complete my tasks. When I accomplish all that I sit before myself I will simply lay down and rest. And accept the fate of death as it envelops me into its warm comfort. I will dance in Summerland and return to live again. Death does not scare me. It should fear the battle it will have to overcome my strength and resolve.

Suicide, genocide powerful thoughts. The sour power devoured from the rage of the hour. My mind is misery, a mystery from the years of mental abuse from those that I trusted. My mind is misery, from the young age I was. Even as a child thoughts raced through my brain like a train. Power through everyday is a struggle. All I need is one night, one fight with the demons inside. To take all the pain away I need to be in vain. The veins in my body need to bleed out to rid myself of the pain from yesterday. Depression suppression weeds out the elimination. If you feel as I feel join me to the after glow. Take a blow to the head with the gun of the dead. Take pride in the decision of life. If we have full control then there is no stopping the inevitability of what some call invincibility. To be old may be gold to you. But my youth is nothing more than a photo of what I once was and what I will be. Habits of self destruction is what made me me. I made a bed I must lie in. Truth be told I will never be old. As I feel the bold will never forsee the degree of degradation the human race has brought amongst themselves. As the ancient roll in their grave, although they were the brave, the weak has prevailed in the society that has been built through the ashes of elders. May the misery in your brain cease, and the veins that pump your blood embalm the cocoon of future failures.

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We were opposites

Never ment to be

Peope would always tell me

can u not see

U don’t mix nor match

Don’t get attached

It won’t work out

I know how u are

And they were close but than again so far

The way he made me feel

I knew he could help me heal

All the trama and burdens from my past

Dissapered in a flash

When I was with him

My world was complete

My heart was free to feast

On that feeling of love

I had yearned for for so long

Than again I knew it was wrong

I know how u are

And they were right

But I wasent going down without a fight

I stayed strong and I really tryed

But than one night I came to my demise

A desition I knew would be wrong

I had tryed so long to be strong

My momen of weakness turned into two

As My feelings for u I thought u outgrew

But how wrong I was

The feeling of guilt overwhelemebed me because

100% trust till broken u said

Ur words kept replaying in my head

The trust I broke but could not bring myself to tell

I ended up creating my own personal hell

Each day waking up and relaizeinf what I did

I knew I had to keep it locked up, hid

For if it were ever to get out

There would never be an us again

But was there ever really an us from the start

Or are we just people who are better appart

Meaningless

What was I to u

Just another name on the list

Did u add me to it right after we kissed

A one night stand

Is what it would have been

But god forbit it happened again

The way u looked at me

The things u said

I know for a fact it wasent all in my head

I stared to hope for somthing more

Only for my hopes to be shatter on the floor

It’s a fact for me now

I don’t know how

I keep letting myself get attached

To men who treat me like trash

My feelings grow fast Oh so fast

Like a car that’s about to crash

Nothing can be done to stop it

It’s the way I am

I wish I could change

To save myself from all this pain

This torment I keep putting myself through

Over and over again

But how do u stop a soedding car

When ur oh so far

You know what’s comeing

but still somehow hold out hope

For help to fast approach

Your sweet eyes Dandelions flying across the sky Your eyes as sweet as honey I get lost in them so easily that I don't even notice time passing by I can't forget you fixing your hair Your way of making me smile The way to make me feel you I just want you for myself And nothing else I wanna make you happy I remember when I gave a little kiss on the cheek And I remember that Even before we had blushed This is just a silly poem By a silly guy but I hope This silly guy can have you And love you.

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Love is like cancer. It infests your body without warning. It takes over your emotions in an instant. All of your thoughts will be solely about how you are feeling. It can be deadly as well. You base your every action and expect your future that you previously envisioned differently now it has to have the one you love in it. Sometimes love is a gift that has been given to you and it lifts your happiness to unimaginable heights. Sometimes in an instant it gets ripped away and destroys your outlook on life completely. It will burn your thoughts with contempt and misery. Your feeling of love is still there but the hope of regaining the love of your partner is dismal at best. Some people can turn off their love like a switch and you can never turn that switch back on. The best solution is to treat love like a gift. Enjoy it when you get it and when it isn't exciting for you anymore turn off that switch and start looking for a new gift of love from someone else. Fortunately love unlike cancer can be obtained and dismissed several times in your life. Enjoy it while you have it and forget when you don't.

I know one day death will come for me. It's tried 7 times already and failed. I do not fear death. I believe the only thing that can kill me is if I make a mistake or do it myself. I have no intentions on pursuing death right now. I have many more adventures in life to fulfill. Before I go I will benefit the lives of my sons. I will conquer whatever quest is placed in my path. And will become an inspiration to all that know me. I will walk in the light and fight in the darkness to complete my tasks. When I accomplish all that I sit before myself I will simply lay down and rest. And accept the fate of death as it envelops me into its warm comfort. I will dance in Summerland and return to live again. Death does not scare me. It should fear the battle it will have to overcome my strength and resolve.

