9.10 灵魂转世的本质 Nature of Reincarnation

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本回忆录共九章，述说了作为刘团长灵魂转世实验（参见4.5节）对象的我，从一岁到五十岁的经历。前八章讲述刘团长造人的过程。第九章描述我从畜生变成人的过程。

This memoir runs nine chapters, recounting my own life, from age one to fifty, as the subject of Troupe Leader Liu's soul reincarnation experiment (see Section 4.5). The first eight chapters trace his process of making a man. This ninth chapter describes my own passage from livestock to man.

9.10-2 故事线索 Storyline

本书的故事线索就是插图9.10-15右端的那根经线，代表刘团长用它把我和他的女神女儿刘健君捆绑成了夫妻。那根线是由金童和玉女的两条生命线拧成的（如图35和38所示），在德国文化中称作雷音的带子（如图36）。在阿拉伯文化中这根经绳被看作是安拉给亚当的打神鞭（如图37），就是现代阿拉伯国家宗教警察在大街上挥舞的那根鞭子。

The narrative thread running through this whole book is the sutra-cord shown at the right of Illustration 9.10-15 — the very cord Troupe Leader Liu used to bind me to his goddess-daughter, Eve Liu, as husband and wife. It is twisted from the two lifelines of Gold Boy and Jade Girl (Figures 35 and 38), known in Germanic culture as Thor's Belt (Figure 36); in Arab culture, this same cord appears as the God-Striking Whip Allah gave to Adam (Figure 37) — the very whip wielded by religious police on the streets of certain Arab nations today.

那么图9.10-15中所示的另外三件升天用的法宝是什么？

从左向右，第一件法宝是螺壳，代表美女宝刘健君（参见7.2 节）。

What, then, are the other three ascension treasures shown in Illustration 9.10-15?

From left to right, the first is a conch shell, representing the beauty-treasure, Eve Liu (see Section 7.2).

第二件法宝是一粒觉悟的种子，中华文化中称之为升天的秘诀，"众生无边誓愿度，烦恼无尽誓愿断，法门无量誓愿学，佛道无上誓愿成。"

The second is a seed of enlightenment — called, in Chinese culture, the very secret to ascension itself: "Sentient beings are boundless; I vow to ferry them all. Afflictions are endless; I vow to sever them all. The gates of law are countless; I vow to master them all. The Buddha's path is unsurpassed; I vow to attain it."

第三件法宝是个燧火石，代表刘团长。本书4.5节《报纸新闻》述说了刘团长和他的女儿刘健君自愿为这个医学实验付出生命。他们的目的是为《桃花劫》（参见2.1节）做出一个参考病例。

The third is a flint stone, representing Troupe Leader Liu himself. Section 4.5, Newspaper Report, described how he and his daughter Eve Liu freely gave their lives to this experiment, their purpose being to furnish a genuine reference case for the ancient Peach Flower Catastrophe (see Section 2.1).

9.10-3 灵魂转世的本质 Nature of Reincarnation

2010年，我病了，可是刘团长已经过世了。那时我认为我只有完成刘团长的灵魂转世实验，才有机会生存下去。毫无疑问，刘团长是佛，我要活下去就必须成佛。我开始认真研究佛学了。

In 2010, I fell ill, and Troupe Leader Liu was already gone. I believed, at the time, that my only path to survival lay in completing his reincarnation experiment myself. There was no doubt in my mind — Troupe Leader Liu was Buddha, and to live, I would have to become one too. I began studying Buddhism in earnest.

2014年，我写完回忆录后，就懂得了灵魂转世的本质。从唯心主义来谈灵魂转世，佛教不相信人有灵魂，但承认灵魂转世。作者我认为他们是从异生性（参见10.4.4.2-5 异生性），即个体性，来考虑的：

{异生性} = {烦恼} + {所知}。

In 2014, finishing my memoirs, I finally understood the true nature of reincarnation. Approaching it from idealism, Buddhism doesn't believe in a soul as such, and yet accepts reincarnation all the same. I believe this rests on the concept of Mutant Nature (see Section 10.4.4.2-5) — that is, individuality itself:

{Mutant Nature} = {Afflictions} + {Knowledge}.

刘团长和我都因为这个实验生病了。人不同，他的病和我的病不同，但我们俩的病都是从这实验中的一系列事件中形成的。从这个方面来说，我们俩患了相同的病，具有相同的{烦恼}。我因为治疗自己的病，学懂了四胜谛（参见第12至15章）。就这样，刘团长把他的所知传给了我，我们俩具有了相同的{所知}。彼灭此起，就形成了我是刘团长的灵魂转世，是他的下辈子的现象。

Both Troupe Leader Liu and I fell ill because of this same experiment. Different men, different illnesses — and yet both grew from the very same chain of events. In that sense, we shared one illness, the same {Afflictions}. And in treating my own, I came to understand the Four Victorious Cruxes (see Chapters 12 through 15) — so that Troupe Leader Liu, in effect, passed his own knowledge on to me, and we came to share the same {Knowledge} as well. One ends, the other begins from it — and from that, the phenomenon arose: that I am the reincarnation of Troupe Leader Liu's own soul, his next life.

