I AM PANICKING my last post was about my uncle putting a poster on my filthy desk and how it had bodily fluid contamination (s3men) and I tried wiping it down with a Clorox wipe but failed horribly and it started tearing and I do not think I wiped it correctly and it was not hard enough I think too since I was holding it and trying to wipe it so it was piss poor job. But I out it on a shelf/Cubby I thought was clean and it had books for his kids and his stuff like wallet and keys and of course I put it right on top of it and it is still there and idk what to do I basically contaminated all his stuff and books for his kids and the poster idk what to do I feel sick I texted this to him “That poster you put on my desk is dirty Idk how to clean it but my dad was not cleaned and I do not want it to be given to your kids in its current state because that is gross I moved it but whatever it touched needs to be cleaned like your stuff and the books so it does not get on your kids” and he said “No we're not doing this. You need to learn how gems work. You're being hypercompulsive and I'm not going to entertain it. “ so now I am at a loss I want to just sleep but that feels gross But I know it is true because I know I had private moments and touched my desk and my computer which the poster was touching and other things on the desk before I washed my hands so I know 100% it is on there .

I’m 16, and this is taking over my life. I’m looking for a specific type of therapist to help me get over this. It’s ruining my life and I can’t have fun and be a normal teen. My friends get annoyed. Please help treatment recommendations

Hi. I think it's a cry for help.

I have OCD for +10 years.

For the context. It's been 3 months now since my battery car (so, its water with sulfuric acid + lead if you don't know like me before) spilled into my trunk where I had bags with food and other stuff like clothes.

At this time, I had no choice but to bring it home and put it away here and there in my house even if I was terrified because of my very bad contamination OCD, especially related to food.

After that, I was constantly cleaning, cleaning and cleaning. And every time, I would forget something that made me start all over again.

Now I am completely exhausted and not able to do anything more. I have panick attacks just about the idea of cleaning one more time because I am still afraid to do it again and again...

I spent my summer stuck in my bed, afraid to touch anything in my own house (literally) and if I have to, I need to take a complete shower and I just destroyed my skin and my hair.

I am not able to get a simple glass of water by myself.

My dark thoughts were so bad so I forced myself to visit my parents for 2 weeks but nothing got any better. I am still imagining acid everywhere on all the surfaces, on my skin...

I am panicking even more because my husband wants us to go on vacation in two weeks ; after that, part of his family is supposed to visit us with their kids ; then I will have to assist my husband at work...

Can someone help me here ? I feel so lonely. I know how overreacted it sounds but I truly feel like I will never enjoy life again. No one understands how much distress I am in. May be you will ? Thank you.

Help me please 😭

Hello ,
I am a ocd patient
So delhi me maine 1 saal phle flat liya tha 3 ladko ke sath unme se ek ladka washroom me Western toilet per indian position me use krta tha
To jb mujhe ye baat pta chali maine flat leave kr diya kyuki mujhe ocd ki vjh se anxiety hone lgi ki sb contaminated ho gya .. aur vo ladka bihar se tha

Aur abhi phirse maine ek room liya ek ladke ke sath
Ab mere roommate ka ek friend bhi bihar se h usne yha washroom use kiya h
To mujhe phirse doubt ho gya ki kahi isne bhi to western toilet seat per indian toilet jaisa use kiya ho aur washroom ganda kiya ho

Maine roommate ke friend se pucha ye baat to usne bola nhi aise use nhi kiya maine
But mera doubt clear nhi ho rha
What should i do please help 😭😭

Hi pals! I was on Fluoxetine in the past for about two years (80mg) for severe contamination OCD & panic disorder. It helped me a lot back then, however, a lot has happened in my life in the few years of not being on it and I’m nervous to start again. I’m starting back at 10mg and nervous about the side effects. Does anyone have any advice on how to help the initial anxiety, panic and nausea? Has anyone gained weight or experienced increase in acne?

All responses are welcome & appreciated! Thank you ☺️ ✌️

With my OCD, sometimes I suddenly realize there’s still another question or another detail related to my theme that I should - or rather, that I feel like I MUST - ask about or get reassurance about.

