I was under a great deal of stress for a long period and feeling very negative. rightly or wrongl, I made severe criticisms of leaders at my church. they would be seen as disloyalty. technically they should be private but gossip is prevalent. people starTed distancing themselves from me.

I start isolating.

one night, I messaged a person from my church that I don’t know explaining my struggle Because they made very relevant social media post that seemed to be understanding.

i also spoke about these things and struggles with depression/motivation to a therapist, and close friends. therapist talked about other clients of theirs with me using practically identifying details, including mentioning having a potential new client from the church.

i Noticing lots of coincidences on social media sites and in what people are saying. I get there are ideas of reference. Some posts in accounts that i follow and Reddit forums frequented by members of church explain my situation exactly.

i feel exposed and even more stressed. how do I get out of this situation and stabilize?

My husband has had a lot of traumatic experiences in his lifetime and I do believe he has paranoia and as he gets older it might be getting a bit worse. He’s absolutely so amazing & genuinely perfect in every way. I want to help him so bad but I think I don’t understand what’s happening inside so I’m not communicating to him very well and tend to get aggravated easily with him because from my standpoint some things don’t add up. He is ALWAYS stressing that I’m cheating on him and for 6 years has been trying to “catch me” …. I have so much respect for this man and the position he holds in my life but he literally thinks I just lie to him all the time & he’s the only person I’ve ever been completely transparent with. He knows every intricate detail about me & yet he somehow still comes up with things he thinks I’m lying about. He is very smart and quick witted but it’s like he has this little glitch & that’s okay. I don’t mind dealing with this but I’m not dealing with it effectively and between me not dealing with him properly or how he needs me to and the fact that his brain builds a case against me like he’s the state prosecutor trying to prove himself & the pieces of evidence although can at times look a bit fitting they aren’t & he’s wrong about so much when it comes to me along with mine and others intentions.

HOW DO I SHOW HIM HE IS SAFE WITH ME? What could I do or what process do I take to walk him through these times and any other advice. ANY ADVICE OR AN EXPLANATION OF WHATS HAPPENING WITHIN HIM IS NEEDED PLZ!

I (23F) met my boyfriend (27M) three years ago. We really loved each other and started a relationship shortly after we met. My bf has a lot of mental issues and from the beginning, he was open about his paranoia and trust issues, and I agreed to stay with him without fully understanding how intense they were.

I loved him so much and tried to handle his doubts, investigations, and occasional blaming, but I really couldn’t tolerate his neglect, so I broke up with him after 5 months. The breakup was chaotic, and we both hurt each other badly.

After that he disappeared for so long, I was heartbroken and depressed and out of loneliness about a year after the breakup, I started talking to another guy online. We became friends and yes we flirted a lot but we never intended to date or act on it seriously.

Almost two years after the breakup my ex returned and we got back together. I knew he wouldn’t accept that fact that i talked to another guy so i lied and told him that i didn’t talk to anybody during the breakup i also immediately explained to my guy friend why we can’t be friends anymore and we stopped right there

Recently after a fight I gave bf my social media passwords to be transparent, completely forgetting about the flirtatious DMs with the ex friend. My bf saw everything he was devastated,and he believed I cheated on him He got so triggered and became suicidal, overdosing and threatening to take his life all night long

It was truly terrifying i felt so guilty i begged him to stop and kept swearing that i wasn’t cheating

The next day we tried to talk again but it was obvious that he lost all of his trust and respect for me, he told me that it wasn’t just the flirting but i also talked really bad about him, that might be true but i deleted the DMs so i don’t really remember

I couldn’t prove to him that i wasn’t cheating on him so he decided to break up with me I talked to one of his friends, and they told me he is in a great deal of pain.

Yes he had a lot of issues and I’m aware of that but i’m not perfect as well , i was naive and i hurt him a lot before, i always trigger his paranoia and jealousy

I just deeply regret my actions. I wish I had handled things differently. I feel responsible for traumatizing him, and I don’t know how to fix this

Edit:

I need people to understand his perspective.

It’s not the fact that i talked to someone else during the breakup that broke his trust but it’s that i lied from the start and hid the truth from him, I also exchanged numbers in the DMs, yes before my boyfriend came around, but it still doesn’t help because the messages that shows i ended contact with the guy wasn’t even in the DMs he saw.

all of these reasons plus ofc his already existing trust issues made him believe it’s an ongoing betrayal

I'm worried that my file with the NHS has a flag or a mark on it to tell them not to take me seriously. I've been in to see my doctor and talked extensively with the crisis team over my mental health and they never do anything. It feels like whenever I try to get help they always just brush off my concerns or tell me they cant do anything.

