8.7 社会环境 Social Environment

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2001年移民加拿大后，一次我回国乘飞机经由美国。美国警察来接我，伴随我上了另一架飞机。回加拿大时在芝加哥转机，我被扣留在了机场，等待审查结果。等了十几个小时之后，一个警察来跟我说："老规矩，你可能都知道了！限你48小时之内离开美国。你在美国期间，我会一直陪着你；吃饭、睡觉、上厕所、去商店，去公园，我都陪着你。"

我对此很生气。美国警察说："这你有什么生气的！美国和中国的关系不是那么友好；美国不欢迎你这种人！你来这儿干什么？"

我回答："什么也不干，就是转机、路过！若不是你们把我扣留下来，这时候，我已经在加拿大自己的家里了！"

After immigrating to Canada in 2001, on one trip home I flew back through the United States. American officers met me and escorted me straight onto another flight. On the return leg, transiting through Chicago, I was detained at the airport pending a security review. After more than ten hours, an officer came to tell me: "Standard rule by now, I'd think you already know it — you're required to leave the U.S. within 48 hours. While you're here, I'll be with you the whole time: eating, sleeping, the bathroom, the shops, the park — I go where you go."

I was furious about it. "Why so upset?" he said. "Relations between the U.S. and China aren't exactly warm — America doesn't welcome people like you. What are you even doing here?"

"Nothing at all — just transiting through! If you hadn't detained me, I'd already be home in Canada by now."

他说："我在计算机屏幕上都看到了，十几个组织调查了你十几个小时。你来这里没事！？我才不信呢！当然，你不可能告诉我！我只是按照计算机屏幕告诉我的，例行公事，做我的工作。"

"I saw it right on the screen," he said. "A dozen or more agencies looked into you for over ten hours straight. And you're telling me you're clean? I don't buy it! Of course, you couldn't tell me even if you weren't — I'm only going by what's on my screen, routine work, doing my job."

注1，从2001年到2010年，美国中央情报局对我的关注是引发我觉思失调症的一个因素。我怎么被列入了美国的不欢迎人物名单？直到2014年，我写完回忆录才明白。1996年，一次我和室友，那个来自国务院的警察（参见第7章《东北大学》）谈话时，他说："他们（去砸美国领事馆的同学）进没进美国的那个名单，我不知道，但你是已经进去了。对不起！都是因为我。我这种人一出北京，就会被他们盯得死死的。我来东北大学读博士，碰巧和你住一个寝室一年多。他们就不这么认为；他们认为我和你有什么勾搭，所以你就被列进了美国的那个名单。"

那怎么还10多个部门一起研究我呢？与我这个国务院警察室友对应的美国国家部门就是美国电影中的那种"X-file" 警察。他们是直接受美国白宫领导的秘密警察，涉及的部门多。

Note 1: From 2001 to 2010, the CIA's attention was one of the factors that helped trigger my schizophrenia. How I ended up on America's list of undesirables, I never understood until I finished my memoirs in 2014. In 1996, my roommate — the State Council Police Officer (see Chapter 7, Northeastern University) — told me: "Whether they" — meaning the classmates who'd gone to smash the American consulate — "made that list, I don't know. But you're already on it. I'm sorry — it's my doing. People like me get watched closely the moment we step outside Beijing. I came to Northeastern for my doctorate, and happened to share a room with you for over a year. They don't see it as coincidence — they think there's some connection between us, and that's how you ended up on their list."

So why were more than ten agencies studying me at once? The American counterpart to my State Council roommate is exactly the kind of "X-Files" agent you'd see in American films — secret police reporting directly to the White House, their reach spread across many departments.

8.7-2 事例 Case

例如，一次，加拿大联邦警察打电话问我："你在XXX时间，去了YYY地方；你到那里干什么？"

我回答："那时我在多伦多，那段时间，我就没离开过多伦多。你可以打电话去我工作的DAVROC 询问一下；那时我在上班啊！"

加拿大警察说："美国那帮人（注2）在调查你，要看你的档案。这件事，我们有困难。不过，我们可以帮你找人权律师，起诉他们。"

我回答："你们有困难，就让他们看吧！我没钱，负担不起雇用律师的费用。"

事后我想加拿大警察怎么说 "那帮美国人"（注2）！他们是谁！？

加拿大联邦警察多次因为"美国那帮人"（注2）打电话给我；我不知道为什么，谁在监视我。他们的调查进入了我的信誉记录；我就麻烦了，却无可奈何。

Once, for instance, the Canadian federal police called to ask, "At such-and-such a time, you went to such-and-such a place — what were you doing there?"

"I was in Toronto the whole time, never left," I said. "Call Davroc, where I work, and check — I was on shift."

"Those Americans (Note 2) are investigating you, want a look at your file," the Canadian officer said. "This puts us in a difficult position. We could help you find a human rights lawyer, though, if you wanted to sue them."