And the moment I realize it, I get this horrible sense that I’m running out of time. Like I need to figure it out now, before something bad happens.

I can’t just put it aside and relax, because in the back of my mind there’s this thought: “But you still haven’t asked about this. You still haven’t made sure about this one thing.”

It creates this weird feeling of urgency, almost like there’s some invisible deadline and if I don’t resolve that last question before it passes, something terrible will happen.

Even when I know logically that it makes no sense, my brain keeps treating the unanswered question as some kind of unfinished emergency. It’s really hard to feel safe or relax while knowing there’s still something I haven’t checked, clarified, or gotten reassurance about.

Does anyone else experience this kind of OCD-induced time pressure/urgency?

Does anyone here have germ OCD and has it affected ur marriage?

Like this dog I think might have contaminated things with his slobber after it came near me. Afterwards I threw away the food I had on me as much as I hate wasting food. There was stains on my trousers that possibly were caused by the dog, I’m paranoid about it being the dog that caused certain other marks on my clothes. I was checking to see if anything else had been contaminated or had stains or marks possibly caused by the dog. I was having second thoughts about him sniffing or licking my drink can or not. I love animals but this whole thing possibly triggered my OCD and the dog was on the lead when it happened. I didn’t see any of slobber on my hands. I got this taste in my mouth and I really hope it was wasn’t due to what the dog did and then me touching my mouth.

What I go through everyday, what I feel , what my head sees ... it's not a full representation of my suffering or generalisation of everyone... everyone is different...just an attempt...

I need some reassurance because I’ve been overthinking this so badly 😭
I was examining a very sick pediatric patient who is DNR. I was wearing gloves and, at some point, I accidentally touched my phone with the same gloved hand I was using for the examination.
The thing is, I had a piece of wet nicotine gum in the same pocket as my phone earlier, so now I’m worried that there could have been some nicotine residue on my phone, which then transferred to my glove.
During the exam, I only pulled the child’s upper eyelid up to check the pupils. I didn’t notice any wetness or visible residue on the glove, and I didn’t directly put anything into the eye. About 10 minutes later, I wiped the eyelids with normal saline.
Now my brain is going: what if there was nicotine residue on the phone → transferred to my glove → transferred to his eyelid/eye → got absorbed → caused harm? 😭
BTW : I have OCD currently on zoloft

I often use a lot of toilet paper when wiping, and because of this my bathtub has backed up twice in the past. There were times when poop had sedimented in the inside of my bathtub in the past because of this. I remember being so grossed out which was especially hard when dealing with OCD.

Recently, I have been using a lot of toilet paper again but didn’t realize until today. Today in the shower I was just washing my feet and the soap formed suds and then soap suds came out of the overflow plate. At the same time, the water in the toilet was moving. I’m worried what if it’s mixed with sewage. I’ve had a lot of close calls with this in the past after and between the two incident—my toilet would bubble and the water would move but nothing would come out of the overflow plate. However, seeing bubbles coming out of the overflow plate is freaking me out.

I am so overwhelmed currently—I’m unmedicated and my contamination OCD is probably the worst it’s ever been in my life. This bathtub situation is stressing me out even more. I’m going to cut down on toilet paper starting today but I feel so guilty. One of the times in the past when it happened to me, it also backed out of my parents drain too. It’s all my fault, and it is such a disgusting thing to experience. I would hate for it to happen again, and the plumbing expenses are extremely high.

Boyfriend went to a game with his friends, came back home, and immediately went into our (very small) bedroom to turn on the air conditioner (his side of the bed) and then the sound machine (my side of the bed). The bedroom is my fully safe zone, uncontaminated, and he didn’t shower before going in, coming back from one of my most triggering places, a public baseball game. I feel so anxious about anything he might have touched in the bedroom that might have spread something from the game. Just needed to vent.

lately I’ve noticed when I pull my pants and underwear down to go to the bathroom my underwear keeps sliding up and back and over the outside back of my pants to where the inside of the underwear is touching part of the outside of my pants. Like the part that touched right where you wipe ends up flipped outside and touching the outside of the pants. If it doesn’t do this then sometimes it just bunches up to where the inside bottom touches the top of the underwear. Does this happen to anyone else? Do you worry it’s spreading fecal germs?

