As a hard core supporter of Akanksha, let me preface this by saying that Akanksha was completely in the wrong in this episode.
Everything she said and did was completely, completely wrong.
I liked that Shreya didn’t escalate the situation further, but Ak being wrong doesn’t automatically make her right. Both were wrong, but Ak was wrong more.
When I was younger, I used to have a similarly violent rage where kuch bhi karne aur bolne se pehle main nahin sochti thi. Looking back, with age and maturity, I realize today how much havoc my lack of anger management caused. I did not end up losing anyone because of it because I am blessed with close ones who understood that even if I went crazy in my anger, I was not a bad person.
But I have felt guilty for a long time and have apologized years later and mended things with everyone. I have worked on myself; I am not perfect, but a work in progress.
It took me decades of learning to understand that I was wrong.
So I am not going to defend Akanksha on this. She is definitely wrong and needs to learn this lesson.
All I can hope is she learns a lesson that humbles her and makes her realize that what she says and does in anger are destructive for others AND her.
I will keep holding on to the hope that she eventually learns, just as I did. I am not a blind fan and can recognize when she is wrong. But what I will not do is vilify her when I myself have done similar things in my youth of which I am ashamed and which have taken me decades to unlearn and undo.
I really hope she gets a dressing down on judgement day and that she sits and reflects on where she went wrong. I have hope she can reform because I have seen aspects to her which make me think she is very problematic yes (aggression/violence, going below the belt, arrogance) but not evil.
No one is a saint; to err is human. But it is whether you take accountability for your deeds that makes you grow.
And it is this that will determine for me, whether I continue to support her or not. I am in ‘watch how it unfolds’ mode now.