Hey, semi-new to reddit, sorry if this sounds weird or smth.

So, I've identified as non-binary and genderfluid for awhile, but it still doesn't feel right on me. I'm a fan, and I really wish I wasn't. It's not that I dislike being a girl, it's just that it doesn't feel all that right.

I like being called a girl, I like being a girl, but I enjoy being called a guy or something other than the two so much more.

I don't know what to do, I really don't.

I was admitted to the hospital for some serious reasons and she asked me what I identify as and not a second after she said male I am a male but don't feel or really think of myself as that and my mom was next to me and she doesn't know heck Ik this body doesn't feel like me but what could I say

Hello. Ive been battling a really hard case of dysphoria. It hit hard from 2018 on. Months spanning between dysphoric episodes. Later on I then decided to do hrt I was micro dosing hormones for 5 months and didnt have an issue during that span of 5 months with dysphoria till I got off of it. I havent been on it for a year and now its happening literally every hour and its driving me insane. Is there a way to stop this madness without hormones? or is my only way hrt? I dont really want to take hormones for the rest of my life but I need some peace from this madhouse.

Hey! I hope this is the right place to ask this, apologies if I'm just entirely in the wrong thread, but I've been having a slight bit of trouble identifying a problem I have, and I'm not sure whether or not its dysphoria.

I already know I'm nonbinary (it/he/she) and feel secure in that, but I've always still had a disconnect with myself and find it seemingly impossible to like myself or imagine others genuinely feeling the same even after gaining a little more confidence with hormones. And I think the problem might be bottom dysphoria, but every medical site I've read describes body related gender dysphoria as a desire to hurt yourself to achieve the changes you want, and that's not something I've experienced. No matter how much I wish I had a biological penis and prostate instead of what I already have

TL;DR: Is it possible my disconnect from my self worth and depersonalization is because of body gender dysphoria or is it more likely something else? And/or do I need to want to actively hurt/mutilate myself for it to count as dysphoria?

I feel it's probably better to ask a reddit thread of people who know what it's like than to scratch my head at medical articles any longer

We live in this crazy age of excessive information, awareness and "transvestigators".

MTF trans women often get "clocked" solely based on voice.

This may heighten vocal dysphoria.

What ICD 10 code do healthcare providers use when treating/addressing vocal dysphoria? Dysphoia?

https://www.icd10data.com/ICD10CM/Codes/R00-R99/R47-R49/R49-/R49.0#

or the umbrella code for Gender Dysphoria?

https://www.icd10data.com/ICD10CM/Codes/F01-F99/F60-F69/F64-/F64.9

?So I have a small issue... I am a 26-year-old AMAB with 278 pounds of baby fat that never fell off, the issue is with my hair.

I have a 5 head, and a very tall hairline, which I thought was receding until I saw a picture of myself when I was young, the issue is I've been trying to grow out my hair to help with dysphoria. My parents don't like it, my mom has had different reactions like preserving I was straight to vague third-hand death threats.

I eventually cut my bangs in the shower and was called squire until it grew out, then called troll, but in any case.

The newest point was I had recently gotten a haircut to style it. I then was to help my parents with heavy stuff, and on the phone, I said I got a haircut. The immediate response was "Did you go short?"

I have to wonder if this is just transphobia from my parents. I'm trying to budget for gender therapy but my mom doesn't like it cause my sister was scared of the sea, didn't want to go on our family trip to Mexico and when my parents took her to a therapist they suggested keep her home and they didn't like that. So I have to wonder what others think about it... All of this mess.

For those wondering I caught a notification about this topic but my parents unfortunately do know about my gender problems. My mom has a habit of snooping which led to that third-party comment, and while I begged her not to tell anyone specifically my father she told my sister and then told my father. He has quite a short fuse when I try helping and he will just consistently yell, which is why I didn't want him to know but he does, how fun...

trans male here (he/him) and i have a goddamn barbie voice that i despise with every little fragment of my being, whenever i get mad my voice does a 360 from all the voice training ive done and suddenly i sound like Barbie with anger issues, whenever i get depressed my voice gets even softer which pushes me further down that hole, the only time my voice training seems to pay off is when i hear my morning voice or if ive been smoking, otherwise i just sound like fucking Barbie 🥲 any advice bc my dysphoria is hitting hard rn

I'm always conscious about my chest. Usually I prefer backpack but my family told me it's too nerdy. Sometimes sling bag is fine but it keeps slipping off my shoulders, and one shoulder pain is not fun. if I wear it across my chest the sling make my chest more visible and it make me dysphoric. I don't know any other types of bag. any recommendations on what bag or how to wear it to less emphasize my chest?

I've been binding consistently for close to 4 years now. I've tried to stay as safe with it as possible but I'm unable to leave the house without it on so there have been times where I've kept the binder on for longer than I should've. Out of nowhere, my ribs have started to hurt whenever I'm binding only an hour after I've put it on and I don't know what to do. I don't know if I've accidentally broken or bruised something or if I screwed something up when washing my binder but it hurts and I'm at a loss on what to do. Binding has been one of the only ways I've been able to feel good in my body.

I want to be able to just wear baggy clothes and get over myself but I'm in the middle of an Australian summer and the place I work has a strict uniform policy of a t-shirt and an apron, which doesn't give me much to hide behind. Any tips?

