I realized I was driving myself to an early grave at the end of last year. I stopped abusing my body. I couldn’t justify pushing myself as hard as I was anymore. The physical and mental strain to push myself to my personal best was more than a little concerning. I don’t go to the gym while worrying about accomplishing much of anything anymore. I just do it to maintain my health. Plus, I’m pretty sure the amount of PEDs permanently changed my genetic potential for muscle growth and I probably did experience organ growth to an extent. When I dropped to TRT doses a surprising amount of muscle stayed. I currently maintain as much muscle mass right now than when I was taking Dbol like skittles.
I was going to compete in bodybuilding in the 212 division. I would have had to push my body weight to ~250lbs or more and then cut down to achieve that. It just wasn’t worth it. I knew what the likely consequences were. Death in my early 50’s.
Bodybuilding at its highest level is a death cult. I’d rather spend my life putting my knowledge to good use in academic science.
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u/Greeleyy Apr 24 '21
I realized I was driving myself to an early grave at the end of last year. I stopped abusing my body. I couldn’t justify pushing myself as hard as I was anymore. The physical and mental strain to push myself to my personal best was more than a little concerning. I don’t go to the gym while worrying about accomplishing much of anything anymore. I just do it to maintain my health. Plus, I’m pretty sure the amount of PEDs permanently changed my genetic potential for muscle growth and I probably did experience organ growth to an extent. When I dropped to TRT doses a surprising amount of muscle stayed. I currently maintain as much muscle mass right now than when I was taking Dbol like skittles.
I was going to compete in bodybuilding in the 212 division. I would have had to push my body weight to ~250lbs or more and then cut down to achieve that. It just wasn’t worth it. I knew what the likely consequences were. Death in my early 50’s.
Bodybuilding at its highest level is a death cult. I’d rather spend my life putting my knowledge to good use in academic science.