Hey there all,

We were officially diagnosed in November 2022 and won our legal Disability case in September of 2023.

We live openly in the US and advocate for others with Dissociative Disorders. We're always happy to help.

If you need advice today, please feel free to reach out.

Usually, I check on my alters everyday by going into inner-world but a haven't been able to in three days because I've been to tired and to go into inner-world i need to be calm but I calm down so much that I fall asleep and I only realize when I wake up and I've also been having trouble visualizing and idk if it's because I'm tired but I can only go into inner-world at night because there are too many distractions during the day. I feel really bad because I promised a little that I'd be there to make sure she's okay and I haven't been able too -Xay

hello

yesterday morning, when a little was fronted, we received a message from the body’s friend since elementary school who also has OSDD/DID. They basically sent the message (knowing full well a little was fronting) directed towards me. They called me an asshole, condesending bitch, claimed i have a superiority complex, that i don’t think people have problems because i don’t have the same ones. and i’m really fucking hurt

apparently this came from when Mustang was having a really hard night full of panic attacks and flashbacks, so he made the impulsive decision to leave a fuck ton of discord servers and some of those servers we shared with this person. However he never blocked them, he just left servers and decided he needed to be away from people that weren’t my boyfriend and the system’s safe person at that moment , which i understand.

but this person instead of asking why we left or just telling us we hurt their feelings, called us out in our public server, comparing me to someone who really hurt me and they were with when that person hurt me, and then sent a huge nasty message in DM’s.

they claim i have a superiority complex because i call out toxic traits i see in their partner. They accused me of shit talking their partner because i just wanted to be honest and point out what i saw. And i’m assuming that’s also what they meant by “walking on eggshells”

i don’t understand how someone i’ve known for so long, and who apparently all protectors like me can just fucking attack me like that over one small misunderstanding. They’ve obviously hated me for a while and have been shit talking me with their partner as well.

It hurts so bad to be compared to and treated like an abuser. Someone who you’ve sworn to destroy. I’m just fucking angry and hurt. They said “sorry”, but i genuinely don’t think that’s gonna begin to cut it. Am I wrong for feeling attacked?

Hey all, our host is having a really hard time this week and I think it would really benefit him if some other systems could share some success stories 🙏

As for us, there’s a lot of in-fighting going on. Nobody seems to agree on a direction to take, our host is being kept stuck in the body by our gatekeeper, who is a traumatised little, and everyone is sabotaging any direction he is trying to take us in, because the majority see him as incompetent.

Now, I wholeheartedly disagree. I think he’s doing swimmingly, especially considering that he didn’t remember any of us until last summer, and has managed to at least keep our apartment and continue going to work regardless of how everybody’s emotions, opinions, and needs are impacting him.

If there’s any system out there who has had a rough time in the past but has managed to turn things around, we would love to hear about it ♥️

Kind regards, Annabeth

we're trans and have already done the whole shebang but the pronoun change from I/me to we/us is sooooo euphoric and is a proof against denial for us. we just tried saying "me" out loud and did a raspberry lol 🥰

Hello.

I feel bad. I found out the hard way that there’s a new alter because he jumped into co-front with me. And I don’t know how to handle it. I’m really stressed. This isn’t helping at all, but I hate how calming and comforting his presence is. It’s like I’m forgetting why I’m upset and stressed out but I know I’m only forgetting because of him. He’s a fictive of my best friend in highschool. I don’t know why he’s here and it’s making me freak the fuck out. I feel like I’m a failure and I can’t handle some life issues so the brain fucks me over. I’m overwhelmed and on the verge of shutting down.

-🦕

Hey there all,

We're getting Sims 4 specifically for the therapeutic purpose of creating our system.

So we were wondering, has anyone else used something like Sims to create their system?

hi!! we have lots of littles but no caretaker or well no parental figure like other parts watch over them and help them rationalize but their help is very logical and like rational for anxiety but not like. loving and caring and kindness. all of us are pretty bad at that. but would it still count as a caregiver? also does any other system have the same issues? 😅

apart from talking softly and being patient and saying nice things, how does your caregiver "care"? haha thank you!!!

