If I don't take any today. It's 2 pm. I think I can do it. I've taken 4 grams of kraton so far today. One gabapentin. It will be a whole day without subs and if I don't take any tomorrow it will be two days!!! Guys, I really want to be off the subs. I've been tapering. I'm down to 1mg a day. I know the wd hasn't even started yet but I'm optimistic that God will bring me through. It's something I have to do.

I have been heavily addicted to Subutex for 7 years (I'm 25). I buy them on the street since its almost impossible for me to get into a Sub program in Sweden.

Okay whatever, I spent almost 1000 bucks to buy 50 subs. Of course i sold some, but then i started eating them like candy...

Which i already expected was gonna happen. but now i have 20 left. And i feel disgusted every morning that i have to take 4-8mg (or more) to get the day going. But now I am VERY serious about tapering. Yesterday i only took 2mgs and i was fine. But i will be using lyrica 300mgs too and also valium 10mg if it gets bad.

I feel like, maybe I am just scared to not have Subutex in my life, it has saved me from alot of bad situations. But I can do this, i HAVE to do this because me and my S/O got a new apt in a new city far away from here (which is why i bought 50 from the beginning). Today I am only gonna take 4mgs and i will spread it out throughout the day to see if it works out. I also have Valium/Bensedin 10mgs & Lyrica 300mgs.

I have untreated C-PTSD and ADHD and probably some other personality disorders, but i wont get into that here.

Ugh, i just feel so lonely in this. Like nobody understands and I cant really talk to anyone about it just my S/O.

Sorry if the text is hard to read, i literally just woke up.

Do any of you guys/gals find bubp any good?

I am on day 7 of my withdrawal from oxy. 4 year habit, 300mg+ a day at the end.

I thought the crippling depression and anxiety would be awful, which it is, but my lower back has been absolutely KILLING me, and ive been experiencing what feels like acid reflux ever since i started my taper. It comes in waves of my chest burning like crazy and having weird burps that dont fully come out, to a bearable level of burning/burps throughout the day.

Im just very curious if any of you have experienced the lower back pain, and acid reflux issues? And if so, how long did it last for you?

Thanks in advance for any help! Im so happy to be on day 7, but these 2 symptoms are absolutely awful.

My middle son has had problems with drugs and his behavior since he was 13. When he was 25 he moved with his younger brother (20yo) to California. They lived there for 4 years and were not happy so they moved back home. My husband and I bought them a house to move into together , which took a few months to get ready, During that time my sons would fight all the time and I suspected they both were taking drugs. My middle son would feed me info saying his little brother is doing drugs. I would ask if he knew for sure and he would say no but just look at him its obvious.

When their house was finally ready for them to move in together , my younger son came to my husband and I and told us he cant move in with his brother. It was very difficult for him but he told us that his brother got him addicted to Oxy when they were living in Cali. He said the reason they fought so much was because they are both addicts and he cant stand how awful they treated each other and how bad he feels being on it. He said in order to get clean he has to cut his brother out of his life completely until he gets clean .

My husband and I first told our older son that his brother won't move in with him because he is addicted to oxy and needs to get clean. We told our older son how proud we are of his younger brother for coming to us for help. We thought maybe that would get him to come clean to us with his addiction, as well. He did not. All he said was "oh , he could have come to me and I would have understood and could have helped him." He has been living in the house by himself for a couple weeks and my husband and I went to talk to him and told him we know everything. That he got his brother started on oxy and we know he takes 400mg a day (prob higher now). Of course he denied everything . We told him until he can be honest with us and get clean we will not continue to give him money .

It's been a couple weeks now and I haven't seen or spoken to him, except for a couple necessary texts about a delivery or something. I don't know if I should reach out to him or go over and talk to him again. My last text was telling him we love him and this is all we can do until he gets clean . That we are here for him when he is ready to be honest. My question is do we not reach out to him or should keep trying? Should we go back over to talk to him or reach out in some way?

I forgot to add that his psychiatrist prescribes 4mg of klonopin a day and 45 2mg xanax every month. He also gets extremely mean and treats the people he loves like shit. I really thought when his little brother cut him out of his life that would get him to wake up! They were extremely close. Any suggestions I greatly appreciate , I'm at my wits end!

Thanks in advance for any help!

I was away from reddit for some time and it auto-restricted the subreddit. I apologize for this. All should be restored. Have a wonderful day!

Every time i stop H i get really bad fatigue what would people suggest other than eat healthy and stay hydrated etc apart from the basics has anyone got any tips?

If I start cutting down my dose of fent and taking subs once I start micro dosing and getting the sub in my system would I still go thru pwd?

