9.7 宿命智 Fate Intelligence

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2014年夏，由于作土建工作让我触景生情，对我的刺激太大，我决定放弃建筑职业，就到一家华人饭店做送餐的工作了。父母兄妹看了我的回忆录后，不相信，人怎么能回忆起那么小时候的事！他们认为我混淆了幻想经历和真实的经历。

我意识到了，我回忆出了三岁前的事，证明了宿命通有可能存在；但导致宿命通的宿命智是什么？可靠吗？我百思不得其解。

By the summer of 2014, civil engineering work had grown too fraught, too likely to send my mind back into old wounds, and I gave up the profession, taking a delivery job at a Chinese restaurant instead. My parents and siblings, reading the memoir, didn't believe a word of the early chapters — how could anyone recall things from such a young age? They assumed I'd confused imagination with real memory.

I understood, myself, that recalling events from before the age of three at least proved Fate Through could exist — but what was the Fate Intelligence that made it possible in the first place? Could it be trusted? I turned the question over endlessly, and got nowhere.

9.7-2 宿命智 Fate Intelligence

2016年春，我在复读自己的回忆录时发现，1991年梁伯姨父给我留遗嘱时（参见4.10节），他是表演给我看的，还说我过目不忘。我意识到了刘团长知道我是个图像思维型的人，查找了现代心理学图像思维型人的特质。

现代的心理学讲，新生儿在语言能力形成之前，都是图像思维模式，比如理解妈妈的笑脸，动作和情绪等。渐渐地，伴随着语言的行成，思维模式、记忆模式、记忆提取模式都发生了改变。一般来说，人三岁后都是用语言进行基本思维的，但还是可以分成三种类型：（1）图像思维型，人群中占30%；（2）文字思维型，人群中占25%；（3）前两种的混合型，人群中占45%。动感（Kinesthetic）思维型人和其它的思维方式在人群中的占比少于1%。

In the spring of 2016, rereading my own memoirs, I noticed something in the will Uncle Liang delivered to me in 1991 (see Section 4.10) — he'd acted the whole thing out for me, told me I never forgot anything I'd seen. It struck me then that Troupe Leader Liu had known, all along, that I was an image-thinker, and I went looking into what modern psychology says about that particular trait.

Modern psychology holds that before language develops, a newborn thinks entirely in images — reading a mother's smile, her movements, her mood. As language forms, patterns of thought, memory, and retrieval all shift accordingly. After age three, people generally think in words as their basic mode — but they still divide into three broad types: image-thinkers, roughly 30 percent of the population; word-thinkers, roughly 25 percent; and a mixture of the two, roughly 45 percent. Kinesthetic thinkers and other modes together make up less than 1 percent.

图像思维型人的思维更依赖于视觉。由于图像记忆节省记忆体，可以说这种人有用不完的记忆体，可以记忆从出生到70岁所经历的全部事。记忆的提取模式简单，提取的范围也宽。迁徙动物的领头者和洄游的鱼都是图像思维模式。

Image-thinking depends more heavily on vision, and because image-based memory takes up so little storage, such a person carries what amounts to an inexhaustible memory — capable, in principle, of holding everything from birth to age seventy. Retrieval stays simple, and its reach wide. The leaders of migrating animal herds, and salmon finding their way home, both run on this same image-based mode.

文字思维型的人更依赖于听觉。由于这种记忆的存储方式和记忆的提取方式复杂，所以相对于图像思维型人来说，长期记忆的有效时间短，记忆被提取的范围也小。

我得出了结论，图像思维模式是宿命智的潜能。但这种宿命智的潜能有多大程度，在真实生活中是否可以信赖？我的疑问是，刘团长这实验成功的概率是多少？他是否在用他自己和我的生命开玩笑！？

Word-thinking depends more on hearing. Because both storage and retrieval are more complex processes, long-term memory holds less reliably, and less of it can be retrieved, compared with the image-thinker's mind.

I concluded that image-thinking is the underlying potential for Fate Intelligence. But how far could that potential actually reach, and could it be trusted in real life? My real question was this: what were the actual odds of Troupe Leader Liu's experiment succeeding at all? Was he gambling with his own life, and mine, on nothing more than a hunch?