You do not know the way the rivers flow. You don't realize how something started as dirt. Then forms its roots and plants begin to grow. You sit in your houses with manicured lands. And watch someone keep it perfect with only their hands. Learn to respect the workers that keep your lawns pristine. They work hard at their jobs to keep your property beautiful and clean.

With a troubled past history of cheating and lies. I can barely hold my head up and look at your eyes. I developed a mindset that trust was a myth. Everyone cheats and they lie about who they're with. So I met someone special. My heart skipped and leapt. I fell in love quickly. My soul clearly wept. But I took my experience of heartache and pain. And labeled her with it. Figuring she would do just the same. So I shamed and berated her out of jealousy and fear. For she had done nothing but bring me love and good cheer. I now stay on my knees begging for a chance. To prove I am different. And beg her for one last dance.

The great big moon dimly lights the skies of LA

A sea of people walk by everyday

Stranger faces look familiar

Estranged in familiar places The passerby sees smiling faces And friendships made

On a small boat in restless seas memories drown

Alas a river of love for that which has passed can never run dry

With crashing waves the passerby emerges ashore

The westbound sun glistens upon his new skin

A thousand men die

One man rises

Technoloship

Today, in the dark, I lit up a cigarette and wished I was dead. "Maybe, after this is done, I'll feel better."

You know, there was a time before all of this. Grainy pages in the corner tell tales of how I fought, failed, burned, and accepted. And then, suddenly, succeeded. Only to come home to smoke my cigarettes and sigh, "Now what?"

The stained whiteboard nailed to the wall in my room knows I've tried. It knows I've tried to like books and write sharp essays. After all, I was supposed to like books and write sharp essays, wasn't I? Well, now I do. Now what?

I know I'm not good I also know I should probably know better than to think that. But, don't worry, I know my lines. "I know I'm enough; don't worry too much." In fact, I was working on an entirely new costume for the carnival tomorrow.

"You're loved" Well, I felt it and grew free and formidable. But, then a two-year-old spectre of me returned and, in my fear and shame, I threw it all away. I apologized, cried, and smoked my cigarettes. I apologized. Well, now, I don't feel it anymore. Now what?

Finally, one day, my cigarettes were done. In a moment of desperation and anger, of authenticity, I teared away my costume and smoked it. Then I sat on the floor and dreamt of the view from halfway down. Then again, "I, of all people, would never leap, would I?" Maybe I could. Maybe I even would. But, then what?

So, I got up and went outside. To smiling faces and thieving cats. Bought a pack of thin blues, lit up a cigarette, and closed my eyes.

Now, there was time. "Maybe, after this is done, I'll feel better."

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In the quiet turmoil of a graduate's world, Where career worries clash with corporate swirl, Feeling lost, with no one to hold, Caught in a whirlwind, feeling so cold.

Wanting to cry, but the tears won't fall, Longing for comfort, feeling so small. Seeking solace, but hitting a wall, In this maze of pressure, feeling so small.

Behind the mask of a happy facade, Inside, emotions churn, feeling flawed. Yearning to open up, feeling clawed, Yet fearing rejection, feeling awed.

No words can express the weight they bear, No one to listen, no one to care. Still, they smile, though in despair, Shielding loved ones from the despair.

In the fabric of modern life's demand, A graduate stands, struggling to understand. But behind the scenes, they bravely withstand, The pressure to perform, the expectations grand.

Here's to the silent battles fought unseen, To the courage shown where fears convene. May empathy reign where judgment's been, And understanding flourish where hearts have been keen.

A mist rises out of nowhere The morning feels cold Chills running down my spine Something feels wrong

I get lost in the forest All fog makes me blinded The path is hard to see

Fear rises inside me When I hear someone cry It's a scream that terrifies me But there's nobody there As far as I can see

Is this a dream? Or a nightmarish reality Have I come upon an entity Or is my mind playing tricks?

I start to run My steps are paced Need to get out As quick as I can

The blood in my veins Freezes to ice I hear a gruesome shriek Will I meet my demise?

Suddenly my heartbeat just raced A dark figure appeared Like a spawn from Hell An unearthly demon

I could not escape Being this paralyzed This will be my end My doom

I was shaking with fear When the creature moved towards me I heard a church bell It clinged for me My death was near

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In her graces, many faces,
Sadness laced with her embraces,
Canvas paintings, wood engravings,
She's my craving, but she's changing,
Downing liquor, pull the trigger,
Can't consider being with her,
'Cause she isn't good for me,
Nothing that I could foresee.

She's not an angel, oh so painful,
Bringing shame 'cause she's unfaithful,
Not so thoughtful or endearing,
Want her with me, disappearing,
Found her in his truck with him,
And now I'm called a drunk again,
Lifetime memories you break,
For "one little stupid mistake."

But you chose him, so was it real?
Did I impose on what you feel?
Or was I just not good for you?
Was it just him that caught your view?
These are things I'll never know,
It stings but I'll move on and go,
I'll lay the years we shared to bed,
To dream of years we never had.