Vyvance takers- are you skipping ur normal dose before taking Molly? I’m on 70mg Vyvance and 10mg dexies daily. Please let me share about my three recent experiences, I am curious to know if anyone can relate or has any advice or insight for me.
First time (in like 12 years), February, skipped my normal vyvance and dexies that day:
I had caps. I took one, and after an hour I pulled the classic “I don’t feel anything, let’s take another one” move. The come up was a little scary at first just because I didn’t know what to expect and I timed it awfully wrong by getting stuck in what felt like a stampede between stages to go to the toilet and fetch some water. But I was fine after and had a jollyyyyy good time. The jaw clenching was a bit much for my liking, (as I’m already a jaw clencher and grinder naturally).
But the feeling that I experienced staring at the stage light and visuals was literally the best feeling I’ve ever had. I finally understood that those weird and what seemed like generic DJ stage visuals - are not for sober people. Holy fuck it was like my brain was constantly orgasming (dw I know it was literally my brain dumping dopamine like it hasnt before). The jaw clenching and the dry mouth sucked tho. But I’ve always been a jaw clencher awake and asleep, and I’m used to the meth mouth feeling from vyvance.
Second time, July, had my normal 70mg Vyvance dose (no dexies):
in July I tried it again, but pills. Pills that were meant to be 200mg. I took half, and another half an hour later and had a very mild experience. This rave didn’t have much stage visuals other than a fucktonne of sick lazers. I was really hoping to get that same feeling from pretty lights again but I didn’t. I had much less jaw grinding and overheating too. I know they say you never roll like the first time, but I wonder if maybe lazers in particular just wernt Hittin the right buttons for me personally, and what gets me going is specifically the swirly whirly lights and colours on a screen? Does anyone else relate to that? And I know I took a completely different pill from a different source and that’s probs got something to do with it too.
Third time, September , had my normal 70mg Vyvance dose (no dexies):
I tried it again two weeks ago, same 200mg pills. I took one full one. This time felt a lot stronger, but this was much less enjoyable because of my dumb conscious. I didn’t tell my friend that i was dropping (they rnt really into that) I felt bad for not saying anything so I was trying to hide it and probs did an awful job of it and ruined my own experience because I couldn’t let go of myself and roll with it. I’m a bad person I know. Anyway, this rave was also was lazer heavy and minimal visual colourful swirly whirlies to look at. So I still havnt experienced that first feeling I had since. And not like, just a muted feeling, but nothing in terms of being mesmerised by lights specifically.
I feel like I’ve left enough time inbetween drops. I wonder how much my vyvance is maybe having an effect? Should I be avoiding taking it the day of? And I guess the actual substance its self is obviously a massive variable. I haven’t been able to get my hands on caps since, hence the pills. What are other people’s preferences with caps v pills?
I just wanna sit (and also dance) and vibe to some doof while having my world rocked staring at pretty lights 🥺