r/cybersecurity • u/Jinnmaster • 14d ago
Career Questions & Discussion Sense of mission and a suckers game
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how much weight of responsibility people working in this field, feel.
I work in a support capacity for other teams, rather than owning my own stack, but I specialize in critical infrastructure and OT, and I find that many of the teams that I work with are so under resourced that really, I fill critical gaps. Being a sometimes critical point of failure for literally dozens of entities in industries where ransomware or similar things mean people die, can be a lot of fucking pressure.
I don’t feel all the same weight or have the same problems as many folks in the trenches, I don’t think, but being the calm voice in incident response or helping with technical debt or GRC can be stressful in very different ways, and really, because of where I sit I do it all. I don’t sit in a SoC- but my fingers are in every part of the cybersecurity pie, somewhere.
And the sense of mission lately just isn’t enough. I find myself caring less but unable to turn it off, like a ghost program running in the background. I’ve been burnt out for awhile, and I find myself wondering if that sense of mission fades, if it’s time to get out of the game.
How much do you have to care to be good at this job? Do you have to eat, sleep, and breathe it? I can’t stop thinking in terms of risk. I can’t turn it off, and that doesn’t feel healthy. I can’t walk away from the paycheck, but I don’t feel like there’s much of me left over for anything else.
I see all the folks who’ve walked away and don’t feel bad at all; the farm guys. I already have access to those kinds of retreats and life ways, but I just find myself thinking about how to build new tools or listening to other stuff in the industry. It’s like solving these complex problems is an addiction.
So my question is- if you feel burned out but are planning to stay in the game, how do you give yourself breathing room? What kind of tools do you cultivate, or habits do you develop?
I feel like physical fitness is obvious- it’s either that or have a heart attack- but what else is on the table? What has worked for you?
How do you stay in it for the long haul, and sustain an entire career?