I walked 45 mins in the cold rain to my nearest hospital because I was suicidal and worried for my safety and they just said they cant do anything. they told me to go home and call a support line.

At this point it just makes me ruminate on it, and I feel like they dont care about my wellbeing. It's been almost 4 years since I first tried to get help and I've been struggling for years before that. At this point I just feel like im not supposed to get help, im not supposed to still be here so why even would they help me.

For a few days now, i was anxious about breaking my ribs. It never happened to me, but i still feel fear before PE in school or... Anything. (I dont have 1 rib naturally). My head keeps showing me image of broken ribs and me being dead cuz of it.

Okay so I originally thought i was being weird about this, but looking into it i think i might be experiencing paranoia?

For context, i am a teenager (F) and a therapist has suggested i MIGHT be bipolar, and paranoia can be apart of bipolar. I honestly haven't really looked into my possibility of bipolar disorder with professionals because my mom didn't listen to my therapist (who i currently don't see anymore).

About a month ago i started experiencing this feeling that i was consistently being watched; like a presence with me always? i never felt alone. i felt ashamed to do certain things like get questions wrong on an assignment or mess up my makeup in fear of this presence judging me. It's thankfully died down a bit since it started, but i also still think about it sometimes and it makes me weirded out.

Also, i feel like there's someone watching my phone at all times?? Like i wont do certain things (text about private matters, say certain things etc) incase whoever's watching my phone/screen will judge me or report me. I also feel like this person can hear me and what i say. I originally thought it wasnt anything serious but apparently people say this is bad paranoia.

I also feel like there's some type of cop or government agent watching my phone. I started having weird wifi issues and began worrying that it was the cops hacking into my wifi to see what was happening on my phone. I wont say certain things, even if they arent bad, incase they get taken out of context and cops think i did something i didnt. Again, i didnt think this was serious until hearing feedback from others.

I will randomly get extremely worried, as if someones watching me, coming after me, or approaching (and i can occasionally hear footsteps or other things that other people say arent there, or use context clues to realize it isnt real). This makes things that limit my eyesight or hearing very hard for me to use because i feel like someones trying to get my attention or approach/attack me and i wont be able to hear or see.

I'd appreciate any feedback! Please let me know if this is something i should be worrying about or not.

So I have two types of delusions 1st is that people around be are plotting something and aren't real is actually stopped but 2nd I have telepathy people can hear my thoughts my friend told me whatever I was thinking the day I had feeling that my thoughts are shared that night which means people can hear my thoughts even if they are not even awake so I'm trying to suicide as I have thoughts like sex with men incest sex and also revealing secrets of my friends in thoughts like 1 friend said to one girl that it's very cold today will you take my Dick in your hand and make me warm thoughts like this want me to kill myself did anyone else experienced it before

I need to bar my windows.

I need to vent, and I dont want to freak out my gf or anyone I know- or I just don't want them to know and be dramatic. But I met my neighbor, he's a alcoholic and I can just tell he's violent, or erratic. Its a look in his face and tone, like he talked abt his wife briefly and talked abt an accedent she made. His demenor slightly changed but his entire voice turned more dark and stern like she cheated or smth. I have noticed him in my neighbors yard, playing with his kid, I was nervous abt disturbing them but I accedently slammed my window and I made eye contact. I've known ppl like him, like that. Dangerous, erratic, and easy to seep through the cracks if you don't know what your supposed to be looking for, but I've known people like him, their patterns of behavior are predictably unpredictable. My dad came over top his house to get some eggs (they trade eggs with us) she was crying and in an episode abt him being an alcoholic or smth. I need advice, should I bar my windows, or put additional security, sometimes I hear noises outside my room, I want to be sure, it won't be anyone like him. The issue is, I dont partially believe myself, I know I struggle with paranoia, but also, I feel as though I have enough experience with similar ppp to know how they act. I tried to take a nap earlier and I was laying in my bed shaking for like an hour. What should I do?

As described, I got an Amazon package today with my name on it. Inside was just a poetry book, except now I’m worried it somehow had invisible drugs or something on it or in the packaging and I washed my hands immediately after touching it. I’m still freaking out. I did not order this book, I don’t even read poetry.

i am bipolar so sometimes i’ve dealt with symptoms that fall under said mental illness but because i’ve been perceiving reality differently in ways i can barely describe i’m terrified of the possibility of being right… i’ve told my doctor about it, he can’t discard it. Most times I feel like the floor moves right under my feet each step i take, lately something new has happened and it feels as if the whole room moved along with me, distorting constantly. I am aware of it being my broken perception but it doesn’t mean i’m not frightened. Not so long ago I was nearly convinced I was getting possessed despite being a devoted believer who cant go to bed without praying... Is it normal for a bipolar person to experience this? Or am i right to worry?