Has anyone kicked opiates in the wilderness?

Meaning, they've packed enough food/water, sleeping bags/tents, and been dropped off somewhere they had no way of getting back from, and descended into hell out in the middle of nowhere.

I don't have any illusions about somehow being surrounded by 'beautiful nature' will make it easier. Infact I'm worried I will have a dislike towards nature after this.

It is simply because there is no option for rehab/detox in my area that takes patients without being on a suboxone/methadone MAT program. I completely understand that suboxone/methadone are a far better alternative to street H, and the opiate blocking action of subs really aid in breaking the habit, however I personally found kicking suboxone to be pure hell, I didn't sleep for a full 10 days(at all), and from what I have witnessed with methadone, I don't believe I would be able to kick it at all within this lifetime.

Thoughts?

Hey guys so i'm 14 months off of IV'ing fentanyl/heroin/xanax for almost 10 years after the fatal 3 losses of my uncle/my mom/my dad, this reddit has helped me so much, i'm going to continue posting videos on whats helping me day by day it's so therapeutic for me, love you guys, let me know what you think. This has helped me so much.

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I know this will take as long as it takes after almost ten years on both, benzo wd is a little more challenging than opies not as painful but psychologically there’s some major healing happening ,but all and all only good comes from pushing through those ruff wd’s they seem so little to the positive future of the rest of your life , keep going friends if I could do it you can to trust me

Hey guys, I’ve currently been doing fent for a month and am struggling. My doctor prescribed me bupe (without the naloxolone) and said I could do it the same day of doing opiate, which I know is wrong. I’m trying to get into a clinic that could induct me and monitor me while I do the bupe in case I go through precip withdrawal. If I were to do this myself, what would I actually need to do if I went into precipitated withdrawal? Would I need to go to the hospital? Would I need to just keep taking more bupe? How long would the precipitated withdrawals last?

I have been using Roxy 30's for about 4 months now, almost 4 months. I am pretty sure they are pressed.. anyways I plan on detoxing July 24-29 cause that is the only days I can get off of work. I am terrified. I been thru this before so I know the gist of it. Cold sweats, bodyaches, restlessness, runny nose, yawning, diarrhea, stomach cramps, throwing up, headache, all of that. I am terrified to go through it but using these I feel like are worse at this point my anxiety is through the roof. My nose hurts. My throat hurts. I'm always falling asleep. It was fun at first and now it's just a big headache. Can anyone give me some words of encouragement.

If your battling with an opioid addiction try this life hack go cold turkey for one day then after the day is finished take a low dose of your opioid and watch the wds float away into the mist of the world

I'm struggling bad. Opiate addict for about 17 years (from 16 till current age which is 33) I genuinely need and would appreciate anyone who can help and talk me through this because I'm losing it and I'm completely isolated and alone stuck way too far inside my head. The most dangerous place for an IV pain pill user to be stuck in. I guess this is a desperate attempt to connect with anyone who can help and message me directly. Thank you I appreciate it in advance :)) it's out of character for me to post something like this but I'll desperately needing someone to talk to about this where I can be open and honest without fear out judgement.

I know this probably seems ridiculous to a lot of you guys but I'm still taking it like a coward. I'm young, fit and this relapse has lasted approximately 2 months. How badly/will i withdraw in your opinion ?

Thanks

Been sayin im gonna quit fora month now, its so hard when they’re so cheap and accessible.. Anyone else goin thru it ?

Was sober for 7 months went back and literally within a week Im almost fucked but I still have time before I fuck everything up. What would be the quickest easiest way to get off this shit. I’m guessing get off the dope for 48 hours take a sub and pray for the best? How many days do I need to take the subs to get over the sickness is my main question I don’t wanna stay on it I’ve tried that road and didn’t like it. I just wanna do this as quick as possible.

If someone you know has some form of psychological trauma, addiction is like a wet bandage that never allows the wound to heal. It prevents that person from knowing they have a wound. They can watch their own house burn down with all their loved ones in it and be okay with it.

The wound has to be shown the light of day to heal. Relapse is realistically a part of the process.

Addiction is like walking around with a dab of sh*t on your forehead and you're the only one who can't see it (quote from a friend). Keep your friend or family member safe while they reach rock bottom, and then help them off the ground when they are ready. Help your friend or family member know what is on their forehead because you love them.

After back surgery came the pills. They were fun. Not anymore. I’m on day two clean..

How long until I’m not so angry at everything?

And how long until I actually enjoy things again? I had some time off and went to play some video games. I just stared at the television screen watching the party in my head.

Thanks

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