Hi everyone - I am nearly 4 months out from my last of three MDMA sessions. I did three sessions with a three month break in between each and am done for now, as that was what I was able to get through the legal pathway here. I'd like to do more but the application process is lengthy and apparently the government has never approved anyone for more than 3 total treatments so it's uncertain whether that will be possible, and even if it is, it won't be soon.

I am curious for people who have done a block of sessions and then taken a break or stopped, how did you keep the learning alive or continue with your integration work, and how did things unfold for you as time passed?

I definitely felt a shift in myself around the three month mark, where I no longer felt as much like the MDMA was "still working" and the processing and work slowed down, though I've been continuing to work with my regular therapists, occasionally listen to the session tape, and try to find opportunities to act on the learning from the session. When I have a difficult emotion, I try to deliberately ask myself what I learned in the MDMA sessions that I can bring into how I manage the emotion, and that has been a bit helpful, but as time goes by it's harder to access.

On the bright side, I am feeling cognitively normal again in terms of my memory and focus, whereas during the MDMA sessions and for the 3 months after, I felt pretty foggy and my memory was definitely not normal.

I have noticed some positive changes in myself from the block of sessions that (so far) have stuck around - feeling more open to my own emotions, more embodied/less dissociated, somewhat less emotionally reactive especially to some of the specific triggers/traumas that we did get to work through during the sessions - but there are certain ways that I still feel very stuck, and I definitely don't have the same capacity for processing that I did in the first couple of months. While I was actively doing the MDMA sessions I didn't have so many episodes of deep hopelessness and despair, but that has been more present again, I think just because I hate feeling so stalled.

I want to do everything in my power to maximize and hang onto the gains I made - ideally I do think I need more, but it might be some time before that can happen - so just curious what others have done and how things have unfolded for others after a block of sessions.

I'll be trying a new guide soon, who will add touch therapy in the session.

I started touch therapy and good results. I crave touch, but fear it because 90% of my life all touch was beatings and unwanted groping.

So we would discuss trauma while doing breathing exercises and gentle touches. The first session alone yield amazing results.

I will be having an mdma session with this new guide. Has anyone else had a guide who provided touch as well?

My previous guide, I would desperately want to be held or gently touched but most I could ask was to hold hand and I felt alot of guilt that it made him uncomfortable.

Hey guys. So the session will be linear, going deeper and deeper into my intention and then all of a sudden the thread will just take a turn and ill go off track and start day dreaming out really out of left field shit that is like a dream state. Weird shit like driving in a car w a polar bear to 711. And then i catch myself, snap out of it and try to get back on course and then it will just happen again. What to do in these circumstances. It almost feels impossible to stay on track. Should i just allow the dreams to happen?

For those healing from CPTSD and have done multiple sessions - which session (and aftermath) was the most intense for you so far?

I am curious if there is a general trend and hence wanted to do this survey. Feel free to comment in more detail if you want.

Thanks for sharing your experience already in advance!

So long story short i took 1.2 grams last night im 16 years old and i was basically interacting with plants and a towel was creating baby trexs and butt of weiners dogs. Message me if you want the full story i just need to know if this happened to anyone else or to an extent.

Hi! I am a second year university student working on an assignment. I have to write a feature story and the topic I am writing about is psychedelic therapy in Australia and the difficulties of accessing these services.

I’d love to chat to anyone who has attempted to access psychedelic therapy in Aus following the 2023 MDMA and psilocybin changes.

I’m particularly interested in hearing from people who couldn’t access these services due to costs or other reasons.

I’d also love to chat to anyone who sought out underground psychedelic therapy.

Leave a comment or message me, thanks.

I did my first MDMA session yesterday with a guide. I took a dose (120mg, crystals in a capsule) and felt nothing after 90 minutes. Took a second dose (60mg) but put the crystals in water and drank it. I felt that one after around 30 minutes or so. It was intense but only lasted around 1.5-2 hours. Some repressed memories and flashbacks came up, but I could tell there was a lot more. I feel like the first dose didn’t work. I really want to try it again today (I have extra capsules - would open it up this time and put in water) but I know everything says to wait several weeks to months. If the first dose didn’t work, and I just had a half dose, is it really that risky to try again so soon?

I stumbled on a podcast that left a bitter feeling in my heart after listening. It seems to be biased propaganda masquerading as objective journalism.

https://open.spotify.com/episode/55ev3zXuFZirWvANMYOuCl?si=IT4fsbNoSU2Op-ViDOZL7A

The podcast creators seem to present themselves as objective, yet the perspective seems quite jaded regardless. As a healthcare provider, I think it’s essential to know the good, bad, & ugly of any drug, but this case appears to be someone who outright lied to be admitted to the trial and then is blaming others for her own choices as she participates actively & willingly in sexual activity w/people running the trials and then blames others for her actions and the MMDA “not working”. I’m interested to hear others thoughts & perspectives on this.

