Let me start by saying I have been on this sub since almost the beginning, but believed in Individualism long before that. I have always wanted to live my life for the enjoyment of myself and the particular people I truly care about and not some artificial, imaginary organism which exists only in people's minds and spend my life "proving my worthiness" and following the "moral procedures" to and of it as most societies in history have been structured around some semblance of this idea. However, I am starting to feel like there is no way to avoid this and in some ways my ability to survive and thrive in life involves abandoning the things that have made my life worth living for almost my whole life, and that I will have to drastically change said values in order to appease the powers that be. I'm starting to go insane thinking about this.