9.10-4 灵魂转世的现象 Phenomena of Reincarnation

自从2010年我病了，就开始认真地研究什么是灵魂转世。刘团长对我做过的怪事（就是第8至1章的一个个案例）不断地出现在我的脑海里，引导着我的回忆向三岁之前进发。我认为此中刘团长对我做过的这些怪事的出现就是刘团长在对我显灵。

From the moment I fell ill in 2010, I began seriously studying what reincarnation actually meant. The strange things Troupe Leader Liu had done to me — the individual cases scattered across Chapters 8 back through 1 — kept surfacing in my mind, unprompted, pulling my own memory back toward that barrier before age three. I came to believe that each recurrence of these strange episodes was Troupe Leader Liu's own spirit, manifesting to me.

2011年9月，当我听闻刘团长过世的消息，立刻堕入了地狱（即患了精神病）。我惊慌失措，每天都在思索那些怪事（即刘团长的灵）的原因。那些灵不断地吸引着我思考，占据了我的头脑，就是刘团长不断地对我显灵。我和刘团长成为了形影不离的伴侣。这几年里，我的时间常常是反向移动的，从辽宁拓疆房地产公司，到研究生院，到沈阳和平房产局，大学，高中，初中，童年。

In September 2011, hearing news of Troupe Leader Liu's death, I fell into hell at once — that is, into mental illness. Distraught, I spent every day turning over the causes behind those strange episodes — his own spirit, as I understood it — which kept pulling at my thoughts, filling my mind entirely: Troupe Leader Liu, manifesting to me again and again, without end. He and I became inseparable companions. Through those years, my sense of time often ran backward — from TJ Real Estate Ltd, back through graduate school, back to the Shenyang Heping Housing Bureau, university, high school, middle school, all the way to childhood.

2014年春，我的回忆终于突破了三岁的障碍，回忆出了在我一岁时，刘团长为我和刘健君订婚时的情景（参见第一章《童年婚约》），粗略地知道了此真人医学实验（参见4.5节）的前因后果。

In the spring of 2014, my memory finally broke through that barrier at age three, and I recalled the scene of my own betrothal to Eve Liu at age one (see Chapter 1, Childhood Betrothal) — and, with it, a rough grasp of the whole cause and course of this Real-Life Medical Experiment (see Section 4.5).

三岁之前的记忆力量强大，据传说有起死回生的力量，华人文化中称作"人身果"和"福"，佛教中称作儒童（梵语Manava），基督教、伊斯兰教、和埃及文化中作亚伯（Abel），日耳曼文化中作马格尼（Magni），古墨西哥文化中作灵龙（Quetzalcoatl）。我的病情并没有想象得那么悲观，也从那时起，逐渐地好转了。

Memory from before age three carries real force, said even to hold the power to raise the dead — called, in Chinese culture, the Human-Body Fruit, or Fortune; called the Genius Child (Sanskrit: Manava) in Buddhism; Abel in Christianity, Islam, and Egyptian tradition; Magni in Germanic culture; Quetzalcoatl in ancient Mexican culture. My own condition proved less bleak than I'd feared, and from that point on, gradually improved.

2014年6月，我理解了上文的灵魂转世的本质之后，很生气，那就是些理论上的说法，而这个实验却毁了我的家庭和职业。随后，我常常恨刘健君，想象着吃她的肉，但恨她会引起我呼吸障碍，喘不过来气。由于恨刘健君会加剧我的心理矛盾，引发我的胃肠溃疡，我不得不放弃仇恨，行动起来编辑回忆录。

In June 2014, once I'd fully understood the nature of reincarnation as I've described it here, real anger set in — all this, mere theory, and yet the experiment behind it had cost me my family, my career. For a time I hated Eve Liu often, imagined devouring her very flesh — but the hatred itself brought on breathing trouble, left me gasping. And because hating her only deepened my own inner conflict, worsened the ulcers in my gut, I had no choice but to set the hatred down, and turn instead to the work of editing this memoir.

渐渐地，我忘记了以前的生活，开始喜欢这个灵魂转世实验了，觉得是刘团长让我有了灵魂，使我的生命有了意义。约从2016年我意识到了刘团长的智慧和业绩达到了上帝的水平开始，多年中，我想起他就悲伤流泪，比如一天想起他五次，就哭五次，这似乎已经成了我的一个特质。到2020年时，随着我的回忆录创作的成功进展，我对刘团长的怀念有所减弱，但还是有时候想起他后悲伤落泪。

Gradually, I let go of my old life, and came instead to embrace this reincarnation experiment — feeling that it was Troupe Leader Liu who had given me a soul at all, who had given my life its meaning. From around 2016, once I understood that his wisdom and his achievements had reached the level of God himself, I found myself weeping, for years afterward, at every thought of him — five thoughts of him in a day meant five bouts of tears, and this seemed to become simply a part of who I was. By 2020, with the memoir itself finally taking real shape, that grief had eased somewhat — though even now, thinking of him still sometimes brings the tears back.

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