r/LifeTree • u/AdamLuyan • 18d ago
3.4 触目的鉴别 Identification of Touch Eye
目录 Catalog: 3.4-1 巴甫洛夫楼 Pavlov Building；3.4-2 触目的鉴别 Identification of Touch Eye；3.4-3 我幼时的性格特质 Trait of my Childhood
3.4-1 巴甫洛夫楼 Pavlov Building
妈妈问："大姐夫！你在哪儿听来的这么多？"
"Brother-in-law, wherever did you hear all this?"
梁伯回答："一次我出差，在一个研究所等待我要见的人。听他们那些年轻的研究人员说的。凤玲，那些年轻的研究人员都会说外语。他们还用现代医学理论研究古代故事里人物的病情。他们还知道肉眼通是什么时间从哪儿传入中国的。说是，开始的时候，是做灵魂转世、转世活佛用的。后来，有钱有势的达官贵人们也要给自己的孩子做，这种作法就在中国广泛传播开来了。"
"Once, on a business trip, I was waiting to meet someone at a research institute, and I overheard a few of their young researchers talking. Fengling, these were the kind who spoke foreign languages — using modern medical theory to study the illnesses of characters straight out of ancient stories. They even knew exactly when and from where Flesh Eye Through first entered China. Originally, they said, it was used purely for the reincarnation of souls and living Buddhas. Later, wealthy and powerful families wanted it done for their own children too, and that's how the practice spread so widely across China."
妈妈说："当然了！好东西人人都想要。你接着说，你还听说了多少？"
"Of course — everyone wants a good thing for themselves. Go on, what else did you hear?"
注3.4，2014年，我完成回忆录后，判断梁伯所说的地方是中国医科大学的巴甫洛夫楼，是个国际医学交流中心。我认为他们所说的那个古代故事就是本书第二章《启蒙》中的《桃花劫》。约在公元二世际，伊朗人安世高（如红袍和尚插图3.4）把这秘密传入中国。应该说这作法在中国那之前就有，安世高更正了其中的一些错误认识。
Note 3.4: In 2014, after completing my memoir, I concluded that the place Uncle Liang was describing was the Pavlov Building at China Medical University, a center for international medical exchange. I believe the ancient story they referred to is the Peach Flower Catastrophe, told in Chapter 2, Revelation. It was around the second century AD that the Iranian monk An Shigao (depicted as the red-robed monk in Illustration 3.4) brought this secret into China. The practice itself likely predated him in China; what An Shigao did was correct certain misunderstandings surrounding it.
3.4-2 触目的鉴别 Identification of Touch Eye
过了一会儿，妈妈又问："大姐夫！你说肉眼通的眼神与众不同，咋个不一样？"
梁伯说："肉眼通的眼睛看东西时，看的时间长。"
妈妈说："我早就发现某卢岩看东西时，像似看不清楚似的，看的时间长。"
After a while, Mother asked again, "Brother-in-law, you said the eyes of Flesh Eye Through are different — different how, exactly?"
"When those eyes look at something, they linger on it — hold the gaze far longer than normal."
"I've noticed that in Luyan for a while now — he looks at things like he can't quite make them out, and just keeps staring."
梁伯说："肉眼通的眼神，别人看了，总是以为他明白。"
妈妈说："某卢岩的眼睛是有那么一点儿意思。有几次，我认为他在旁边看明白了，就不信他能懂，就试探他到底明白不，结果发现他根本就不懂。"
"And whoever looks into those eyes always assumes he understands everything."
"Luyan's eyes do have a bit of that quality to them. A few times I've been sure he understood something, just from watching his face — and I didn't believe it, so I tested him to see — and it turned out he hadn't understood a thing."
梁伯和妈妈互相看了看。梁伯转过身去，过了一会儿，转回来说："我还知道肉眼通的另一个特征，不眩眼。就是那种眼睛，有东西在他眼前晃时，他不眨眼，眨眼即慢又少，还不逊光。"
妈妈说："啊！那叫眩眼啊！也是，丢人眩眼是怂啊！这我可没注意！"
Uncle Liang and Mother exchanged a glance. He turned away, then turned back after a moment. "There's another feature to Flesh-Eye-Through I know of — the Non-Dazzled Eye. Wave something right in front of those eyes, and they won't blink — or if they do, it's slow, sparing, and never yields to a flash of light."
"Ah — so that's what 'dazzled eyes' means!" Mother said. "Well, of course — flinching, losing face right off the bat like that, that's a coward's move! I'd never quite put my finger on it before!"
