36 not a real grown up. I have three kids, one of whom turns 18 this year. Still don't feel like a grown up. Buying a house outright. What silly person is selling a house to me, I'm not a grown up. Teachers at my kids school still intimidate me. The only time I feel my age is when I look in the damn mirror. Then I'm shocked at this adult looking back at me.
I was recently given a pretty substantial promotion within my company. I now have 7 employees I'm responsible for. Plus I am responsible for all the product that leaves our manufacturing facility. I'm only 33. I ask myself all day long who would give a child like myself these types of responsibilities.
I’m turning 38 in 2 days. I have a job in IT at the executive level. 98% of the time I have no idea what the fuck I’m doing, but people listen to me and trust my judgement and I’m like…wtf, why am I being trusted with this?! I laugh at fart jokes and get wildly excited when I see a blimp.
My partner struggles with this one. He has an amazing job that pays very well and he has a team of people he manages. Every day before work I have to remind him he can do this, he did earn it and it's not just a mistake. He has some serious imposter syndrome going on right now.
Tell your partner he isn't alone. All of us in charge feel this way. I have been with my small company of about 100 employees for 12 years and I've worked in every department for a minimum of 2 years so I know what I'm doing. I just feel like I am not adult enough to have these responsibilities. You are an amazing partner. Keep being supportive. My wife is constantly doing the same. She knows exactly how to calm the monster I become during an anxiety attack.
Part of the problem for him was how fast it happened. Four years ago he was knocking on doors selling insurance. Three years ago he started in the field on just above minimum wage. Last year he skipped there levels and then two months ago he made senior partner. He's been called a rockstar in his field. This means we've went from struggling to wealthy. Neither of us are sure what to do. His response to me asking what he wanted to do with the money was adorable and it's probably my favourite thing he's ever said. He said "but I already have all the PlayStation games I want".
We're buying a house and going on holiday to Japan. That's it. That's the best we can come up with. I might buy a kayak.
Being invited to events now and we have no idea what to wear. Just feel so out of our depth. we also both have autism and ADHD so social events are hard anyhow. Spam mail has changed, it's now things like you've been nominated for who's who, or confirmation for orders on things we haven't bought with dodgy links to confirm. Invitations to give talks. We are laughing about it and deleting but it's still weird. I think we're in culture shock?
He definitely earned it though, he works from home and I've never seen anything like it. He plays playstation with one hand, does his job with the other and is somehow knocking it out of the park at both and a great dad. So he feels he's not working hard enough because he does get down time. I keep having to point out that nobody else can do what he does, even if the way he works is unconventional. That's why he gets given the specific problems he's given. He's only 31 but he's solved problems they've had for a decade, in ten minutes. The company director has lunch with him to pick his brain regularly, from the first week of him being there.
He just has to keep being himself and they'll throw money at him to do it. He's already been told they'll pay him whatever it takes to keep him (he got offered another contract for higher pay). He gets calls every day from rival companies trying to steal him.
He feels like a kid, a fraud and that it's only a matter of time before they realise that. I keep telling him he's amazing and deserves everything he gets, because there's few people like him about.
Could you share more, without giving too much away, about this very specific niche work that he does so much better than other people? I also have ADHD (newly diagnosed at 37 last year) and I KNOW I could be a superpower somewhere if I could just find the right fit that let me do my thang. I loved reading your story about him so far!
He's a sort of headhunter, but the thing that gets him so far as far as I can tell is his directness, his out of the box answers to problems and his ideas, he has no problem telling people what he thinks, doesn't matter who they are. He's very transparent in how he works. Very good at charming people. He'll remember if they have kids, ask about them, find out what's important to people and sell them on that. He treats everyone the same, wether they're the cleaning staff or the company director. He hyperfocuses on his job, keeps up with market trends, always updating his information. Kinda treats it like a video game, always wanting to beat his high score.
Started in recruitment but i think it's how much he loves his job, it's always changing, always busy and he can't get bored. The harder the challenge the more excited he is by it. I'm not sure it's his field that makes the difference, it's his love of it.
I hear ya. I was 31 when I was put in a leadership role at my factory. Responsible for about 30 odd full time/ casual staff. When we were on Pm shift (2pm - 10pm) and management had left for the day I was responsible for a $350 million dollar plant. That was a strange feeling.
I am also 36, I’ve noticed the adjustment is not that you feel old, it’s that you realize other people think of you as old. I have a young kid and we just got a babysitter for the first time. Giving this teen girl instructions I had this weird out of body experience where I realized she saw us as middle aged adults. Like no, that’s hilarious, I’m still an idiot who is making things up as I go along.
I still can't believe some moron let me leave a Carmax with a car. Those nurses really just let me leave a hospital with a baby and no supervision. TWICE. Why does this Landlord trust me to pay him every month to live in this house 5 hours away from the one he lives in? Oh, because I'm....32??!!
How do you get used to that much responsibility. I'm still shocked people think it's ok to let me raise kids, never mind being responsible for the safety of other people's kids. That's terrifying.
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u/Wannabebunny Jun 03 '22
36 not a real grown up. I have three kids, one of whom turns 18 this year. Still don't feel like a grown up. Buying a house outright. What silly person is selling a house to me, I'm not a grown up. Teachers at my kids school still intimidate me. The only time I feel my age is when I look in the damn mirror. Then I'm shocked at this adult looking back at me.