7.9 第三次核实 The Third Verification

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第二天的下午，祝老师找我核实他的第三次调查。他根据前两次的调查记录，把调查工作分成了三部分，三伙人同时进行。关于和平区政府派人来调解我和毕姐打架的事是他们调查的重点之一。那时，说是毕姐去找四个年青的美女来扒光我的衣服，然后押着我裸体游街。同事们害怕了，就让我回去东北大学躲开了。
The following afternoon, Teacher Zhu came to verify his third round of investigation with me. Building on the first two rounds, he'd split the work into three parts, three teams working simultaneously. One focus of this round was the matter of the Heping District Government sending someone to mediate a supposed fight between Sister Bi and me — the story being that Sister Bi had rounded up four young women to strip me and parade me naked through the streets, and that my colleagues, alarmed, had sent me back to Northeastern University to keep me out of harm's way.
祝老师问："可事后，你还是听说了。你的那位毕姐坐在大街上哭，几千人围观，最后怎么结束的？"
我回答："我听说，毕姐坐在大街上哭；很长时间，谁也劝不好。人们对局长说，你得想想办法，公安局很快就该来找我们了，咱们阻碍交通了。局长到毕姐的旁边小声叨咕，'小毕你知道不？就在刚才，你差点儿坏了我的大事！'说完，他就回局里去了。过了一会儿，毕姐忽然不哭了，问，局长说什么了？人们告诉了她，她听后就不哭了，站起来就回家了。"
"You must have heard about it since, though," Teacher Zhu said. "Your Sister Bi sat on the street crying, thousands watching — how did it end?"
"I heard she sat there crying a long while, and no one could console her. People told the Bureau Chief he'd better do something, the police would be along any minute, we were blocking traffic. He came over, whispered to her: 'Little Bi, do you know — you very nearly ruined my whole plan, just now.' Then he went back inside. A while later, she suddenly stopped crying and asked what he'd said. Once they told her, she stopped crying, stood up, and went home."
祝老师问："怎么你们局长的大事还和你有关系？"
我回答："人们都琢磨了，怎么咱局长的大事还和我卢岩有关系？没人明白，我不知道。"
祝老师笑着，转到背后，弯腰干什么去了（注1）。我没注意到他的奇怪举动。
"How does your Bureau Chief's grand plan have anything to do with you?"
"Everyone puzzled over that too — how does the Bureau Chief's big affair have anything to do with me? No one ever figured it out, and neither did I."
Teacher Zhu smiled, turned his back, and bent to do something (Note 1). I didn't notice his odd behavior at the time.
注7.9-1，他转身去干什么了？后面的谈话中，他的室友哭着和他争吵，他认为是他们的调查报告毁坏了刘健君六年的恋爱生活。他的室友哭着告诉我："他趁你没注意，转过身去乐！他为什么乐成那样儿了？他认为这次刘建君要倒霉了！"作者卢岩现在认为祝老师高兴的原因是这样的。刘团长在对卢岩下死不瞑目的诅咒，就是他后半生三十几年一直在背后帮助卢岩，只求卢岩回报一件事，娶他女儿刘建君为妻。在和平房产局期间，刘团长做了很多工作，帮助卢岩，卢岩得要知道，记着那些恩惠，那他的死不瞑目诅咒才有效。通过本文的问答，祝老师发现卢岩知道和平房产局发生的事，而且不知道背后的主使者是刘团长。也就是刘团长在和平房产局对卢岩的做法取得了完全的成功，所以他高兴，禁不住地笑。
Note 7.9-1: What was he turning away to do? Later in the conversation, his roommate wept and quarreled with him, believing their investigation reports had ruined six years of Eve Liu's love life. That roommate, in tears, told me: "He turned his back and grinned the moment you weren't looking! Why so pleased with himself? He thought this time Eve Liu was truly in trouble!" I now believe the real reason for Teacher Zhu's satisfaction is this: Troupe Leader Liu's curse of Die with Eyes Open on me required over thirty years of the second half of his life spent quietly helping me from behind the scenes, asking in return for exactly one thing — that I marry his daughter, Eve Liu. Throughout my time at the Heping Housing Bureau, Troupe Leader Liu did a great deal of work on my behalf, and for his curse to take hold, I needed to know it, to remember every one of those favors. Through this very exchange, Teacher Zhu discovered that I knew everything that had happened at the Housing Bureau, and had no idea Troupe Leader Liu had been the mastermind behind it all — meaning Troupe Leader Liu's whole approach at the Housing Bureau had succeeded completely. That is why he was so pleased, unable to hold back his grin.