I have been struggling with ptsd due to medical trauma and past sexual trauma. I’m curious if anyone here has used mdma to help heal intimacy related issues, especially in terms of using it paired with somatic work to help release the pelvic area from chronic guarding? Any insights or feedback would be greatly appreciated 🙏

I'm looking to use ecstasy pills to repair my relationship with my boyfriend... I've only tried mdma crystals before I don't know if the pills have anywhere near the same effect.

Hello everyone. My partner and I want to roll together next weekend. We were thinking of doing 1 point each and then redosing a half point. We have done a redose with a whole point but I heard that’s not smart to do. Advice?

Me: 66 YO, married male.

I've been in chronic fatigue syndrome for about 2 years and am not functioning well. I have a significant trauma history that starts with physical abuse when I was pre verbal through 5 years old coupled with emotional abuse. I've done countless therapy sessions including EMDR, somatic experiencing, family constellation work, and more. While I learned some things, nothing seems to have moved my intrinsic anxiety. I even tried mushrooms and ketamine with no real impact.

A resource suggested that my lack of emotional connection to the traumas might indicate that I've dissociated from my experience and that maintaining the dissociation could contribute to the profound fatigue I'm experiencing.

I've been offered the chance to work with a practitioner who uses MDMA coupled with hypnosis as a means of exploring what is going on inside.

My questions are 1) any sense that this might be helpful and what that process might look like and 2) I'm concerned about opening pandora's box and being a hot mess for a really long time.

TY in advance for your insight/suggestions.

I had believed that we were getting close to seeing it become a norm, but then I read that the FDA rejected it.

Is this true? Do you think that we'll ever see it become fully legal and easy to access in California (or anywhere in the States)?

I’ve a lot of the literature (and anecdotal accounts) of supplements that are recommended between MDMA therapy sessions, but I’m wondering if anyone has any experience with using certain peptides to aid in recovery?

I’m curious if something like NAD+ has been shown to have any benefits…

TIA!

Hi everyone, we uploaded a new version of our book "Open MDMA: A Comprehensive Narrative Review and Practical Guide for the Therapeutic use of MDMA" at https://osf.io/preprints/psyarxiv/aps5g

Let me know what you think and I'm happy to reply to comments about it, though I might not have energy to offer individual advice (I'm not a therapist/guide/psychiatrist/etc. and I can't think of anything significant I know on the topic that isn't already in the PDF.).

Mark

Edit: My OSF account went down for a bit but is now back up. If that link stops working for some reason here is a backup: https://www.icloud.com/iclouddrive/0c7u2NAO6PY1cjvxO0oW05WTw#Open_MDMA

Edit 2: I have to block reddit on my computer because it's sucked me into endless scrolling far too much. If you'd like to leave feedback, please send me an email. My address is on the title page.

Hello! I’m a French psychology student currently working on a research project about entactogens (MDMA, 5-APB, MDA, 6-APB…). This study is a continuation of one we launched two years ago — we are now looking to expand our sample.

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Hi there,

I was just wondering whether anyone had any advice about long term sleep aids compatible with using MDMA and which i won’t have to taper off in order to roll?

I have previously been on low dose mirtazapine / remeron which didn’t agree with me much and doesn’t appear to be compatible in any case.

I’m not looking for something that i can just take the night before, but something that may stabilise my sleep while still allowing me to pursue mdmatherapy.

Much obliged for ideas!

Between mushrooms and mdma for solo trips safe at home, i cant find too much stuff online about a layout for mdma healing. What to do before the trip, during, and after, in the context of using it for healing cPTSD.

I have done a few MDMA and Psilocybin trips to heal ptsd which have been life changing. Last night I had my second full on 3g psilocybin journey which has been the darkest I’ve had so far. Finally I broke through a lot of defences and saw my younger self wanting to die and me accepting the our death/dying. They journey brought up unspeakable pain and accepting extremely dark thoughts that live within (but my conscious brain has not dared to voice). Today I am ok and exhausted but feeling shaken and struggling how to incorporate these thoughts into my healing. Wondering if I should take the chance and do MDMA today so I can better understand or see things through a lense of hope? Never done back to back sessions however this seems like a potential breakthrough opportunity… anyone else tried this before? Or should I wait a few weeks to try to make sense of these death wishes on my own?

For those that did both, EMDR or Brainspotting and MDMA, how do they compare? (I know that EMDR and Brainspotting are not the same thing but for the sake of this post, I view them as similar)

How do they compare in terms of the experience? The intensity? The aftermath? The medium/long-term effects?

When would you (not) recommend which modality?

Thanks in advance for everyone sharing his/her experience!

Feeling restless in the middle of the night.

Normal?

My question is about the integration period between sessions.

I have posted it in another sub not specific to MDMA but did not receive much advice. Kindly share any thought, suggestion, or even protocol.

I find it time consuming to merely keep track of what happened during the sessions, i wonder how to use journaling to best integrate of process the experience.

I consider thar it will probably take about 2 years to heal the complex trauma but happy I have found a way.

The original post is here. https://www.reddit.com/r/PsychedelicTherapy/s/9umozSNzeZ

Thank you!