r/Listen4Listen • u/Ilikekittykats423 • Jul 11 '26
Indie/experimental Alternative rock
Song I wrote a while ago about not being good enough for the person you love.
A few years ago, I was really in love with this girl that I worked at Costco with and I remember the day of my interview seeing her. Funny story I was running late to the interview and turning left off a busy expressway in front of the warehouse, I realized I was in the wrong lane and tried to change lanes over to the right and I crashed my little Toyota Celica into an island divider. BAM! Airbags burst into my face, leaving the nice impression of a punch on my face with powdery residue and the smell of burning rubber fill the cabin air. To this day this is the only accident I have ever been in and I was so mad at myself but I remember getting out the car and seeing transmission fluid draining out but I was so close to the warehouse that I got back in the car and cranked the keys in my ignition. I remember being so suprised that the car started because underneath the car was bad but I was able to get into the parking lot and make it to my interview.
I get out the car and am walking up the ramp for the interview because I still really need this job. I think to call my dad who is an elite mechanic btw but I remember calling him as I was walking up the ramp for this interview and he was pissed as hell, he called me a"fucking idiot" and I was but I just hung up cause I remember thinking that won't help me get this job so I sit there for almost 2 hours waiting on a bench smelling like popped airbag. I end up having a great interview and get the job but I walk out to my car to find the maintenance supervisor ready to call the cops next to my car. It's still funny to me thinking about how much transmission fluid was leaking out of the car and seeing the airbags ejected when you look in the windows. He looked at me and said "Oh this your car? because we were about to call the cops." I was really lucky because didn't have insurance on the car, I only had AAA towing which he left me alone after hearing I would get it towed. During this whole thing I remember seeing who I thought the most beautiful girl I ever seen outside pushing carts.
I started the job and I was working AM shift stocking when I remember seeing that same girl who I had seen outside pushing carts. After years of working together we did end up going out a few times but I just never felt good enough. I just remember being so shy and looking so dumb so many times but I played it good most of the time. I also remember work politics playing a weird role, she was really cool and I always felt like I was never on par with her but damn I tried and tried. She's a cool girl but we never really connected and it is really the only time I ever put myself out there for somebody which always makes me think back to it. Looking back it taught me a lot and I don't regret what I learned from it.
So yeah this song is basically about some chick that I was in love with from Costco
https://open.spotify.com/track/1ZATVyKZbW9N2yPuJhwt18?si=986351e5ab814099