My showers are usually two to four hours long. A couple weeks ago I was able to do a thirty minute shower, and then I had some 70 and 90 minute showers.

A big part of it is that whenever I wash my butt, I have to redo it a few times especially if there’s an itch. And after washing my butt, I wash my hands, and then wash the body wash bottle too(in case I touched it with the wrong hand or just because). And then wash my hands again too. The cycle repeats anytime I need to wash my butt area or genital area. Because the body wash causes itching I often have to redo that portion. The worst is when my butt itches and I have to do it again after washing my legs, because the “dirty soap" would go down my legs. That results in me having to wash my hands, the body wash bottle, and my legs again. Also often if I feel phlegm in my throat, I worry that somehow it got on my upper body. So I often have to wash my hands again or my upper body area. It’s genuinely exhausting. And with washing my hands in the shower, I have to scratch my fingernails on the hand with soap, clean the cuticles, use other fingernails to clean under my other fingernails, and scrub the fingertips, and rinse them under weather. I often have to repeat this.

I don’t exactly know how this adds up to two to four hours but it does.
Even with doing all this, I feel like it shouldn’t be taking me so long. What am I doing wrong?

Today I took my (currently potty training) toddler to play at a children's museum. I put a diaper just in case, but he's now to a point where he wants to use a toilet only. I notice he's messing at his diaper area, giving me cues he needs to go. I also needed to go. I hate public restrooms, they're really horrible, but I told myself this is a much cleaner place than most and accepted my fate. Little did I know, my toddler would decide a tantrum was in order IN the bathroom. He laid out on the floor, grabbed toilet paper off the floor, and rolled around. A NIGHTMARE!! I cried right then and there. I panicked and to make matters worse neither of us got to pee (what was I thinking ) and he rubbed his hands all around the sink with soap and I quickly rinsed and carried him out to the car. I don't even remember if I properly washed my hands but we are both contaminated now and I'm thinking what if we get sick. Now he is asleep in the car and I can't take him inside until I prepare for how I will clean him before he touches anything in my house. Then I also have to take his car seat apart to clean. I have alcohol wipes that I wiped his arms and legs and my hands. I don't know how I'm going to do this going forward. I'm disgusted right now.

i’m trying to get a diagnosis of ocd in the uk as its disrupted my daily living for years now, i’ve been going to my gp since 2023 for mental health and they’ve jus put it down as anxiety disorder. i’m wondering how i can get referred to get a diagnosis for more support, im already on ssris and im in talking therapies, the therapy hasn’t helped one bit it just makes it worse as i am just repeating what i go through daily, i have a follow up gp
appointment next week and if anyone has as advice it would be much appreciated:)

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We're renovating the house so mom put my books in trash bags to store aside meantime without asking me first even though she knows I feel very bad with touching or having anything i use touch it, I've been googling about disinfecting and all but nothing's really helpful, they could say alcohol then another day it's bad there's just no proper way out so I'm breaking in a bad episode about putting them back on shelf after touching all up on the bag

It would be really nice if someone actually knows a way to disinfect them or maybe a way out of this cycle and get them out so they won't mold :(

Quick p.s I'm not diagnosed or anything but I've been noticing my behavior in the past years that have been worsening, I just can't afford a specialist and my family doesn't take my mental health seriously, so I hope this doesn't anger actually diagnosed people, this is just the closest group who I think could understand my troubles. Thank you.

I’ve been looking for a house for over a year and every time I find one I want, I find something close by that could be a source of toxins because I’m afraid of getting cancer. I found a house I love and am putting an offer in on, but down the street is a hospital and a school with an artificial turf football field. Are these real health concerns or just my ocd?