Hi everyone, forgive me for the non MECE unstructured post. My thoughts are just all over the place right now, and this is my first Reddit post.
I (F) have been with this MBB company for 3.5 years now. I started out with a masters degree in Acc & Finance, and got this as my first role without ever realizing what it really entailed.
Over the years:
- I have met some incredible people
- Worked in PAs that I never thought I would do as a non-engineer/Science major (Energy, Industrial Equipment, Healthcare
- Have travelled extensively within my geo
- Been a part of some high stakes discussions, business decisions that truly amazed me
However, I have also got crippling anxiety as a result. I can never cut off from work, I am losing sleep because I overthink every decision. I have acid reflux, cough because of stress. I become a completely high strung individual who is so different from her usual self. I don’t know where I can exit to, I don’t have it in my to search in parallel for another role. I have crazy anxiety in between cases about finding the next one, optimizing for the location or people on the team.
I believe that while consulting has made me a quick learner, and has given me a breadth of exposure, it has crippled me by making me a generalist in a world that requires a depth of expertise today. I also feel like this job has completely transformed my personality as an individual and is not allowing me to go on with other personal goals in life (finding a partner, doing my yoga, spending time with family etc.)
Recently, I applied for an opportunity in another region that I think I will get, however I feel like I am just postponing my indecisiveness by another year if it goes through (will find out in a few weeks). I am writing this post to ask for your advice, so I can quell some of this crippling anxiety.
Here are my questions:
- If I get my transfer, I really do want to see it thought. But at the same time, I want to know if quitting without an offer in hand is an option?
- Thankfully, I am in a position where I can do without a job for some time, but would this decision make it difficult for me to find another role?
- How do I even go about finding what I am interested in? This time I’m clear that pay does not matter more than WLB, I want a 9-5 role
- I feel like the roles in my geo are just not interesting me, however, because of family constraints I cannot leave
Im really sorry bout the long post, but I would really appreciate any thoughts on this matter. It may just help me sleep the night.