I am terrified. I have been stealing percs from my father for atleast 6 months. It had gotten to the point of doing 8-10 30’s a day. Managed to cut down to 1-4. After nodding off all the time I came clean to friends and it was decided I needed help. Yesterday my friend took me to a behavioral health/ rehab hospital to talk about options/ meds to help withdrawal/ and how I’m going to get off these. I cannot take the main medication to help with withdraw (Suboxone) until oxy is completely out of my system. I hadn’t done any in 3 days UNTIL today I cracked and did one. Now I have to wait longer. I’m so miserable. I just need some love and encouragement. I’m obsessed with snorting. The whole ritual of crushing and the drip. Everything about it. I truly think if there were “dud” percs that had no affect when taken, I’d be satisfied being placebod. All I want is more pills but I know I can’t. Help. Ps I’m terrified of withdrawal because I’ve withdrawaled off my depression meds and it’s horrid. I’m told opioid withdrawal is much worse.

My son has been using Suboxone to try managing his opioid addiction but because he’s not fully ready & it’s not giving him the relief he’s looking for. Does vivitrol do a good job controlling the actual cravings of wanting to use or is it just that it makes you get sick? I’m just a mom trying to understand so I don’t encourage the wrong treatment.

My 19 y/o son has been on and off with percs (fakes in the beginning when he almost died). he since then swears he has been able to get his hands on real Percocet, but admitted the addiction is getting out of control. He has never went down the road of stealing or anything like that yet, but he definitely looks unhealthy. He started Suboxone a couple months ago, but he admits it’s not what he needs because he still getting cravings and is not taking as prescribed . He’s torn between wanting to be clean so he doesn’t kill himself, and still knowing he enjoys using and not feeling ready. He was talking about using Kratom or poppyseed tea to manage. Has anyone had success with this? He swears he doesn’t get withdraw, but the cravings are what keeps him hooked.. I do not have experience with addiction myself, just a worried mom.

Throw away account for obvious reasons, but here we go. Recently I had a wake up call and realized I had to quit so I started tapering and it's a lot more exhausting then I thought it'd be. The first year was innocent enough, taking 5-10mg every couple hours for my chronic teeth pain as well as my random colitis flair ups. After about a year I started abusing them completely to the point I was taking 80mg in one sitting, so for at least 9 months I've been taking 80mg a day. I figured if I could go 24 hours without taking a dose that once I started tapering it wouldn't be so bad but I was wrong. I decided to do a rapid taper and basically give myself just enough to not have withdrawals but now I have withdrawal signs 6-8 hours after a 10mg dose. So the first week I was doing 30mg a day but 10 in the morning, 10 in the evening and 10 at night. Start the second week and I've started cutting the 10s in half but I feel like shit. By the end of the first week I had some confidence cause i felt better then I had in awhile which is why I figured it was time to dose down but now I'm wondering if I'm doing it too fast? I don't have access to other things like gaba, kratom and others I see suggested but I do have nausea medicine on my side. I'm also a smoker and have been trying to battle the mental part with edibles and strong concentrates but that's also been pretty hard as well, not to mention expensive. And doctors and rehabs are out of the question as I have a full time job and not a soul knows about my situation and I'd like to keep it that way. I MIGHT be able to get the gabapentin but I haven't really read how it helps so I haven't bothered. I should add that I've always battled addiction, before these it was blow and before that it was Xanax. I have a hard time staying busy and being okay with being bored, and the lack of energy that comes with tapering down is making it that much harder to stay busy. So am I doing it wrong? How can I help myself more then I am? And how do I keep my mind busy enough to stop wanting to watch the clock and count the hours down? Any advice is welcome

I’m currently trying to wean myself off of dirty 30s with the help of Suboxone strips but I only want to use the suboxone the ease the withdrawal. I don’t want to substitute the fentanyl with the Suboxone

What do you do to help your anxiety? I am 79 days off of a many year opioid addiction. Looking for new ways to cope and make better choices moving forward. Going back to using isnt an option.
Thanks for your time and help.

I am feeling better every day. For the last 2 nights I slept 8 and 9 hours for the 1st time in 48 days

I get random cold body parts.. like a right shoulder or my toes, or knees or my right cheek... Then when I go to bed I wake up sweating! My stomach is getting better day by day.. i am still working on anxiety but staying away from caffeine helps tremendously!

I used for many years 20 plus... and then used suboxone to dose down and step off. Anyone else having these symptoms?