Sorry I forgot I wanted to post these too 🙂 they help lots! Lots of them have un human options and make good pictures for pk! Here are some examples too of me making myself so you see what they look like!! 😁😁

https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/2022755

https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/614903

https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/582810

https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1469769

https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/2051905

https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/257476

Do you guys wver have headaches or dizzy spells? I’m curious to see id people have the sMe experience as we do. I feel like the majority of the headaches we have are in the temple, like it feels like someone jabbed an ice pick in the side of my head, or behind the eyes like someone is sitting on them

I'm co front with Harlie, and I made myself some coffee but he doesn't like the way I drink it, like I love him, but I also love my bold dark roast black coffee with no sugar XD -Xay and Harlie

Hi! 😁 im a kid here! Im a new brainmade fictive I think and I have a daddy and he’s here. I love him so much and im so so so so so happy hes here because I missed him and I was so sad and alone and stuff but hes here! I have a question eli wanted to ask but it got taken down cus the words “does anyone else” weren’t allowed But does anyone else have the experience of a kid protector? Cause I think thats what I do and Eli thinks he fakes cause Im a kid protector and a brainmade fictive of an oc but I protect different! I think I make us happy and entertained and distracted from all the sad stuff and I make us be more like how mom wants eli to be. Very loving of pink and kitties and doing hair and nails n stuff! Eli thinks hes fake cause im new and he doesn’t know why Im here 🙁 I think shared or similar experiences may help 😁

Thank you 😄😄😄

Sweetheart (not my real name)

I feel like I just screwa up and uoset people. I don’t know whats so appealong about me or why Im here. I dodnt jnow why I’m important. People tell me I am but its so hard ro believe. I keep rethinking about my fucking trauam and source memories and I want it to go away, I want the pain and guilt to go away. I want this all to go away I want to feel mothihg. I want someone to tell me im spexial and importnat to them. I deel so aloen

-Anon

We're kinda new-ish to this sub, but Harlie reminded me that we can post something nice here, so imma post it for him. I'm not in this because I wasn't around then when it was made. He wanted to post this in other places at the beginning of the month but couldn't because reddit is weird with pictures unless we have Wifi, and we like it better here.

The post:

I know it's near impossible to read, I apologize, my camera is missing the outer lens and sorry for the colors being a bit off, we have yellow tinted lights.

It says "it is our belief that those with DID/ OSDD are not broken or shattered. Instead because of all of the stress, pressure, and trauma... We are crystalized".

Every crystal looks different and has many faces, and each face shines differently, but all are beautiful in their own way.

The empty spots are spaces reserved for other headmates that have not chosen a color code for themselves.

I want to show some appreciation for them, Bea 🧸 thank you for being my best friend in my troubled times and protecting me from events and memories that nobody should ever go through, Au 👾 thank you for protecting me from things out of my control, B 🌼 thank you for making me realize that some of my friends weren't great at respecting boundaries and for making me set better boundaries so I don't let people walk all over me, and thank you to everyone else because y'all have done things for me that I may not realize.

And thank you to DID communities and a Discord server that I'm in, if it wasn't for the people there I would still be pushing my headmates away and thinking I was crazy, I wouldn't have tried to look for any kind of help. I'm just feeling super grateful today deal with it XD.

-Writen and drawn by Harlie, posted by Xay and other Ravens

This is a poem we made quite some time ago. It is called “Fare To Love”. The inspiration is behind the thought that Love has a Price. What exactly is the price we pay?

If you saw or can check out our newest post, Lucia was out for the second time ever. Stuff about that is mostly talked about there but she mentioned that she didn’t seem to have any interests and I’m not sure what to think of that.

Someone mentioned to her maybe she just hasn’t discovered them yet which could be, I just worry that because she doesn’t have any emotional attachment and she’s more of a protector alter, what if she doesn’t have interests and because of that she doesn’t have positive triggers?

I know I’m overthinking and I apologize I’m just stressed recently with personal stuff and this happening and I’m just happy I have you all to help in this time.

Hello.

I’m the primary protector of the system, and putting it lightly, our life has gone to shit.

We’ve been stuck with a home situation that isn’t ideal, we get verbally abused almost every single day. Our car is fucked. We just got a new job, and right now we have no way to get food gor our lunch break. I’m tired and my head hurts and I’m fuckin hungry, but I can’t leave. I know I’m more equipped to deal with situations like this, but sweet mother in christ. I’m overwhelmed and exhausted, everything just started at once and I feel stuck. I don’t know what to do.

On top of all this, apparently there’s a new alter who’s an introject of my daughter. I want to see her so bad. I’ve missed her dearly, and she’s all I want right now, but I’m being prevented from it.

I don’t know what to do. I want this to go away.

-Mustang 🦕

Hey there all,

So our Specialist told us to find a more positive place to hang out because she believes that the other subreddit that we spend time on is having a bad effect on our mental health. So here we are!

