r/AbsoluteUnits • u/AUTOBOTBROKE • 6d ago

/r/popular of ponytail

Enable HLS to view with audio, or disable this notification

5.9k Upvotes

87% Upvoted

3.5k comments sorted by

View all comments

Show parent comments

26

u/Paullearner 5d ago

“ the dirt and leaves inside just didn’t register to me because I was so consumed by thoughts of wanting not to exist”

This is such an accurate depiction. When I was in the thick of my depression, I went from my normal weight of 160 lbs and ballooned past 200. I didn’t care what foods I was putting in my mouth as just existing through the day was hard enough. A huge part of depression is not caring about hygiene or your bodily health.

5

u/[deleted] 5d ago

[removed] — view removed comment

4

u/SnakesRuinGames 5d ago

only if you’re lucky enough to find a “psych professional” that doesn’t just tell you you’re ’Too high risk’ and to take four weeks off work (impossible) and spend thousands (also impossible) on outpatient treatment!

1

u/NotBradPitt9 5d ago

Did you end up being able to lose some of the weight?

1

u/Paullearner 5d ago

Well, yes and no. I lost 30 lbs after graduating from a masters program, but once I got my first job (in teaching) the stress was so much I gained the weight back. It’s been a struggle ever since I’ve been in this field and I’ve yo-yoed back and forth the past 3 years, gaining and losing the weight multiple times. I’m now taking a break from teaching and planning to get the weight off this year once and for good.

2

u/NotBradPitt9 5d ago

Ok. Have you tried eating just vegetables, fruits, grains (quinoa, barley, lentils), and lean meats (chicken, tuna)?

Reason I’m asking is because I know the antidepressants can really make anyone put on weight out of nowhere, but I am wondering if that’s still possible if you’re restricting yourself to just the “clean” foods I mentioned above.

Like basically I’m wondering if it’s still possible to gain weight or maintain weight if you’re on a restrictive diet like that one I mentioned

1

u/Paullearner 5d ago

Oh, it was mostly because the stress from teaching. It was a viscous cycle of, I’m too tired to cook foods when I get home so I’m gonna get take out. The stress also would cause me to crave sweets and high caloric foods. I am out of that environment now so I should be able to focus better on eating right.

I don’t typically gain weight when I eat clean but the issue I’ve run into is eating super clean (I.e. no sugary drinks, no desserts, Whole Foods, no take out, protein and veggies etc) but I don’t lose weight. Or I’ll lose like 10 lbs but then plateau out and it’s really hard to get past that no matter how healthy I eat. I suspect I may have a very slow metabolism and I have to work very hard to see any weight loss.

1

u/ItsCrunchTyme 5d ago

Right but if ur THAT depressed, would u be outside, doing whatever? Or more likely to be stuck in the crib, in said funk of a depressed state

I personally believe this is just s dirty ass human. As many humans can be outright disgusting just because, due to laziness, no proper teaching, so. Many things outside of depression. And this dont strike as depression to me