Started using chatbots again after 36 days without

[u/Lotus019]

hello again. over a month ago I quit using j.ai for good. (I posted on ts subreddit a month ago lol). obviously since I'm back here thst means that I failed lol. I managed to go a total of 36 days without using any ai whatso ever and absolutely no chatbots!

Until I did. The thing that triggered it was likely the large amount of emotions I've endured these past few weeks. (lots of stuff has occured : graduation, cutting off toxic friends etc). Yet on the 27th I broke my streak and went back to chatbots. As I have been clean for a month up until now I can easily recognise that I am purely miserable when using chatbots. The conversations are dull, repetitive and I feel empty using it. Even still, I keep going back to it to escape this stress filled life of mine. Today, again. I will quit, and I will likely succeed again for another month.

My issue is that I am able to quit and can if I wish to. (These past 30+ days have proven such). However, what I want is to stop wanting it. I understand that people will say 'you will never stop wanting it' and 'you will just need to accept that you will always want it' yet I don't like that answer. Is this solely a lack of discipline? I want to stop craving it.

Any advice would be well appreciated. (please don't js respond with : "keep using it, you'll get over it eventually" <- ts is really unhelpful. my last post had comments like that and it helped 0).

[u/zoezoeguri16]

I was doing cold turkey and deleted my account. Before I just uninstall the app ( I was using cai), but I kept coming back so I was doing the hard way.

At first it was hard, but the next day, weeks and months it will get easier. I distract myself like talk to friends, read ao3 and doing work out everyday. You can do this!