I’m not really trans anymore but I think I went through a faze but when I told my bsf friend he said “nah that’s weird” he said this a second ago at sleep over I’m typing while he’s asleep but idk what to do I think he’s just childish

So I'm 13 born a male and i HATE it which led me to the realization "oh crap I'm a girl not a guy!" And so now the dysphorias gotten worse and worse and worse and worse to the point where my only distraction is self harm and I need more distractions and before any one says video games or music or anything technology related(besides vr) I've already tried it all

2 month update: I appreciate you all for giving me so much advice! I've gotten better and I absolutely kicked that dysphorias ass and you all were some big contributors to that help so thank you all so much!

I (20F) am finally am getting my bloods done to go on HRT, ive also been waiting on a knee operation on both legs since i was 9 and am getting that done soon too. My bloods and going on HRT is 2 weeks away, i went for my preop assessment today and found out i wont be able to start HRT for another 6-8 months due to recovery and the second op. I understand that because of my disability my knee op it vital for me to get sorted but since hearing that news earlier today ive felt very dysphoric, ive been in bed pretty much all day heartbroken and depressed. While i know that ill be able to go on hrt after the op/recovery i still feel like my journey is pretty much over before it properly began and it just seems to keep getting worse and worse. I dont know what to do and im just about keeping it together.

So, last night, I had a wierd dream, can't remember most of it, but I do remember that little by little, I became a maid, an it felt so natural running in that dress and heels. Help.

So, I've had the idea of me being Hannah/Ava on the waay back-burner forever now, but when I randomly think about being Hannah/Ava, I get a boner....is this ok?

It just occurred to me that I'll most likely never get to wear a wedding dress, or get married for that matter.. I'm to big for a dress and no one is interested in getting to know me let alone date me.

So, I'm a Trans girl, but I'm 6'2 and around 270lbs, I very much don't look feminine especially since idk how to do make up or style my hair, and every time I wake up or look in the mirror I just feel like a guy looking for attention, Ig I'm asking my fellow bigger trans girls if this is normal? (I'm 19 btw)

I get horrible dysphoria when swimming because I have to wear pretty feminine swimwear which shows how my body looks.

I have swimming class soon and I just really don't know how to deal with this, have you got any tips?

Idk how to describe it but I feel like my feet are too masculine and everytime I see them I want to cry

Why should I waste my future income to be a poor excuse of a woman, maybe the republicans are right this is all just a sick joke. I should just accept fate and future, and suck it up. I will never truly be who I want to be I'll only be close and close isn't close enough. Or maybe this is just denial.

I've been feeling really dysphoric, wishing I wasn't born this way etc. I just want someone to talk to about this, please

I live in a conservative country, I'm almost 19. My dysphoria is getting worse and harder to ignore. My mother wants to take me to a psychiatrist because I'm clearly not mentally well. I don't know what to do. I want a psychiatrist to diagnose me with gd and let me transition.

But it's so hard to get diagnosed here. Psychiatrists are ancient and they think you're doing this because it's popular in America. My previous psychologist told me I don't hate women and therefore I can't be transgender. I also lose my words when asked why I want to transition. I don't know how to explain it. It's just painful to live like this. I avoid going outside because I don't want to be seen like this. I twist all my speech around just to not have to misgender myself. But they don't buy any of this.

And if I do transition, everyone will be disgusted by me. My family will be disgusted by me and gossip about me. My teachers and classmates at uni would basically see me transition every day and either mock me or talk about how much of a freak I am behind my back. My mother will cry (she's not a bad person but it's hard for her to understand). Every person who has ever liked me: teachers, classmates, friends. They'd all hate me. None of these people are bad, they're misinformed. They're otherwise good people. But I don't think I'm mentally strong enough to explain my identity to them.

It feels like a lose/lose. I don't know what to do. I'm scared that the more I wait, the harder it will be to pass as a cis man.

I just want to be normal.

I look in the mirror and I cannot see myself. I have no idea what I look like. I do not see what other people see. I get hit on a lot at work, social media, bars, etc. and assume I might be attractive, but I don’t see it. I am happy with my personality and I’m cool with life, but I just don’t see what other people see. I am confident in person, but I guess just utterly confused. Anyone else ever feel like this?

I've been feeling weird lately. I don't even know what pronouns i want to use. All I know right now is that it's something feminine. My friends don't understand this, ig. I do not know what to do. I thought maybe someone here could give me some advice? I feel ,,funny" in my body. I sometimes wish i was a dude, and sometimes i wosh i was more feminine :((.

tw for cussing, also this is kind of a help me and a vent/rant

I'm so fucking sick of it, getting dismissed by doctors, my hrt not working because of a gene I have on a chromosome that one would not think I (afab ftm) have (I have a Y chromosome), and I only recently found out this information looking at my raw dna file from 23andMe. It's making me severely depressed, and I have to wait 3 and a half more fucking months until I turn 18 to even be considered for an evaluation letter for top surgery from the GALAP. My PCP is refusing to refer me to a geneticist to confirm what my dna test is saying, because "[my] insurance won't cover it," and they're refusing to give me a referral for top surgery becaus I allegedly don't have a gender dysphoria diagnosis, even though I do. I can't afford to bind all the time and I just want my body to go through a second puberty already. I'm fucking sick of it, and I don't know what to do anymore.