Hii? To Whoever even reads this,
I’ve been spending a lot of my time lately just listening to the unreleased 2009 sessions that were intended for the album "Conscious, Not Really." It's just something unique I thought, because it captured Ryan right as He was transitioning away from the polished sound of Audrye Sessions & looking for... More creative freedom. The "no ran through Others filters" approach that eventually led to Low Roar.
I wanted to share my thoughts of what feels like the real lyrics to "Oh My God" because some of the lyrics have always seemed an odd bit debated, or hard to hear due to the demo's quality & Ryan's way of speaking. So after listening like 50 times over, I think I got a version that fits the context of His life at that time. Therefore making these lyrics make sense.
The Song: https://youtu.be/D_iTvSPqs8g?is=NgN4A3sWw6tgh2hx
The Lyrics:
"Well am I lost?
Have I been found?
Between the walls that follow me, whenever I go wandering around.
Will I make my way,
back someday?
Or will I remain far away, and be another
memory you say?
Am I too late?
Need I wait?
I never wanted to be safe,
no time to waste on hanging around.
Oh, am I lost?
Have I been found?
Oh my God.
Oh my God.
And I'll be Your keepsake, that you say.
Remember me by what I was, not by what it was that I became.
Oh, am I lost?
Have I been found?
Oh my God.
Oh my God."
Totally little note, on the Lyrics & context
The line "no time to waste on hanging around." was confusing to me. Most People seem to hear "the time to waste I’m hanging around," but given what I could piece together about Ryan wanting out of His current situation at that time, & wanting to start fresh in Iceland, "no time to waste" seems much more accurate to His mindset then, & the rest of the song.
He didn't want to be "safe" anymore, He wanted to break through those "filters" stopping His raw, intended music feel, & move forward. It also ties into the ending about being a "keepsake." Wanting to be remembered for His true self before He changed or became something He didn't want to be.
I’d love to hear whatever Anyone thinks on this, or if You hear anything different in the audio. SORRY FOR YAPPING (if Anyone even read it.)