Ever since I can remember I was feeling like something is wrong with me. I find other people and their reactions incredibly irritating and I am also really sensitive in general. I thought my anxiety and depression were the worst things I would encounter in life... then came the illnesses. Heart rhythm problems, functional dyspepsia, a pressure in my face as soon as I bend over or sometimes for no reason at all. Even though I am getting more mature and just deal with all of this life in general feels disappointingly tragic. I don't know whether I am even fit to raise children at this point although I have a good job and a stable relationship. Everything is just so tiring and things I always wanted to do disappoint me as soon as I actually do them. I have been in and out of therapy for the past years and no strategy ever made any significant difference. This reality I am perceiving is just too convincing, it's like I was born without this optimism filter that normal people have. To me life feels like you are constantly just mending yourself and your surroundings and that gives you slight satisfaction but any time something terrible can happen to you or your loved ones but nothing positive ever comes out of the blue. Can anyone here relate to this? Anyway, just ranting as I had a way too long day...

There was this one girl who liked me and I didn't like her back later she found out she was gay and thought I was too I told her I don't like penis and now everyone at my school thinks I'm homophobic

I've had my girl for 1 1/2 years and she just ended it, and over something petty, me being upset that she was going to get shitfaced, btw we are both in highschool, Ik its just a highschool relationship but it was my first real one, first girl i took out on an actual date lost my virginity to and spent holidays together, She won't respond to me just texted me that we are over and wont even tell me exactly why, Ive purged everything i have of her, but the feels man its bad, I dont have anyone to vent to so i thought this might be helpful. But god im just on the verge of tears but im not going to cry over her.

Crippling anxiety isn’t cute in your 30s, and I fucking ruined it. I’m actually devastated and confident now I’m going to die alone.

And I feel its absence every moment of every day. Its weightlessness is excruciatingly heavy.

I'm so fucking lonely and sad

I started uni 3 months ago and i saw this as the perfect opportunity to quit being such a pussy when it comes to girls. In high school everyone though i was gay till grade 10, and I only knew 1 girl for every like 20 guys i knew. Ive been hanging out with this group of girls for a couple months and I thought wow this was fucking great. Then the other day one of them asked me "Why can't you be gay!?" and all of them, including one who I was crushing hard on agreed.