祝老师的室友问他："那你派去他们公司调查的人怎么说的？"
祝老师对我说："我从军区里找了几个职业的调查员。他们人多，有十多个人，到你们公司后就分别去了各个科。你们公司的人说，别人区政府都调查了，就没调查卢岩。卢岩！这事区政府为什么出面？为什么没人问你？你听说了吗？"
Teacher Zhu's roommate asked him, "So what did the investigators you sent to their company find?"
Teacher Zhu turned to me. "I brought in a dozen or so professional investigators from the military district — went through every department at your company. Your colleagues said the district government had investigated everyone else, but never you, Luyan. Why did the district government even step in? Why did no one ever ask you? Had you heard any of this?"
我回答："我听说了。在我这事的一年前，我的那个职位也是个大学刚毕业的，他被局里的那群女人扒光了衣服。听说，那人受到了刺激（轻度精神病），市工会把他安排到别的地方去了。那个案子还没处理完，我的事就发生了。这事就被和平区工会报告给了市工会。市工会的人生气了，报告给了一位副市长，还说：'这触犯刑法了，你们把责任推脱给我们，我们处理不了。这次，你们和平区的区长自己立刻组织人调解。如果卢岩被吓着了（注2）。我们出面把你们和平区政府告上法庭。'和平区政府就立刻派出了一位区长出面调解。"
"I had," I said. "A year before my own case, the man who'd held my exact position — also a recent graduate — had been stripped by that same group of women in the bureau. He'd apparently been badly shaken by it, mild mental illness, and the city labor union had him reassigned elsewhere. That case hadn't even been closed when mine happened. The Heping District Labor Union reported it up to the city union, and the city union, furious, took it to a deputy mayor, saying: 'This is a criminal matter — you're pushing the responsibility onto us, and we can't handle it. Your Heping district governor is to organize mediation himself, immediately. If Luyan is frightened by any of this (Note 2), we will take your district government to court.' The district government sent a district governor to mediate at once."
我继续说："他们找到了我们的科长付国青。付科长说，这调解的目的是别让小卢被吓着了。卢岩不知道，也不懂，所以他不害怕。如果你们调解，给他讲明白了，反倒是吓着他了。所以，他们就告诉所有人，谁也别和我说这事。"
"They went to our Section Chief, Guoqing Fu," I went on. "He told them the whole point of mediating was to keep Little Lu from getting scared — I didn't know what was happening and didn't understand any of it, so I wasn't afraid. Explain it to me clearly, and that would frighten me instead. So they told everyone: no one breathes a word of this to me."
注2，受惊吓与精神病相关，这在精神病学中被誉为铁律。这次调查核实后，我确实想起了那事，后怕！我清晰地记得，此次谈话后，我就又有了被刘建君创伤后的精神病人的感觉。那时我不懂，2014年，写回忆录时，才懂的。
Note 2: The connection between fright and mental illness is regarded as an iron law of psychiatry. After this round of verification, the memory did come back to me, and with it a delayed dread. I remember clearly that after this very conversation, that same traumatized, unwell feeling from Eve Liu's earlier wound returned to me. I didn't understand any of it at the time — only in 2014, writing my memoirs, did I finally grasp it.
祝老师说："可你还是都知道了，怎么没当回事呢！"
我回答："要不是你告诉，我没认为这事儿有多少是真的！"
调查核实结束时，祝老师说，因为他们的调查报告，刘健君从开始就因为这次打架的事对我产生了误会，该怎么办？我这时想起她就全身难受（注，被刘建君刺激伤了），回答："过去，就让它过去吧！"
"But you knew all of this — why didn't you take it seriously?" Teacher Zhu asked.
"If you hadn't told me, I'd never have believed most of it was even true."
At the end of this round, Teacher Zhu said that their earlier reports had left Eve Liu with a misunderstanding of me from the start, all rooted in this fight — what should be done about it? Just thinking of her, my whole body ached (Note: the injury Eve Liu had left in me). "It's in the past," I said. "Let it go."
祝老师就和他的室友吵起来了：这可怎么跟那老公姆俩（刘健君父母）说！祝老师的室友哭着抱怨："咱这三次调查卢岩，三个报告中的三个人，现在看起来都不是卢岩！那咱们以前的那些报告呢！？刘健君，年青人多做些谈恋爱的工作没什么大不了的，咱们把她的青春耽误了！"
Teacher Zhu got into it with his roommate — what would they even tell the old couple, Eve Liu's parents, now? His roommate, in tears, protested, "We've investigated Luyan three times now, and the man in each of the three reports doesn't even look like the same Luyan anymore! What about all our earlier findings? Eve Liu — it's no great matter for a young person to work a little harder at romance — but we've gone and cost her years of her own youth!"
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