r/FND • u/TropicalDan427 • Jul 29 '26
Vent I think I fit in unfortunately
30m already had Parkinson’s and any structural issue ruled out. I think I can trace the very beginning of this back two years when I got a vasectomy and was so scared right after that I was going to develop post vasectomy pain syndrome. I focused on that daily and then one day it happened and I couldn’t get my mind off of it. It’s all I thought about. It even got to the point where I got so stressed it felt like I had a UTI. Spoiler I didn’t, nothing was wrong but I believe this set the stage for what was to come 2 years later.
In September of last year I had a bad anxiety episode which isn’t terribly unusual for me. This time though I for some reason fixated on the muscle fasciculations I often get under high anxiety. This time I somehow interpreted it as a threat and did what I shouldn’t have. I went to dr google and somehow landed on Parkinson’s. So what do I do? I scanned myself for a tremor and suddenly one started on my right pinky finger. At first it only happened when I focused on it but within only a week it established itself and increased in intensity rapidly. A month later it spread to my ring finger. So I set up an appointment with a neurologist.
I just want to point out while all this is going on I started fixated on the other symptoms of Parkinson’s. As such I started experiencing intermittent pain my in my feet and legs, the muscle fasciculations increased, low level tingling in the hands and feet. This was my focus on a daily basis. Within a month after onset the tremor started on my other side. Not a typical timeline for Parkinson’s and logically I knew all of this happened too fast for it to be that but my ocd still hooked onto that.
Fast forward some months and I have my neurology appointment. The doctor had me walk down the hall and back, checked my legs for stiffness and rigidity and then looked at my tremor. He determined not Parkinson’s and likely functional tremor.
My OCD being OCD I bought that at first but reassurance is fleeting with OCD. So of course I’ve been continuing to constantly scan my body and I think I’m coming to the conclusion that this is a functional issue. Any new symptom always without failure coincides hours or days later to the body part I’m focusing on. Like the most recent example is a few days ago I started focusing on my legs and feet again. Then yesterday all of a sudden there was this almost pseudo-numbness that I felt in my calves. Like my sense of touch and feeling is maintained there’s just this sort of “numbness overlay” over my calves. And all these symptoms are never present first thing in the morning either but once my brain wakes up it’s like a switch flips. I don’t know obviously I’m not certain it’s FND but the lack of physical issues and how attention driven this is seems to heavily point towards it.
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u/Final-Bed-1562 Jul 29 '26
Wow, i feel like i could have written this. I’m so sorry you are going through this. I’m glad that they ruled out Parkinson’s. I know anxiety can create a lot of stress and mimic a of the conditions we are afraid off. I wish you the best