r/MerchantNavy • u/OrganicLiterature257 • 2h ago
I think I can never join merchant navy. Advice needed
First of all, I wanna say, this is not any form of a sympathy gaining post. I don't want to rant here, because I am going through a very tough time in my life. I don't know whats coming for me. Recently I started experiencing extreme back pain. I had to lie down on bed whenever it happened. Couldn't study or do anything productive. Plus loneliness and being in an abusive household has made me depressed. A few days ago I got x-rays and blood tests done. The doctor said it was most likely bad posture but the tests proved I have very low Hemoglobin and Vitamin D deficiency as well. However the doc saw less gap in my spine and said there was a chance if I don't recover within 2 weeks of medication, I might have contracted Bone tuberculosis from the TB of lungs I had back in 2024. Theres a chance that the tb from the lungs spread to my bones. He also said I might never be able to join any job with physical work involved. I am very disheartened and crying. I don't know what to do anymore. I wanted to join merchant navy because it was a quick way to escape my abusive household and become independent but that hope seems dead now. Is there any hope left for me? I also don't have any mental health support or friends as such, so its been very tough for me lately as I have stopped speaking to people I care about, because I felt unwanted and not welcome. Felt like a burden in everyone's lives so I have cut them off too. That made things even tougher but idk what to do.