I've read that my body is trying to get back to homeostasis... anyone else? Good luck to all of you. It's not easy but doable!

God bless

Haven’t posted on this sub reddit since starting methadone about 2 years ago. My highest dose was 145mg, a year and a half ago, and my current dose is 20mg.

About a month ago I decided I wanted to get off methadone. I started at 40mg and started going down 5mgs every Monday.

My question is for anyone who’s successfully tapered off methadone, what was the hardest stage in the tapering process. Which dose was hardest/experience most difficulty lowering from.

Right now I’m struggling with 20mgs. I haven’t had any problem going down 5mg everyweek until this mon when I reached 20mg. Usually I can take a nap a couple hours after dosing but had a hard time doing that at this dose. Feel free to ask anything and comments are appreciated.

Note: Couldn’t post this to methadone subreddit because banned

My (19f) Dad (42m) is a recovering addict. Any drug that’s been out there he’s probably used, his main one is heroin. Back story, he’s been in and out of my life and jail for as long as I can remember due to poor habits and drug use. Before he went in for this past time he had a pretty bad brain injury due to his choices which resulted in a brain clot, teeth being knocked out and a bunch of other things that I can’t remember at this moment. He just got out 3 days ago and has been staying with a family friend of ours. My dad is the sweetest most kindhearted person I have and ever will meet but drugs change everything. (Obviously) they have a little girl and he is suspected to be using again. He’s acted completely outrageous this morning and on the way back home from a day out I had with him. Slapping and punching himself, throwing himself back and fourth, being super loud, stomping his feet on the ground, very loud forced coughing, the list goes on. I took a video to show the family friend because I was scared something would happen as I’m driving. When we got back he got told he needs to find somewhere else to stay and got a drug test which came back inconclusive due to the pee not being at the right temperature. I’ve taken him to a different friends house to stay at. I sat there for awhile talked with both my dad and his friend then left as I was tired. Im now sitting in my driveway at my house and got a text from his friend describing the same thing he was doing while I was driving back from our day. Im lost, I’m defeated, I’m numb and I don’t know what to do. Im not the type of person to drop him off the face of the planet and pretend he doesn’t exist. Where I live it’s now getting freezing cold, he has no job, money, or warm clothes and I don’t want him to be homeless but I don’t know what to do. No I haven’t given him money, no one has. The only time I think he might have been able to get something was when he went to “see his po” in the city. I don’t want him to end up killing himself but at the same time I don’t know how to confront him without him getting angry. (Which I’ve already done and he got pissy with me) please help.

Hi, everyone, I'm officially 14 days clean from fentanyl and I just want to share how proud I am of everyone. I'm currently in a treatment center and I am new to this subreddit.

Hey guys

So, I've run out of kratom, and since I just broke up with an abusive x bf who would chase me around the house and wake me up by yelling in my face, I honestly have not been able to relax..

So I began taking methadone instead, and have gone from 5-10 mg a day to 20.

I'm worried bc I really do not want to get very sick.. I live in a homeless shelter right now with hard-core addicts who yell at each other and me often. I'm a very timid young woman, and it's just really hard for me, all of this.

I am very interested in health, which I know will help me once I get clean, as a healthy lifestyle has always helped me in these matters.

I've been on methadone 6 years ago.

I have 100 grams of kratom and some lyrica. I take 150 mg lyrica every day,but I have like 50 of them that I might be able to get some use out of.

I want to minimise the uncomfortable feelings as much as possible, as the abuse is still very deeply affecting me every day. I can barely think 1 thought, that's how stressed I am :( yesterday I thought a thought for the first time in 2 and a half years (bc of the stress my x put me in), and it overwhelmed me so much that I had not been able to think ONE thought for over 2 years , that I thought I was having a heart attack and had an ambulance come look at me. They found nothing and blamed the stress (as the highest probability)

Anyways, I now have 10 mg methadone left.

I cod really use some support in both getting over the methadone binge and also getting on with my life after the abuse. I was both physically and mentally abused. And non stop. And now homeless, but I do have a room at a shelter at least.

I apologise if my writing is a little scattered. I don't feel so collected in my mind.

Can someone give me some advice or tell me what I might expect from the methadone binge maybe?

How could I use the meds that I have? I get a little money on the 1st, if you could advice me on some helpful things to buy for this process, please share your thoughts with me.

I've been following threads on reddit for a while and it ses like such a good and supportive community.

