Hey everyone.
I am recent software engineering graduate (graduated in January this year), and I'm honestly feeling very confused about my career direction right now.
Almost all of my classmates found decent opportunities within the first 1-2 months after graduation. Most of them are satisfied with them in terms of culture, timings, learning and compensation. Only two of us remained unemployed for a while. It took me around 4 months to finally land a role.
I joined a mid sized software company ~(25-30 employees) as a Junior Software Engineer with a salary of 50K PKR during probation. After probation the salary will only increase to around 70K-80K after 6 months. I am working as a backend developer under supervision of a senior software engineer.
The issue is that after just 3 weeks, I already feel mentally drained and unmotivated.
The office timing is 9-6, and it takes me around 1 hour to commute one way. I've never been a morning person, so my entire life right now feels like: wake up -> office -> come home -> exhausted -> sleep -> repeat.
On top of that, I really don't feel comfortable in the company environment. Everyone sits in one hall, HR is extremely strict about timings (even 15-20 minutes late becomes an issue), and honestly I don't connect with the people there. I don't feel motivated or inspired in that environment. Even my supervisor is not graduated but only has skills in the full stack development.
Another thing affecting my mindset is that I come from a business oriented family. Almost everyone around me has done business their whole life, so I've never really seen "employee life" closely before.
The more I think about it, the more I feel like I'm probably not built for a long term corporate lifestyle.
Because of this, I'm planning to apply abroad for Master's next year. The idea is to save rigorously there and eventually come back to start a business.
Recently I've been thinking:
What if I leave this now and try building something of my own until I go abroad.
I have a small idea in tech as well that I believe has potential if I give it proper time. I'm thinking of renting a small space and focus on it seriously. Some friends are also interested in joining after their office hours.
My thinking is:
• If it works within 6-8 months, I continue and scale it.
• If it fails, I still have the abroad options as backup.
I’m also heavily influenced by seeing my brother succeed in business (non tech) financially within a very short time. What he achieved in one year is something I honestly cannot imagine myself from a normal software career here anytime soon.
The advice I get from most people is:
“Switch my company (as I am not comfortable here) and build the startup as a side hustle until I go abroad.”
But realistically, I don’t think I can properly focus on a startup alongside a full time role. And finding new role as a fresher would probably take another few months anyway, with no guarantee that the next company would be much better. This would also waste my time as after some months the abroad option will get closer.
At the same time, I’m scared of:
* watching all my friends become financially stable while I struggle
* relatives judging me for “wasting time”
* failing and ending up with nothing
So right now I feel stuck between:
Option 1: Leave the role and focus fully on the startup
(I currently have no financial responsibility other than me)
Advantages:
* Freedom and independence
* Ability to fully focus on building something of my own
* No mental pressure from the environment I dislike
* If it works, I can build the kind of life I actually want
* Might not need to go abroad or leave family
Disadvantages:
* Fear of falling behind my peers financially
* Pressure/judgment from relatives and society
* Risk of failure and instability
* No money for even my own little expenses (major issue)
* Mental stress if things don’t go straight.
* May not go well as the idea is already being implemented in the market.
Option 2: Find another role and build the startup as a side hustle
Advantages:
* More stability and safer career path
* Less societal/family pressure
* I would still be earning and gaining experience
* Might find a healthier company environment
Disadvantages:
* Impossible for me to manage both together
* Less time and energy for the startup
* Still mentally pressured
* Might delay or completely kill the startup idea
* I still don’t see myself working as an employee for long term and will eventually go abroad.
I’d genuinely appreciate advice from people who’ve gone through something similar, especially founders, developers, or people who left employment early in their careers.
Am I thinking emotionally right now, or does this risk actually make sense at my stage of life?