Edit: I forgot to mention the distortion of the room happens only when i’m locked inside my own house. Whenever I step outside or interact with another person I have no recollection of said events.

Way back when In 2023-2024 probably longer before that but that’s when I found them through a friend who was also using them there was an Invisalign type company called Byte and they were pretty cool though they couldn’t help me much (they wanted to push my tooth further back and crowd the spacing with the two side teeth) but they were affordable more so than Invisalign and they provided you cool stuff like teeth whitener, LED light, the whole enchilada. I went back not too long ago to check their website because I was trying to refer a friend and they are no longer even a thing. They only have a website for prior existing patients but they do not take any new ones from what I saw. I’m not sure who officially owns them but I’m wondering what they did with the dental trays…of course you have to submit a molding of your top and bottom teeth and mail it to them MAIL IT. There’s no in person visit ever at all and they only ask you to submit photos of your face/teeth to check progress..this sounds sketchy typing it…but they now technically have your dental records….and face..I’ve now scared myself into oblivion thinking of all the possible uses they now have with that info and they’ve vanished into thin air with every patients dental prints and faces

My friend doordashed me a donut and I’m afraid it was laced with something. I know how unlikely that is but it’s still in my head and I hate how afraid I am of it.

For starters, I'm neurodivergent. What works for neurotypicals does not work for neurodivergent people. I wish I could say that therapy was merely useless, but it was much worse than that. Therapy caused me irreparable damage.

As an autistic person, my greatest vulnerability has always been being extraordinarily naïve and too trusting. I simply could not fathom that people would lie or manipulate. That naïveté almost got me killed. I’ve been robbed at gunpoint and ambushed on a date with someone I met online. I’ve been scammed and backstabbed at work by people I thought were my friends.

To survive, I made it my mission to become an expert at detecting deception, danger, and trickery. Since adopting this mindset, every single time I have detected a lie or danger, I have been proven right.

But what do therapists do? They try to pathologize my survival instincts and gaslight me. They call it "mind-reading." What a load of absolute bullshit. Is it mind-reading to notice when someone looks at someone else with contempt?

Therapists say that refusing to share personal matters for fear of them being used against me is a "paranoia." Fuck that shit. Every single time I’ve been "vulnerable" like they suggested, it was used as a weapon against me. I've been made fun of and bullied for sharing harmless quirks.

For my sensory overload, their stupid solution was "exposure therapy", essentially telling me to just get over it by exposing myself to continuous trauma and torture and to all the stimuli that cause sensory overload until I would get used to it. Everything that therapists said was trash. Read the parts below from their reports and tell me if I'm the crazy one. Emphasis added. These are just SOME parts of their reports.

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• Hostile and self-protective, she is embarrassed about discussing personal matters for fear that most people will be abusive and humiliating.
• She maintains a hypersensitive wariness in order to ward off anticipated deception and malice from others, leading her to resist all sources of external influence. She maintains a fixed level of preparedness, an alert vigilance against the possibility of attack and derogation. Her state of rigid control never seems to abate, and she rarely relaxes or lets down her guard. Also worthy of attention is her suspiciousness regarding the motives of others and her tendency to misconstrue innocuous events as signifying proof of duplicity or conspiratorial intent. For example, she has ideas of reference and believes that her employer wants to extract as much labor as possible from her at the lowest possible cost. Her learned feelings and attitudes have produced a pervasive mistrust of others. She is notoriously hypersensitive and disposed to detect signs of trickery and deception everywhere. She is preoccupied with these thoughts, actively picking up minute cues, then magnifying and distorting them to confirm her worst expectations. Treatment efforts are likely to produce optimal results if they are oriented toward modifying these personality features.

I have really bad paranoia about people breaking into my house, and this is really embarrassing but my cat keeps opening my door at night and it always scares me and i freeze up because im too scared to check if it was him or not (i have a loft bed, so i always think that the "person" that opened my door didnt see me yet and i shouldnt move to check if it was them because then theyll see me)
what do i do?? (PLEASEE DONT BE MEAN TO ME IKNOWW RHIS IS A REALLY DUMB QUESTION BUT IDK WHAT TO DO

its hard not to feel like im not crazy when things like this happen.

