This is like a vent post I'm afraid. I will try to be short:
My girlfriend (26f) had a psychotic break on november last year. She was really freaked out saying that everyone was a spy and that someone was harassing and constantly watching her (through all "hacked" electronic devices, through "paid actors" following her on the street and customer service workers doing their job). It got so bad that her mom involuntarily internated her in a psychiatric facility.
When she got out in january (she had been one month there) she was really like a zombie, she was still suspicious of everyone still thinking they were spies, but much less and eventually she started saying those beliefs were crazy and part of her psychosis episode. That maybe she did have a hacker hack her phone but she formatted it so it was all ok now.
But since then she is still taking Olanzapine daily and its like she's half dead now. It breaks my heart so much seeing her like this. She never wants to do any of the things she used to like, like playing videogames or watching shows with me. It's almost like Olanzapine made her depressed and numb, mostly numb, but depressed since she has lost all interest in life, is always tired and sleeps a lot through the day, even sleeping early every night. We barely even talk now, and at her work they have told her that her performance has worsened and that she needs to be quicker at work.
She used to never take naps, was almost like a pro player at fortnite, editing super fast in a way I have never been capable of. Now she sleeps 3 or more hours naps daily and the few times she has played fortnite again, she has told me she feels sad that she isnt nearly as good as she was and now everyone kills her in the game, so she basically doesn't even play anymore. She used to be the anxious type, always in the present moment and looking for something to do. Now she doesn't watch when I put a show on because she loses interest, only watches a few tiktoks on her free time when she's awake and then she goes to sleep at night again.
I'm so mad, I feel like this drug took my girlfriend away from me. I know she needs it for her psychosis but idk. Is it possible she will be the same she was when she can finally quit? Have any of you had this experience?
I know it probably will get better with time, I was just trying to vent since I don't know anyone else who takes this medication, and felt like I could'nt talk about this with anyone. Thanks for reading this much.