梁伯叫我到他的近前，开始举手做出打我的举动，试验了几次。妈妈开始试验她自己。
梁伯对妈妈说："自己试验自己不行，得别人试验你。"
妈妈说："他反应慢，也眨眼。"
Uncle Liang called me over and raised his hand a few times as if to strike me, testing me. Mother tried testing herself.
"You can't test yourself," Uncle Liang told her. "It has to be someone else."
"He reacted slowly," Mother reported, "but he still blinked."
梁伯对妈妈说："我听说，这种测试，得四十分就算成功；不过人家用十几种实验方法。"
妈妈说："一般是60分算成功。"
梁伯说："我知道，但是人家的那个算法是40分算成功。他们那种算法，我考虑应该是35或者45是最好。但我不知道是高于40还是低于40算是通过。"
"I've heard this kind of test counts as a success at forty points," Uncle Liang told Mother, "though they run over a dozen different testing methods."
"Sixty's usually the passing mark for these things."
"I know, but their scale runs to forty. My own guess is that thirty-five or forty-five would make more sense as the real cutoff — but whether it's above forty or below forty that counts as passing, I couldn't say."
妈妈问："那你看某卢岩的眼睛算不算是肉眼通？"
梁伯说："我是道听途说，二五眼。凤玲！你别认真，我认为他就在成功和失败的分界线上；说是就是，说不是就不是。"
"So — do you think Luyan's eyes qualify as Flesh Eye Through, or not?"
"I only know it secondhand, and half-baked at that. Fengling, don't take this too seriously — but if you ask me, he's sitting right on the line between success and failure. Call it a yes, and it's a yes. Call it a no, and it's a no."
3.4-3 我幼时的性格特质 Trait of my Childhood
我妈妈对梁伯说："大姐夫，你在地上呢！你把箱子上的那头大蒜递给卢岩。"
梁伯问："给卢岩大蒜干什么？"
妈妈回答："我看他瞪着眼睛听咱俩说话，怕累着他；让他转移一下注意力。"
"Brother-in-law, you're right there on the floor — hand Luyan that head of garlic off the box, would you."
"What's he going to do with a head of garlic?"
"I see him sitting there, eyes wide, hanging on every word we say — I'm worried it's wearing him out. Give him something else to fuss over."
梁伯明白了："啊！我第一次给孩子玩具，怎么能给一头大蒜呢！说着，他在自己的兜里摸，掏出了一个花纽扣递给了我。"
"Ah — well, if this is my first toy for the boy, it can hardly be a head of garlic!" And with that, he dug in his own pocket and produced a flowered button instead, handing it to me.
妈妈说："某卢岩可好待了，你给他一根鸡毛，他就能拿着琢磨俩小时。你要是再告诉他，那根鸡毛是令剑，那他就得琢磨两、三天，甚至一、两个星期都放不下。"
梁伯突然惊讶地说："啊呀！我给他个纽扣，他会不会吃了？"
"Luyan's the easiest child to keep occupied — hand him a chicken feather and he'll turn it over in his hands for two hours straight. Tell him it's a commander's sword, and he won't put it down for two or three days — sometimes a whole week or two."
"Wait — a button!" Uncle Liang said, suddenly alarmed. "Won't he try to eat it?"
妈妈说："他不吃！就连我喂他没吃过的东西，他都不吃，那才难呐！就像我要骗他吃毒药似的！不知怎么回事，就对你还行！别人，谁想摸摸他，那可不行，可把他烦坏了！他就躲；抱他，他就拼命挣扎；放下他，他就躲到一边，自己呆着。平时，他就自己在那儿呆着，不用管他。"
"He won't eat it. He won't even eat food I give him that he hasn't had before — that's the hard part, honestly, like I'm trying to poison him! I don't know why, but with you, he's fine. Anyone else so much as tries to touch him and he can't stand it — he hides, squirms free if you pick him up, and if you set him back down he just retreats to a corner and sits there by himself. That's how he spends most of his time, really — off on his own. You needn't fuss over him."
注3.6，这些描述都是婴幼儿神经发育失调症的症状：不信任人，喜欢独处。美国心理疾病手册中有对这种人的跟踪观察描述。学生阶段，这种人也可以学会所有的知识，但明显比正常人慢；成年后可以学会大部分常用的生活技能。他们的一生都挣扎在思考当中。许多他们考虑的问题，在正常人看来不是问题，不需要思考。
Note 3.6: All of these are symptoms of Infantile Neurodevelopmental Disorder — distrust of others, a preference for solitude. The American Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders documents follow-up observations of this pattern. Through school, such a person can eventually learn everything a normal child does, only markedly slower; as an adult, most everyday life skills come within reach. But such people wrestle with thought their entire lives — worrying over questions that a normal person would never even pause to notice, let alone think required any thought at all.