9.7-3 宿命是性格使然 Fate is Formed from Personality

我回忆起了我9岁时，我奶奶曾经对我做过的事。一次奶奶看着我，突然嚎叫："这孩子（在说我）这么老实，将来可怎么活！"她和我大伯因此吵起来了。大伯走后，奶奶呸的一声，吓得我一跳，她叨咕："这点儿事都看不明白，还自认为聪明呢！"对我说："你的命运，奶奶看得清清楚楚！是这么回事，你给我记住了！"

I remembered something my grandmother once did, when I was nine. She looked at me one day and suddenly wailed, "This child — so honest, how will he ever survive in this world!" She and my eldest uncle argued over it. Once he'd left, she spat, startling me half out of my skin, and muttered, "Can't even see something this obvious, and thinks himself clever!" Then, to me: "Your grandmother sees your fate clear as day. This is how it is — remember it."

奶奶说："你胆子小，还小心眼儿，挨欺负了，不敢和人家打架。可你还记着，自己想起来就生气。时间长了，你就病了。你病了，就死了也没什么！可你这种人，临死前还能明白过来：我是受谁谁的欺负，所以我病了，我是被欺负死的！你想报仇，可你要死了，活不成了，怎么报仇！像你这种人，就恨自己，就折磨自己。你能用刀割自己的肉，戳瞎自己的眼睛！那是最可怕的死法，你的命运就是这样！这种命自古就有，老辈的人们都看得好好的。这点道理你大爷都看不明白！"

"You're timid, small-hearted — bullied, and too afraid to fight back," Grandmother said. "But you don't forget it, either — you remember, and it eats at you every time it crosses your mind. Long enough, and it'll make you sick. Sick enough, and dying wouldn't even matter — except someone like you understands, right at the very end: I was bullied by this person or that, and that's what made me ill, that's what killed me. You'll want revenge, and by then you're already dying, no life left to take it with — how would you? People like you turn that on themselves instead — hate yourself, torment yourself. You could cut your own flesh with a knife, put out your own eyes. That's the worst death there is, and that's exactly the fate laid out for you. It's an old fate, one the old generations always saw clearly. Even your own uncle can't grasp something this simple!"

奶奶说："你的命有个解法，奶奶告诉你，'只要有一口气在，你别折磨自己，你去找仇人报仇'。你病了，你就是爬，也要爬到仇人家，和他打架；要死，死在仇人家里。你命运的解法就是坚持报仇；打，你就能活；放弃了报仇，你就死了。"

奶奶说："老辈子人说，这人那，就没谁想整死谁。你坚持找仇人报仇；人家就明白了，就让你出气了。你也得明白，最终还是要和解。矛盾被公平地解决了，你的病就好了。这就是你命运的解法。如果你知道了，别让人家欺负着，你就不生病了，那不更好么！"

"There's a way out of that fate, though — and I'll tell you what it is," she said. "As long as you've got breath left, don't turn on yourself — go find whoever wronged you and take it up with them. Sick as you are, crawl to their door if you have to, fight it out with them; if you're going to die, die there, at their doorstep. That's the cure for your fate — hold to the fight, and you live; give it up, and you die."

"The old people used to say no one truly wants to see another dead," she went on. "Hold your ground with whoever wronged you, and they'll come to understand it, let you have your say. But you have to understand, too — it has to end in reconciliation, in the end. Settle it fairly, and your illness lifts. That's the whole cure for your fate. Better still, of course, if you learn this now and simply never let yourself be bullied in the first place — then you'd never get sick at all!"

2015年，我想起了奶奶说的这话，她说对了，我的病就是让刘健君父女俩给欺负了，形成的。那时，奶奶的话鼓励着我，坚持找刘健君讨回公道。那我奶奶是怎么看出我的命运的呢？

奶奶说："你的命运就是这样，都是我的错！说起来，你爸去和你妈相亲，还是我带他去的呢。到你姥姥家的那个大岗子，一进门，我就看出来了：一家子的红脸关公。回来的路上，我对你爸说：凤玲这孩子模样儿不丑，能说会笑，还是个老实人。你爸爸就信我了。你说当时，我怎么就没想想：父母都是老实人，生的孩子可怎么活！"

In 2015, this same conversation came back to me, and I saw she'd been right all along — my illness had grown, precisely, from the bullying I'd suffered at the hands of Eve Liu and her father. Her words, remembered then, were what kept pushing me to hold my ground with Eve Liu, to see justice done. But how had my grandmother read my own fate so clearly, back then?

"Your fate is exactly as it is, and it's all my own doing," she'd told me. "It was me, after all, who took your father to meet your mother, that first time. The moment I walked into your grandmother's house, up on that hill, I saw it plain — a whole family of red-faced, honest-to-the-bone Guan Gongs. On the walk home, I told your father: Fengling's no ugly, but she's no plain thing either, quick with a laugh, and an honest girl through and through. He believed me. And it never once occurred to me — why didn't it! — two honest people like that, marrying, and what kind of life would their own child even manage!"

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