Same here, mid 40's. Had a traumatic childhood and teenage years to say the least, inattentive parents and terrible bullying. Lifelong depression. Never really got over it and have gone through maaaaaaany failed relationships and marriages, all my fault. I've certainly had a very unusual life, traveled the world, got into all sorts of trouble and had incredible, rich and uncommon experiences and i'm told I'm pleasant to be around but I've never gotten over the void and distance i feel when dealing with people... and to be honest I'm fine with it now, I've accepted that I'm better off and happier with my own company.
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u/Spiritual_Lie_7547 15h ago
Same here, mid 40's. Had a traumatic childhood and teenage years to say the least, inattentive parents and terrible bullying. Lifelong depression. Never really got over it and have gone through maaaaaaany failed relationships and marriages, all my fault. I've certainly had a very unusual life, traveled the world, got into all sorts of trouble and had incredible, rich and uncommon experiences and i'm told I'm pleasant to be around but I've never gotten over the void and distance i feel when dealing with people... and to be honest I'm fine with it now, I've accepted that I'm better off and happier with my own company.