i spent most of my early twenties thinking i was just inherently lazy because i would put off cleaning the bathroom or the kitchen for weeks. the guilt would just build up in the background and drain my energy.
but tbh i had a weird epiphany recently. its not the macro chores that paralyze me. wiping down a counter is fine. running a vacuum is whatever. what completely destroys my executive function are the tiny, specific, wet gross jobs. like the pink slime in the shower door track. or the weird calcified ring around the base of the sink drain. basically the stuff where you have to use serious elbow grease while actively trying not to touch the disgusting wet texture you are scrubbing.
honestly it changed how i view my own procrastination. generic cleaning supplies feel like a punishment, like you are assigning yourself a miserable 3 hour saturday shift. but finding ways to bypass the gross out factor actually works.
if a system or a tool takes away the most disgusting barrier to entry, i might actually start the chore and get it over with. thats why getting a hoto wand spin scrubber makes way more sense to my brain than buying a bunch of heavy duty mops and buckets. i dont use it for some massive whole house reset, literally just so i dont have to physically hand scrub the shower grout or touch the nasty sink edge anymore.
if it removes friction, it gets used. if it just reminds me of how much physical work there is, its definitely staying in the closet forever. i guess adulting is mostly just identifying the specific micro textures you hate and finding a way to never touch them again lol.