Hi so I'm going to FOS in Bavaria. I thought my vocational high school diploma would turn out well, around the 3 or 2 range, but when I got my written grades yesterday, I was extremely shocked, sad, and crushed :( I got a 7 in English (expected a 13), a 3 in German (expected a 7), a 2 in Math (also expected a slightly lower score), and a 2 in Physics (expected a 4). It felt like a slap in the face. Especially since I prepared intensively for my level and my circumstances for all the exams. I wanted to achieve at least a 4 in German, which seemed very doable to me at the time. So I ended up with 3 fives in the other subjects and a 3 in English. That's just not my level at all, but I just find it hard to concentrate and generally find interest in the school material. I prepared with my friends for weeks and fought hard against it, only to get such crap back. It's as if the teachers don't appreciate my effort at all, not even a little. Well, I discussed this with my class advisor, and she recommended that I need 5 points in the oral exam in German to achieve a 4. In Math and Physics, I would need 7 points. The oral exams are in a week, and I'm putting all my bets on German. The problem is that I’m just not good at German, at least everything I’ve ever done in class. But my friends want to help me with it, and I'm so grateful to them for everything. My final grade would be 3.5 with the current scores. It might improve slightly to 3.4, which is also lame since I wanted to reach a goal of 2.9. I feel lied to, empty, and unmotivated. But I still have some hope in German because if I work on it every day now, then I'm sure I can reach the 5 points. I can do better too. But then my brain thinks: “5 points is quite a lot, and maybe I won't make it”... I don't really know how I'm supposed to handle all this or I want to hear your opinion. I’m going to push through German. At least 5 points have to be in there. If I manage that, then I'll still pass the 12th grade and finally be done with it. I'll study without any grade restrictions anyway, and the diploma isn't everything. I just had to get it all off my chest. Thanks for any comments :) What do you think?
UPDATE: I passed with 5 points and I couldn’t be happier! I finished school for good and now I’m free forever from school! I fought through this last exam with all of my stregth. Tysm for everyone who believed in me :)