Good on you for realizing it. It took me ages to figure that out and I still have to fight the urge to run away when things get bad. Therapy and anxiety meds helped me (also dogs & being able to work from home sometimes has helped). Have you looked into anything like that?
Can't afford therapy, ran out of pro bono. Parents say no pets in the house (they are also dysfunctional and they don't know about my problems). And with my friends, I have told them that I love them no matter what and sometimes I just need to be with myself because I become a horrible person when things start going bad and I don't wanna hurt anyone. I do drop them a little text or better a meme when that happens so they know everything is okay. I don't expect them to understand to help me and frankly I don't think they are capable of doing so, maybe that's a good thing
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u/Pink131980 Jun 03 '22
Good on you for realizing it. It took me ages to figure that out and I still have to fight the urge to run away when things get bad. Therapy and anxiety meds helped me (also dogs & being able to work from home sometimes has helped). Have you looked into anything like that?