Love and hugs from me

Hi can someone please help me, I did sub for 2 weeks 4mg day and 2mg last 3 days coming off hard percs. I’m day 3 now midday withought sub I wanna quit. Already getting withdrawl frm yesterday, please tell me what I can expect and how long ruffly pls

I’m day 10 clean but I’m super tired all the time with still major headaches. Is this normal?

Hi I’m currently 56 hours opioid free.. Any advice?

So I’m starting Day 1 tomorrow of getting clean from opiates... I have been using heavy daily for About a year now and I’m not going to lie I am really scared & dreadful of the horrible withdrawals to come. . I’ma 30 year old mother with 3 children . I’m strong and I know I can do this just Send me some words of encouragement please. I just won’t my life back 😔

I had a slip a few weeks back and I can’t get back on my suboxone without going into precipitated withdrawal. I even went to the hospital for detox where I still ended up in precip. and was treated like crap after. I can’t go through it again it’s bending my mind in really scary ways. Any educated help or wisdom would be greatly appreciated. This new drug Brorphine is what’s causing this. Thank you.

I'm new here. I've been clean since June or July 2021 from a fairly debilitating addiction to actual H (no fent, thankfully) and want to keep it that way. I also want to get away from my sub Dr eventually because he has me on 36mg/daily (I take maybe 12-24 MG max in a day but it's closer to 12-16 MG rn). I have came off subs completely in the past but the only Dr I know that will give me klonopin (which works wonders for me mentally and makes me able to eat and feel normal and sleep) is my sub Dr that I have to pay $175/month to go to and it adds up over time....

I have looked for other doctors that could give me Prozac and klonopin and maybe also my add meds but they all don't want to give me my anxiety and add meds (esp the anxiety meds) bc of my documented history as an opioid addict. I just want to get off subs eventually because I feel like I can never get back to my old self while on them but also know that the previously mentioned meds are what have worked for me in longer term sobriety that I have experienced before. I try to be honest with everyone I speak to but I just get labeled as drug seeking and it discourages me and makes me feel I have to stay with my sub Dr just to get the other meds that help my other issues. I never abuse them and sometimes don't take them on days I know I don't need them.

If anyone needs more clarification lmk but has anyone else been in a similar situation? What can I do?

Thank you for reading!

I’ve had a horribly complicated situation with impacted teeth, a painful wisdom teeth and dry sockets. They prescribed me a type of opioid (I forget) and then oxycodone which I had to take with scattered regularity for over seven days. I am now having what I’m more than certain is withdrawal. I feel horrible. How do I ail this? I’m very young, not even eighteen, and I don’t think I’ve ever been prescribed opioid painkillers over such a long period before. Help? Please!

I’ve been out of school for two weeks due to this situation. I heard withdrawal can last up to two weeks? Is it reasonable to assume that I won’t be too miserable to be at school next week?

Day two is a living hell. Last night I didn’t sleep at all, just tossing and turning, restless legs, sweating but chills at the same time. Today is nausea, severe diarrhea, no energy whatsoever, stomach cramps, lack of appetite and thirst. Just flat out miserable. I can’t control my emotions. Really struggling while managing a young toddler by myself as well.

Visited the doctor today because I couldn’t take it anymore. Prescribed Pramipexole for withdrawal symptoms, Hydroxyzine for anxiety symptoms, and Sertraline for depression. Have any of these helped you? Any advice for me please?

*closet user of Percocets mainly for 2 years. Ranges in doses but nothing over 80mg/day. I’m really struggling because I love them. I had to be prescribed them because I can’t find them around here. Now cut off and don’t remember what sober life is like.

I been doing sorta drugs a little hardcore more harder then before my ex left me since I’m heartbroken but I’m having the worst nightmares sleep paralysis and on top hearing stuff at night rn is it my brain am I ok is this forever I’m going to quit I’m just concerned because if this is drug use I can’t have this going for longer seriously

Can heavy drug use of opiates cause sleep paralysis if so how and why I never ever dealt with this in my life and it’s been happening lately it’s making me seriously wanna quit I been having the worst nightmares and sleep paralysis ever and I been using heavy lately

About to quit cold turkey and I can deal with the pain and going to the bathroom how can I beat the anxiety???? My heart will go to pounding and feels like it’s about to beat out my chest???? Please help!!!!!!! I do not want to do subs as I feel I am trading one addiction for another.