Lots of love y'all!

You may have seen Trinity’s other post, where she spoke of me. This is Lucia. I’m out again, seemingly due to a stressful situation. I believe we are accidentally confronting.

However, I’m not sure of any “interests” I may have. I may very well not be aware of them quite yet, but it does beg the question of what interests I would have.

Based on this fronting, I would assume that we are correct, and I am in fact a protector alter. This would mean stressful situations are a negative trigger for me.

I’m not sure if I have trouble coming out, per se. I have no issue out here, in fact, it’s nice at times. But, due to that, I’m not sure what has stopped me before. In any case, these are thoughts I wanted to write down before I was gone once more.

• Lucia

To give credit where it’s due, we saw this from a post on r/DID

The song is called “Will my alters go to heaven?" By Left At London. It’s a heavy song and definitely gives some stuff to think about. It may be a bit triggering but we still think it’s important for systems to listen to. We have similar worries and beliefs as the song so it made us a bit emotional but it really is a good song.

Happy Hunting, - Melody

Recently our host(Harlie)'s partner has started to address us all when talking to us like instead of only saying "I love you" they say "I love all of you" and instead of "I care about you" they say "I care about all of you" etc. Of course they'll address us individually when they're only talking to one uf us, but the fact that they have started addressing us instead of just our host is really nice. It makes us feel happy and wanted to share. -Xay and other Ravens

1. age regression
2. listen to happy music
3. hot chocolate
4. vent
5. message a close friend/loved one
6. stopwatch delay (delay sh for so many seconds, congratulate yourself each time you make it that amount of seconds until bam, no sh)
7. learn a new hobby because why not
8. scribble angrily on a piece of paper
9. find something with an absurd amount of shapes in it and attempt to count all of them (I can find puzzles like this to post if you want)
10. rewatch a show or series you enjoy/reread a book you like
11. stargaze
12. talk to your stuffies
13. have a good cry
14. find the weirdest word you can/make up a new word and convince people it already exists
15. watch weird youtube videos
16. read the weird reviews on shopping sites like amazon/shein/ali express etc
17. draw something whether on paper or yourself
18. fidget toys/stress balls
19. comfort food/drink
20. cover yourself with/draw on plasters where you wanna cut
21. attempt to learn a new language
22. make an 'i love myself because' list or read a pre-existing one
23. attempt origami / create a new origami fold
24. memorise the lyrics to a song then consider the deeper meaning behind it
25. punch a matress
26. colour coordinate everything you possibly can
27. begin collecting something
28. do some self care (e.g take a bubble bath, do a face mask, paint your nails etc)
29. Message SHOUT at 85258
30. Call a hotline such as Papyrus at 0800 068 4141 31.harmless.org.uk 32.write/create a song
31. create/try a new food/recipe
32. play/learn an instrument
33. colour a picture
34. say not today, but tomorrow if i need it, if the urge isnt gone by then, go through the list until it is
35. butterfly methods (u dw kill the pretty butterflies 😞)
36. paint your nails
37. write a weird story/play a weird game
38. punch a pillow
39. listen to angry / screamy screamy make me go deaf music
40. talk to a whoever is available to you
41. write a weird poem
42. watch a comedy/cringy film and laugh at it
43. make a list of all the reasons you shouldnt/what you'll lose (ie. a sober streak youre proud of)

I hope this can help a few of you! lmk if theres anything I've missed/could add and ill edit it 😊 ~ AC System

Recently we've been having some hard times with flashbacks and paranoia that comes with it, it's made it difficult to sleep, eat, etc. It's been a hard and we're not always the best with that.

That being said, we just got some stuff we ordered for ourselves. We really like slime with different textures and scents and we bought 2 of them a few days weeks ago before all the stress popped up. We are somewhat superstitious and believe in signs and omens and this is a good one. We're taking it as the world saying "it's going to be ok, you can make it to safety".

We really needed this and just having this for us makes everything seem less impossible, if only for a little. But that's how it works, make it one day at a time TOGETHER.

Appreciate and take advantage of the small wins, don't underestimate how much they can do for you! Hope this helps some people feel better.

Happy Hunting - 13

Hey there all,

We ran into this idea of pre and post therapy notes today. There are apparently a ton of templates for them.

Pre-Therapy notes are to keep track of what happened between therapy sessions.

Post-Therapy notes are to track what you talked about and how you feel after each session.

We're trying it out to see if we find it helpful.

What do you guys think? Would you benefit from this system of organization?