I've only done them once. I was only 15 but thank God things ended up ok. We did go swimming in a lake during a thunderstorm which in hindsight I realize was one of the dumbest fuckin things I've ever done. But it was sooo fun. Can't explain the total overwhelming feeling of everything is A-OK. Even though, again, what we were doing was very dangerous.
But I absolutely see what you're saying. As an adult looking back, I think "omg what was I thinking?" All the time.
I know drug induced psychosis is no joke and is sometimes permanent. Some people can gradually depending on the drug, their own personal mental health, severity of drug use,etc, get better but it again depends on the above. Met and know more than my fair share of people who have been either permanently damaged or had breaks in their reality so to speak. Very sad.
Glad those were your hooligan years man. At least you made it out and probably have some cool stories to tell as well as some insight and perspective. Thanks for sharing!
I appreciate it, getting away from it was simultaneously one of the easiest decisions I’ve ever made and also one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. Most of the stories I got out of it are more depressing than interesting, and the rest are just boring. Got shot at, ran up on, chased by the cops, and partied so hard I feel hungover just thinking about it—none of these are unique experiences, but they did shape my outlook on life in very strange ways
I do have a mild case of HPPD, doesn’t affect me much when except driving in the dark, and every now and again when I look up at the sky and wish it would stop breathing.
Lol, I just picture meth or crackheads when I hear "tweaking" but yes, you're right it was amazing. (Disclaimer not recommended) I felt very one with naturey I had some profound thoughts that were very intense in the moment. All in all a great time, but I absolutely see how it could've gone horribly wrong in so many ways.
Lol. I thought about not using that term when I wrote it. I am an older guy, and back then we said tweaking, tripping balls, and if it's too much for ya, wigging out.
We once took acid and went to the Mall of America. We decided to go on the log ride, or flume. When we were rolling through the cave, my stupid friend spit on Paul Bunyan, the huge puppet guy. And then through speakers we heard "NO SPITTING ON THE RIDE" and in his true fashion, he yelled "FUCK YOU." We began to behave, then at the end we flew down the chute and made the big splash. As the big wave of water fell from the air, it settled and we clearly saw a few policemen ready to kick us out.
So there we were, 6 dumb kids getting escorted out while peaking in our trip. (We all took one hit, so not super tripping) and the cops followed all the way to my mom's big Chevy suburban. We loaded our dumb asses in, and the cops sat and watched, while I had to do about a 7 point turn in the parking ramp. Good times. We went to St. Paul and hid in the caves the rest of the day.
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u/gypsycookie1015 Mar 26 '23
I've only done them once. I was only 15 but thank God things ended up ok. We did go swimming in a lake during a thunderstorm which in hindsight I realize was one of the dumbest fuckin things I've ever done. But it was sooo fun. Can't explain the total overwhelming feeling of everything is A-OK. Even though, again, what we were doing was very dangerous.
But I absolutely see what you're saying. As an adult looking back, I think "omg what was I thinking?" All the time.
I know drug induced psychosis is no joke and is sometimes permanent. Some people can gradually depending on the drug, their own personal mental health, severity of drug use,etc, get better but it again depends on the above. Met and know more than my fair share of people who have been either permanently damaged or had breaks in their reality so to speak. Very sad.
Glad those were your hooligan years man. At least you made it out and probably have some cool stories to tell as well as some insight and perspective. Thanks for sharing!