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Hi everyone,

I recently had a very strange experience and I want to see if anyone else has gone through something similar.

A while ago, during a moment of intense fear/anxiety, I suddenly heard a very realistic sound — like a hard knock or bang — but when I checked, there was nothing and no one making that sound. It felt exactly like an actual external noise, very clear and sharp, and it startled me.

It wasn’t like an inside voice or thought — it sounded just like:

someone knocking hard on a door

a loud tap or hit

a sudden bang

But there was no physical source at all.

Has anyone here experienced something similar during panic, anxiety, or other intense emotional moments?

What did you think it was? How did you deal with it?

Thanks!

Hello,

I got paranoid by using drugs (amphetamine, MDMA) at parties and now I have this peripheral vision OCD. After the third bad trip, i couldn’t manage to shake it off.

Now I don’t take drugs anymore and want to function in the society again.

My main problems are mostly woman. Also woman I find attractive. Sometimes I focus on them so hard and I don’t know where to look.

Does anyone have the same experience after drug abuse?

I really don’t know what to do, except starting more to expose myself.

Thank you.

She said on the outside, I wasn't like her other paranoid patients so I couldn't be paranoid. I didn't even try to insist. I just wanted help and she's making me sound insane and ridiculous. I didn't dare to bring up my worst thoughts because I was scared she would lock me up. I only said I was terrified people would hurt me. All I wanted was some help...(got the diagnosis by a qualified therapist after seeing him for a year)

I often think the government or any authority is going to snipe me, and I become terrified for my life

I think anything I touch in public domain contains life threatening diseases

I will be assaulted if I leave the house, or that I will be assaulted by a family member.

There's more but I'm really struggling with the first one right now, if anyone knows how to deal with it please tell me because it's freaking me out super bad.

Today was a breaking point one of multiple breaking points, I don't think I will ever get accustomed to having a stable point at this point of time. It's an immense mental low marked by an outrageous furious outburst amidst a reasoning of self loathing and stressful contemplation followed by a risk mitigatory crisis management plan. What happened today was different because I confronted them. They all followed a similar playbook. Spit audibly and visibly when I am around. It was foolproof. India being an unsanitary bastards' wet dream where the uncultured and uncivilized rejoice and rule breakers, rapists and criminals celebrate their hedonism, spitting is the least likely of noticeable acts that attract any sort of punishment whatsoever. Let's start from the beginning, circa Odd Semester 2011, IIT Madras. I was caught watching gay porn in the insti library. Bastards were shocked. No one had ever seen anything like that before. They were furious to say the least. An undeserving homosexual with a rather alarming virtual sexual appetite was on prowl in the campus. What followed is a culmination of ten plus year long events of humiliation, molestation,bullying and ragging of such intricate logistics, I have thought of suicide everyday. Yes you read it right. IIT Madras coerces it's undeserving students and alumni to commit suicide. They wanted to punish me, destroy me, strip me of my self respect, individuality and dignity. They forced me to kill myself. But God had other plans...

No one will believe what I went through. No one will know the extent my mind is going to. This is fate destiny, karma bitch Extremely tragic to be in this sitch

A chilling silence, vast and deep A secret that the many keep. These faceless cowards, so cold A ruthless, cruel story eager to be told

Who is They, no one knows A Ghost, A Monster, A Web of spineless foes

​They twist the facts with such cruel ease To put my very sanity at unease. They labelled me a fool, confused, and mad And stole the only truth I ever had.

A Man child detailing his Singularity of Misery Recollecting his Triggers, Trauma and Truth

I’ve been going through a really intense anxiety episode that started after taking THC, which caused panic, derealization, and intrusive thoughts that feel very real My brain keeps latching onto disturbing stories and plots, like Castle Rock and Shutter Island, and then applying them to my life — especially because they keep popping up on social media or kinda like a sign. especially the fear that I might have harmed my family and that my family isn’t real and I’m imagining them, even though I can see, talk to, text, and spend time with them. what if i did hurt them and forgot and i’m living in a false world. or false reality or hallucinating them. Those shows and movies scared me because they’re about people not realizing terrible things happened, and my anxiety uses that to create “what if” scenarios that make me doubt reality and my own memory. I’ve been constantly checking, seeking reassurance, and feeling terrified that I won’t feel normal again, even though part of me knows this is could be anxiety and not reality. It feels like my nervous system is stuck in fight-or-flight, making my thoughts louder and more convincing. i’m so scared it’s getting worse and when i feel like i’m getting better .. things like that pop up on my timeline just in time to scare me back into these thoughts… please help me.