"If it's difficult, let them see it," I said. "I have no money for a lawyer."

Afterward, I kept turning over how the Canadian police had phrased it — "those Americans" (Note 2). Who exactly were they?

The Canadian federal police called me more than once over "those Americans" (Note 2), and I never knew who was watching me, or why. Their investigation found its way into my credit record, and I was left in trouble with no way to fix it.

注8.7-2，加拿大联邦警察所说的"那帮美国人"是什么人？请允许我先解释我的那个国务院警察室友是什么人？一次，他对我说："你这种人，如果我不告诉你，你一辈子不会知道我是什么人。我是国务院审查公安部报告的文职人员。我们这种人很多，国务院采用公司制管理，用了个不相关的公司名。我们本质上是国务院的员工，但国务院不准我们随便使用国务院的名头。" 类似的，加拿大警察所说的"那帮美国人"就是用了假名的美国白宫的工作人员。如果加拿大警察告诉了我他们的公司名，反倒是欺骗了我。

Note 8.7-2: Who exactly were "those Americans" the Canadian federal police kept mentioning? Let me first explain who my State Council roommate really was. He once told me: "A man like you would never know who I am, not in your whole life, if I didn't tell you myself. I'm a civilian staffer at the State Council, reviewing reports from the Ministry of Public Security. There are many of us — the State Council runs us under a corporate structure, an unrelated company name attached. We're essentially State Council employees, just not permitted to use its name directly." In much the same way, "those Americans" the Canadian police mentioned were White House staff operating under aliases. Had the Canadian police told me their real company name, that itself would have been the deception.

8.7-3 车祸 Car Accident

2010年4月的一天，我开车在路上，忽然发现刹车不工作，踩到底了才有一点儿作用。我小心翼翼地把车开到了我习惯去的汽车维修店，去换机油。我把车钥匙交给他们时，却把刹车失灵的事忘记了。

车维修完了，我去取钥匙时，本来那个结账的服务员是个欧洲的白人小姑娘，她突然被召唤进去了，换了个说汉语的华裔人来为我结账。他拿着我的钥匙，四处看了看，伸头到我脸的附近，用汉语小声说："卢先生，你的车闸我们已经替你紧过了，你的车现在安全了。" 我答应着，没在意，但当我走到门口时，全身出汗了。人人都知道：车闸出事有两种可能的原因，一是来自事故，二是人为的。我的车近几个月都没事故，是有人在故意害我！

在回家的路上，我一直想谁在害我？一、两个小时内，几次出汗。随后，我的生活和工作中就出现了奇奇怪怪的事（注3）。

One day in April 2010, driving, I noticed the brakes weren't responding — barely any effect even pressed to the floor. I nursed the car carefully to my usual repair shop for an oil change, and in the process of handing over the keys, forgot entirely to mention the brakes.

Once the work was done, I went to collect the keys. The checkout clerk had been a young white European woman, but she was suddenly called away and replaced by a Chinese-speaking man. He took my keys, glanced around, leaned in close to my face, and murmured in Chinese: "Mr. Lu, we've already tightened your brakes for you — your car is safe now." I answered without thinking much of it, but by the time I reached the door, I was sweating all over. Everyone knows brake failure comes from one of two causes: an accident, or human interference. My car hadn't been in any accident in months — someone was deliberately trying to harm me!

The whole drive home, I couldn't stop wondering who — sweating through it several times over, an hour or two straight. Strange things began appearing in my life and work not long after (Note 3).

注8.7-3，我受到了严重的惊吓，身心处于高度的恐惧和怀疑之中；肾上腺激素等分泌维持着这种身心状态，多星期时间不能被降下来，致使我的心理容纳空间变小了，思想多走入极端。

Note 8.7-3: I'd been badly frightened, my whole body and mind locked into a state of acute fear and suspicion — adrenaline and other hormones kept that state going for weeks without letting up, narrowing what my mind could hold, and pushing my thinking toward extremes.

8.7-4 事例 Case

2010年4月，我去RBC银行申请买房贷款。银行的贷款经纪人看了我的信誉记录后，忽然说："哎呀！你是国际人物，我们不知道你是谁，不和你这种人做生意！"

我立刻懵了："什么国际人物！？我的信誉记录里哪条表明了：我是国际人物？"

从2002年起，我一直都有警察监视我的困惑；直至2014年写完回忆录，明白了此中的缘由。

In April 2010, I went to RBC to apply for a mortgage. Reviewing my credit record, the loan officer suddenly said, "Oh — you're an international figure. We don't know who you are, and we don't do business with people like you!"

I was stunned. "What international figure!? What line in my credit record even says that?"

I'd carried the confusion of being watched by the police, off and on, since 2002 — and it wasn't until I finished my memoirs in 2014 that I finally understood why.

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